Malin Andersson has revealed she “hit rock bottom” before checking into a £12,000 rehab clinic to combat alcohol and drug abuse.
The former Love Island star, 31, shared a selfie on Instagram on Tuesday from her first day on the recovery program following her check-in.
She admitted her “heart aches” looking at the photo, but she hopes sharing her story will “help someone else” going through similar situations.
Malin, who rose to fame in the second series of Love Island in 2016, signed up for a three-week program after losing control following self-medication following a series of personal tragedies.
She lost her baby daughter Consy in January 2019, when she died a month after birth.Just weeks after Malin’s mother, Consy-Gloria, died following a battle with cancer.
Malin Andersson has revealed she “hit rock bottom” before checking into a £12,000 rehab clinic to combat alcohol and drug abuse.
The former Love Island star, 31, shared a selfie on Instagram on Tuesday from her first day on the recovery program after checking in.
The reality star welcomed another daughter in January 2022, but split from the baby’s father, Jared, shortly after her birth.
Malin also lost her father to cancer, struggled with eating disorders, lost friends to suicide, and survived domestic violence.
Sharing a lengthy message, Malin admitted that “alcohol was the friend that kept the pain away” but she didn’t realize she was in “denial” about her alcohol and drug problem.
After reaching a truly “low” point, Malin became “afraid” that she would “commit suicide” after drinking and mixing if she did not get help.
She wrote: “Day 1 of rehab. The background in a photo. It hurts my heart to see her. I felt nervous posting this, but it’s the truth – and I realize maybe it can help someone else.
“I’ve been going around a drunken merry-go-round for a long time. It was my secret elixir for domestic violence, rape, heartbreak, and eating disorders.
“It was my friend who kept my pain at bay…for now. But what I didn’t realize was that I was refusing to go along for the ride.
“Round and round in viscous cycles…it started with ‘I’m just having one drink’ and ended with a frenzy…to repeat. Why wasn’t I aware of the pattern I was in? Maybe I was.
She admitted to having “a pain in my heart” when looking at the photo, but she hoped sharing her story would “help someone else” going through similar situations.
Sharing a lengthy message, Malin admitted that ‘alcohol was the friend that kept the pain away’, but she didn’t realize she was in ‘denial’ until she was ‘afraid’ of ‘killing herself “.
“Maybe I didn’t want to break free because I knew what was going to happen…the truth. The truth of the need to heal. Heal the empty hole that was only getting bigger with alcohol.
“You always have to hit rock bottom. I was afraid of killing myself the next day after drinking and mixing. I couldn’t live like that anymore – feeling so depressed – I kept creating more pain and prolonging the natural healing of all the wounds.
The ITV2 star told fans everything will be fine as she is proof you can come out the other side as she is “still standing” and “evolved through the pain”.
She continued: “You can get off the ride at any time you want. You hold the power to welcome happiness and abundance into your life.
“Alcohol robs you of yourself… it pulls you into the deep end, so you struggle, but you still have your head above water, so you think everything is fine. You’re not not.
“You can experience a state of happiness with clarity in your head and trauma that needs to be examined.
“You will begin to level the two parts of your brain and unite your subconscious and conscious mind in harmony to reframe your belief system. You can’t do that with alcohol. It keeps you in the fog.
“True happiness comes when we become aware of what no longer works for our soul.
“You must carefully examine EVERY dark aspect of your being so that you can wake up and NEED NOTHING to alter your state of mind or attach anything or anyone.
Malin enrolled in a three-week program after self-medicating following a series of personal tragedies in 2019 when her mother Consy-Gloria died following a battle with cancer.
Malin’s daughter Consy tragically died aged just one month after being treated at Great Ormond Street Hospital.
The reality star welcomed another daughter in January 2022, but split from the baby’s father, Jared, shortly after her arrival.
“Our deepest authentic self wants us to return home, to our true selves. Free from attachment to anything that is not good for us.
‘Everything will be alright. In the end, it always works. I’m still standing and I’m here now to show you how much you CAN EVOLVE THROUGH PAIN.’
In August 2023, Malin was rushed to the hospital due to a flare-up of her irritable bowel syndrome (IBS).
She said: “I developed IBS during my teenage years, after struggling with my self-image I abused laxatives to empty my body.
I remember waking up every day with horrible cramps and having to go to the bathroom just so I could “look and feel thinner.”
Malin spent 2023 focusing on her health and “internal healing,” after welcoming her daughter, Xaya, in January 2022.
Malin previously revealed the brutality of the trolling she received on Instagram following her weight loss.
The former Love Island star recalled that she had “never experienced anything like this” since adopting a healthy lifestyle.
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Malin also lost her father to cancer, struggled with an eating disorder for which she was cruelly criticized, lost friends to suicide, and survived domestic violence.