Grant Denyer got emotional talking about his struggles with self-esteem.
The 46-year-old TV star told the Mental like anyone else Podcast that doesn’t like its own reflection.
“I still find it hard to look at myself in the mirror,” the TV presenter admitted, adding that there are times when he avoids being photographed.
“I think being a slightly smaller guy, I was always under threat from bullies, I was an easy target…” he continued.
‘Girls never really invested in you because you weren’t the big, muscular jock type, so you were always very ignored.
“Looking in the mirror is like swallowing razor blades,” he added.
Grant went on to explain how even winning a Gold Logie in 2018 did little to alleviate his shattered self-image.
Grant Denyer (pictured) got emotional as he talked about his self-esteem issues and how much he doesn’t like his own reflection.
“It was very depraved, very cruel. It was very damaging. I was also paralyzed by perfectionism, which is a torturous condition because you are never satisfied with your achievements, no matter how great those moments are,” he said.
“It was constantly attacking me from the inside out. I had to work hard to soften that and it still keeps coming back, it’s an ongoing process. This is the healing that we all do.”
Grant recently burst into tears as he bravely spoke about his struggles with his mental health in a candid new interview.
He spoke about how he contemplated suicide after breaking his back and becoming addicted to painkillers during one of the darkest periods of his life.
Talking to Hit Network Carrie Bickmore and Tommy LittleThe former Sunrise meteorologist became emotional as he recalled his struggles.
Grant, who shares daughters Sailor, 10, Scout, six, and Sunday, two, with wife Chezzi, revealed his family was his only “purpose” during the difficult time.
His voice shaking with emotion, the Deal Or No Deal host bravely shared: “If I hadn’t had a… uh… a kid at the time, I really didn’t see much point in moving forward.”
‘I didn’t have much strength or desire left to continue… so I went for her. ‘I didn’t want (my daughter) to suffer the pain of not having a father around.’
Grant went on to explain how even winning a Gold Logie in 2018 did little to alleviate his shattered personal image.
Grant confessed that he struggled with “low self-esteem” and didn’t like himself at the time, but he loved his daughter enough to get through that very dark period.
“Yes… I could cause myself pain. I didn’t see myself as very good. I wasn’t very lovable. I had very low self-esteem. I had no self-love. But I loved her enough that I didn’t want to hurt her,” he shared.
“If you just put one foot in front of the other and move forward little by little, step by step, you can reach your destination.”
“Having trouble with painkillers after a broken back was the darkest period of my life,” she said during the Carrie and Tommy Show.
‘I was winning races in Supercars, presenting events like Australia’s Got Talent, Sunrise, and then, boom, the handbrake is pulled and you have to sit still for four months.
“I still find it hard to look at myself in the mirror,” the TV presenter admitted, adding that there are times when he avoids being photographed. In the photo he appears with his wife Chezzi.
“Every time you close your eyes, you’re entering into your worst nightmares. So if you say your worst fear is your wife leaving you or your home being invaded, the moment you close your eyes, you’re entering into those worst-case scenarios, every single night.
“And when you wake up, you can’t tell the difference between reality and your dreams. You think everything has happened.”
Grant often speaks publicly about his mental health, recounting how he became addicted to painkillers after breaking his back in a freak monster truck accident in 2008.
The accident left Grant with one vertebra shattered into 11 pieces and doctors feared he would never walk again.
In 2014, Grant attended a wellness center in Thailand that specializes in treating PTSD and burnout.
“Going to Thailand was a challenge, but it was the smartest thing (Chezzi and I) ever did,” he previously shared.
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