For the first time, Fearne Cotton frankly discussed her 10-year battle with bulimia.
In a new interview How to fail with Elizabeth Day podcast, the TV and radio presenter, 38, revealed that she had been struggling with eating disorder for twenty years and managed the & # 39; bad habit & # 39; release & # 39; at night & # 39; when she became a mother.
The media personality – who shares son Rex, six, and daughter Honey, four, with husband Jesse Wood, 43 – insisted that her experience with bulimia was caused by Imposter Syndrome from achieving success on TV at the young age of 15.
Candid: Fearne Cotton discussed her 10-year fight with bulimia for the first time on Wednesday (shown in July)
Host Fearne started her career as a GMTV children's presenter for The Disney Club in 1996, before going to Top of the Pops, the Red Nose Day telethons and even became the first permanent female presenter of the Radio 1 Chart Show in 2007.
And although she seemed to live a happy lifestyle, the native Northwood hid her fight with bulimia from her loved ones and the world.
When they turned & # 39; not good or smart enough & # 39; felt in her work, Fearne admitted that stress eventually manifested itself in mental health.
The blonde explained: & # 39; The most important was an unordered relationship with my body and food for 10 years.
Previous fight: the TV and radio presenter, 38, revealed that she had been struggling with eating disorder for twenty years (shown on Finger Tips in 2002)
Priorities: The media personality – who is mother to son Rex, six and daughter Honey, four – managed to get the & # 39; bad habit & # 39; release & # 39; at night & # 39; when she got older
Fearne insisted that her experience with bulimia was caused by the Imposter syndrome from the moment she reached success on TV at the young age of 15 (photo et al.
& # 39; It has been this weird secret that I was a little ashamed of, a little ashamed of, a little concerned about. I am still worried about what people will think when I share this side of myself.
& # 39; I had this new release that I had come up with myself – to have bulimia. I had that on and off for a good decade of my life. & # 39;
The TV star shared what would spark her on / off battle and added: & # 39; In the early years of my & # 39; 20 it was pretty intense and ruled everything.
& # 39; In my later 20s, it was more a bad habit that I would bump into if something emotional was going on or if I felt out of control. It was my favorite thing, but it was not that normal. & # 39;
Struggle: Fearne insisted that her experience with bulimia was caused by Imposter syndrome from the achievement of success on TV at the tender age of 15 (photo in 2000)
Somehow: while she seemed to live a happy lifestyle, the native Northwood hid her fight with bulimia of the world (shown in February 2003)
The former Lorraine presenter, who only knew her mother Lyn, knew that she was suffering from bulimia, explained: & # 39; It was something that nobody knew about me, because I was sometimes overexposed.
WHAT IS BULIMIA NERVOSA?
According to the NHS, bulimia & # 39; is an eating disorder and a mental disorder & # 39;
& # 39; People with bulimia go through periods in which they eat a lot of food in a very short time and then make themselves sick & # 39 ;, the website adds:
Eating disorder is most common in young women and patients often have a distorted view of their figures
- Eat attacks
- Fear of arriving
- Critical about weight and body shape
- Extreme mood changes
& # 39; Partly it was about control. I had normal family things this first part of my life and the next part changed, and it was sometimes insane, so it was a way of feeling that I was in charge.
& # 39; I'm sad to look back and see how things got out of hand. I never bumped and vomited. I ate regularly, but then I put everything away and it felt like a liberation. & # 39;
The former Xtra Factor host also said that her mother & # 39; will probably be pretty upset & # 39; about her public recognition as & # 39; it was a terrible time & # 39 ;.
In 2011, Fearne started dating the son of Rolling Stones guitarist Ronnie Wood and wanted & # 39; desperate & # 39; becoming a mother shortly after starting a romance.
When parenting marked its turning point, the Only In America star shared: & I had met Jesse and wasn't cleaning it up regularly, but it would still be a relapse if things felt stressful. At this point I really wanted to have a baby.
& # 39; I became pregnant and let everything go. I ate everything in sight. It just went from one day to the next. It came back, the feeling of disgust about my body after birth, but I didn't go back to the disease.
& # 39; I knew I had to follow a very practical way to look at food to maintain my health for myself and my newborn baby. & # 39;
According to the NHS, bulimia is & # 39; an eating disorder and a mental health condition & # 39 ;, in which patients & # 39; go through periods in which they eat a lot of food in a very short time and then make themselves sick & # 39 ;.
Eating disorder is most common in young women and patients often have a distorted view of their figures.
Symptoms include flushing, eating attacks, mood swings, swollen glands, and fear of arriving.
& # 39; I released everything & # 39 ;: in 2011, Fearne started dating musician Jesse Wood and wanted to become a mother after they started a romance (photo pregnant in October 2012)
Furthermore: Fearne has been married since July 2014 to the son of Rolling Stones guitarist Ronnie Wood (shown in May)
Fearne was open about her psychological problems in the past and last year she revealed that her fight against depression started three years earlier when she worked at Radio 1.
"I went through a very bad patch, where I became a much rougher version of myself," she said Red magazine. "(It took more than a year). Maybe two.
"There were some extraordinarily dark pieces where I thought," I don't understand how to trust, how to be, how to feel good with my eyes on me. "She said the depression gave her a & # 39; huge confidence boost & # 39; making her feel unable to watch live television.
She wrote her husband to help her through her difficult time, despite many & # 39; arguments & # 39 ;.
Open: the BBC star has discussed her mental health problems, including depression and anxiety, in the past (pictured earlier this year)
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