She was one of the most distributive participants in the Bachelor's season this year.
And Abbie Chatfield has announced that after the show she will be a better person & # 39; even if she cannot remember exactly what she was doing.
In a video shared with the Shameless Facebook page after Thursday's season finale, a & # 39; drunk wine & # 39; Abbie thanked her supporters for following her journey.
Learning Experience: The Bachelor's Abbie Chatfield has announced that she & # 39; a better person & # 39; trying to be – even if she can't really remember what she said in the show
The controversial reality star said she had paid a lot of attention to fan comments – even the negative ones – and & # 39; took [the criticism] & # 39 ;.
& # 39; I have tried to become a better person here. I'm pretty young, as we've all heard throughout the season, & she added with a smile.
Abbie described the final, in which she was brutally dumped by Matt Agnew, as & # 39; rough to see & # 39; and admitted that she had cried & # 39; properly & # 39 ;.
She confessed that she also suffered from & # 39; stress acne & # 39; over the past few months while struggling with the aftermath of the show.
Heartache: Abbie described the final, in which she was dramatically dumped by Bachelor Matt Agnew, as & # 39; rough to see & # 39 ;, and admitted that she had cried & # 39; properly & # 39;
In an interview with News.com.au on Friday, Abbie sensationally claimed that she couldn't remember being dumped by Matt because she was & # 39; darkened & # 39 ;.
She claimed to have no memory of storms and to tell producers: & # 39; Get me as far away from him as possible. I want to go home. & # 39;
& # 39; I can't remember saying that, & # 39; she said before acknowledging that she had had a collapse after her return to her hotel.
Listening: In what she described as a & # 39; wine-drunk video & # 39; posted on the shameless Facebook page after Thursday's dramatic final, the 23-year-old admitted that she had been keeping a close eye on fans' comments
She added: & # 39; The producer came in and said, "Darl, that was one of the funniest things, you say that." I said, "What are you saying?"
& # 39; He told me what I said [about getting away from Matt] and I was completely darkened, I can't remember anything about it. & # 39;
Abbie shared a post on Instagram shortly after the broadcast final, reflecting on her breaking.
Forgetful: in an interview with News.com.au on Friday, Abbie claimed that she & # 39; blackout & # 39; was after she was dumped by Matt during the Thursday night final
She told fans that she was in & # 39; complete and total shock & # 39; was and numbed & # 39; felt, after she was convinced that she would be the winner.
Abbie explained: & # 39; I had felt for weeks that what Matt and I really had was and I trusted him wholeheartedly when he told me how he thought about me …
& # 39; It didn't feel like we were filming a show at all, it felt like we had built this real relationship into a little bubble from The Bachelor and we'd be out of it quickly and live a normal life. & # 39 ;
Memory Loss: She said she couldn't remember being rushed away before telling the producers: & Get me away from him. I want to go home & # 39;
Abbie added that she was devastated after discovering that her feelings for Matt were not being answered.
& # 39; I felt stupid to imagine that Matt would love me. It was like emotional whiplash, & she explained.
& # 39; As soon as the & # 39; s camera went out, I sobbed. I screamed. I couldn't breathe. I didn't think this would be how we would end.
Unbelief: She said she was in & # 39; complete and total shock & # 39; was and numbed & # 39; felt, after she was convinced that she would be the winner
& # 39; I cried for weeks for this relationship that was almost non-existent. I am still not completely healed from my relationship with Matt. & # 39;
Despite her personal fear of death, Abbie insisted that she be happy for Matt and his winning contestant, Chelsie McLeod.
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Loved up: Abbie said she is happy to see Matt so happy with Chelsie McLeod, for whom he declared his love in the final
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