Vicky Pattison details her lowest moment and how she deals with ‘trauma’
Vicky Pattison has opened up at her lowest point, admitting she had “a little meltdown” several years ago.
The reality star, 34, spoke exclusively to MailOnline in collaboration with her lingerie edit for Pour Moi, detailing how she has dealt with past traumas, including her father’s alcoholism.
She admitted: ‘There was a time when I was desperate for a break. I went from a very traumatic relationship breakup to a very toxic relationship and filmed a series in Australia and was promised a break.
Dark time: Vicky Pattison has opened up at her lowest point, admitting she had ‘a little meltdown’ several years ago
“But because the show was so successful, they needed another series. So, they told me you don’t have to come in and do this series, we’ll just replace you.
‘And like I feel so undervalued and essentially replaceable. And I had a little meltdown.
“I knew no one was looking out for us and I didn’t feel strong enough to look out for myself and it was horrible.” That was a really low point for me.
Vicky also spoke about her upcoming Channel 4 documentary on alcohol abuse and her own personal experience.
Trauma: The reality star, 34, spoke exclusively to MailOnline in collaboration with her lingerie edition for Pour Moi, detailing how she has dealt with past trauma, including her father’s alcoholism
She confessed: ‘A big concern for me when I was younger, was God going to end up like my father? And I still worried about it until recently.
“In the documentary I go on a journey of self-discovery. There were so many things I didn’t understand about my father’s illness, and what he had been through, what I had been through.
“I think with trauma you push it down, you compartmentalize it, but this documentary forces us to process things that have been dormant for quite some time, so it’s incredibly cathartic and I hope it helps people like it helped me. Many people struggle with being a child of an alcoholic and feel shame, and we should be over that by now, it’s 2022.”
Speaking about the turning point in her journey, Vicky said: “I think it happened quite organically as I got older.
Candid: Vicky also spoke about her upcoming Channel 4 documentary on alcohol abuse and her own personal experience.
“I realized that many of the self-sabotaging habits that I had did not bring me peace, they only provided temporary relief from my problems or worries, but eventually you had to face them again at the end.
So I made some positive changes in my life, I removed negative habits, I removed myself from toxic situations. I worked hard to try to surround myself with better people.
“I’d be lying if I said all of that was easy and I figured it all out, we’re always trying to evolve as human beings and I’m still trying to be better.”
Despite having changed her life, Vicky reveals that there are always people who will judge her for her past.
Judgment: Despite having her life turned around, Vicky reveals that there are always people who will judge her for her past.
She explained: ‘I think there will always be people who refuse to accept your growth. Every time I post something positive or really uplifting or pretty progressive on my Instagram, there’s always some k******* who says “Aren’t you the same girl who did XYZ on Geordie Shore?”
“I think you have to accept that there are some people in life who will be intimidated by your growth and it’s not my problem.
“It’s predominantly men who are really desperate to keep you small, and I’m not small and I’m very proud of everything I’ve done and the person I’m becoming, so I’m not going to let anyone hold me down.” . I am back.
“I can’t control how people see me, so I have to continue to make sure I’m okay with how I look.”
Loved: Vicky, who recently got engaged to the ‘love of my life’ Ercan Ramadan, is currently freezing her eggs.
Vicky, who recently got engaged to the “love of my life” Ercan Ramadan, is currently in the process of having her eggs frozen.
She revealed: ‘I definitely don’t plan on having kids anytime soon. I’m just not ready, I think I want to get married and travel a little more and focus on my work right now.
“I think we’ll know when the time is right, but I just don’t want to be in the position when the time is right and it’s too late for my body.”
Previously the star had said that she did not want children, but after meeting Ercan she has changed her mind about motherhood.
She said: ‘When I first said I didn’t want children, I was like 27 and a lot of women probably don’t feel ready. I know that my sister and some of my friends had a burning desire to have children since they were 16 years old, but it took me a little longer.
I still know that I am 34 years old and I know that eventually I want to be a mom, but I know that now is not the time. I just think it takes some women a little longer to feel that maternal instinct.
“That’s where I feel like mother nature is playing a cruel trick because right when you’re in your thirties that’s when it started happening to me, and that’s when you really have to start worrying.”
“I think mine just happened when I grew up naturally and found someone I wanted to share my life with and was really comfortable with.”
Speaking about her new Pour Moi collection, Vicky explained: “I’ve been a fan of Pour Moi for years, even before I worked with them I used their stuff.
“I have big breasts and a big butt and for years I got really tired of my buttocks sticking out of my bikini bottom or my muffin top sticking out of the top or my panties falling off. boobs. I never felt like I could get anything.” which fits well.
‘Pour Moi is different, they’re super inclusive, they started out as a lingerie brand, so they have a great understanding of women’s bodies.
“We’ve worked hard to create a collection that is both sexy, fun and feminine, but also looks great.”
The Pour Moi x Vicky Pattison edition is available from 26the May 2022, exclusively online
Huge fan: Speaking about her new Pour Moi collection, Vicky explained, “I’ve been a fan of Pour Moi for years, even before I worked with them I used their stuff.”