BTS member RM (formerly known as Rap Monster) revealed that he sometimes wanted to ‘die’ due to the pressures of being the South Korean boyband’s leader.
The music artist, 29, who is currently undergoing mandatory military service, got candid about the expectations he has faced while speaking with his partner Jimin.
The chat was filmed shortly before RM began his military service in December 2023, and the star also showed a glimpse of his latest studio album Right Place, Wrong Person, which was officially released on May 24.
During the discussion, which was broadcast on the group’s main channel youtube page On Friday, RM opened up about his feelings about being the leader of the band, which also consists of Jimin, V, Jin, Suga, J-Hope and Jungkook.
‘On our team, I’m the one who says all the right things, the nice things. “I take a step forward to represent the team,” he explained.
BTS member RM (formerly known as Rap Monster), 29, revealed that he felt like he wanted to “die” due to the pressures of being the South Korean boyband’s leader.
The chat was filmed shortly before RM began his military service in December 2023, and the star also showed a glimpse of his latest studio album Right Place, Wrong Person, which was officially released on May 24; seen in 2020 in Seoul
‘That’s what I always do. And people expect me to give speeches and do interviews,” she continued, with Jimin adding, “In English.”
RM said: ‘Correct. And talking and things like that. But actually, you know me, so you know this, but I’m really just a 29-year-old unimportant guy living in Korea. That is what I am.’
Jimin chimed in to respond, “I understand what you’re talking about,” and the rapper added, “I guess I couldn’t say I’m ‘average,’ but I’m only 29 and I live a slightly different life than everyone else.”
‘The same goes for you. You’re just a 28 year old kid. But for the last ten years we have felt this burden.”
“At some point, we had to be conscientious and different,” RM said. “I love BTS because of our music.”
He later revealed, however, that if he ‘kept worrying about what everyone else thought, if he kept this up, he just… felt like he wanted to die.’
“Because I can’t say the things I want to say, it’s not that I want to say whatever comes to mind, I think that’s why I worked on this album,” the star added.
The video later jumped to a solo confessional with Jimin, who reflected RM’s feelings.
During the discussion, which was posted on the group’s main YouTube page on Friday, RM talked about his feelings about being the leader of the band, which also consists of Jimin, V, Jin, Suga, J-Hope and Jungkook; seen in 2022 in Las Vegas
‘On our team, I’m the one who says all the right things, the nice things. “I take a step forward to represent the team,” he explained.
RM said: ‘Correct. And talking and things like that. But actually, you know me, so you know this, but I’m really just a 29-year-old unimportant guy living in Korea. That is what I am’
Jimin chimed in to respond, “I understand what you’re talking about,” and the rapper added, “I guess I couldn’t say I’m ‘average,’ but I’m only 29 and I live a slightly different life than everyone else.”
‘The same goes for you. You’re just a 28 year old kid. But for the last ten years we have felt this burden,” added RM.
He then revealed that if he “kept worrying about what everyone else thought, if he kept this up, he just… felt like he wanted to die.”
‘I don’t know. I just know that I was going through a difficult time and the weight of being the leader of BTS is something I can’t even imagine.”
“I’m right next to him, though,” Jimin continued. “I can’t imagine what that pressure would feel like. I’m not saying it’s not difficult for the other members too, but the weight of being the leader is a little different.’
‘I’m sure our fans know what I mean. I learn a lot from watching him from behind, so when I see a side of him that is very human from time to time, I feel for him.”
Elsewhere in the 30-minute clip, Jimin explained about RM, “He always felt a lot of pressure on the team and there were so many things he wanted to do for the members.”
“He had a lot to say to our fans, so always thinking about it really stressed him out.” “You have great things to say and great ideas, but if you start thinking about what other people think, it becomes very stressful.”
RM also had the opportunity to talk about his second studio album: Right Place, Wrong Person featuring Jimin.
At one point, Jimin questioned the meaning behind the LP’s title, to which RM responded, “Someone like me.”
“For example, it’s like working in a company, but you feel out of place at work… I shouldn’t be there… If you think about that while you listen, it will be interesting.”
“Because I can’t say the things I want to say, it’s not that I want to say what comes to mind, I think that’s why I worked on this album,” the star added.
‘I don’t know. I just know that he was going through a difficult time, and the weight of being the leader of BTS is something I can’t even imagine,’ Jimin said about RM; seen in 2021 in Seoul
The star also explained the motivation behind the album, stating, “I really wanted to be as honest as possible.”
“And while I was working on my new album… since it’s about good and evil, a lot of things happened to me while I was working on it.”
The music artist continued: ‘So many things happened that most people would never experience in their lives. And I ended up taking a completely different tack.’
The star released Right Place, Wrong Person on Friday and is the rapper’s second solo studio album. He previously released the LP titled Indigo, in 2022.
The star released Right Place, Wrong Person on Friday and it is the rapper’s second studio album. He previously released the LP titled Indigo, in 2022.
In 2013, Namjoon debuted with South Korean boyband BTS, after training for a total of three years. Since then, the group has gained a global fan base as well as numerous accolades, including five Grammy nominations; seen in 2022 in Seoul
He has also released two solo mixtapes in the past, including RM (2015) and Mono (2018).
Right Place, Wrong Person is currently #59 on the iTunes Top Albums chart since it was removed.
A total of 11 tracks are also found on the LP, including LOST!, Nuts and Come Back To Me.
In 2013, Namjoon debuted with South Korean boyband BTS, after training for a total of three years. Since then, the group has gained a global fan base as well as numerous accolades, including five Grammy nominations.