Bridget Malcolm is candid about having a panic attack because her driver smelled like the man who allegedly sexually assaulted her when she was a teenager, saying she lost ‘a decade’ of her life to post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) .
The Australian model, 29, describes the incident in a candid TikTok on Wednesday, less than two months after she shared a video of how she was sexually assaulted multiple times before she was 18.
“Earlier this week I was in a Lyft and my driver smelled like my child molester and that resulted in me being triggered throughout the hour-long ride, feeling frozen, feeling a lot of anxiety, intensely uncomfortable, and just panicking because I had a lot of flashbacks,” she recalls.
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Share: Bridget Malcolm, 29, opened up about her recent panic attack in a candid TikTok video, explaining she has post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)
Difficult to handle: Australian model explained that during her one-hour Lyft ride last week, she panicked because her driver ‘smelled like my child molester’
“And when I finally finished the ride and got out of the car, I had a panic attack — and this is my life,” continued Malcolm, who said she suffers from PTSD from the abuse.
The former Victoria’s Secret model explained that something like a scent can trigger her to have flashbacks and panic attacks, saying, “I kind of feel like a teenager again.”
Malcolm went on to share her frustration that the justice system doesn’t value women’s voices and abandons survivors like her.
“I want to know why women’s voices are not believed and not considered important,” she said. “I’ve lost a decade of my life dealing with symptoms and the consequences of this one person’s actions. Why isn’t my vote important enough to be counted?’
Feeling ignored: Malcolm further shared her frustration that the justice system doesn’t value women’s voices and abandons survivors like her
Malcolm claimed she tried to press charges against the person who sexually assaulted her, but was told “there was not enough evidence,” although she provided emails, witness statements and confirmations.
‘It’s just how much more do you need? How much more of my life do you have to take from me?’ she asked. “Anyway, I’m fine. I’m recovering well, and I’m learning to live with this one person’s actions, but it’s driving me really fucking crazy, really, really mad.
“And I think if the justice system abandons women like me who are survivors of sexual trauma, especially historical ones, I think I’ll just make TikToks about it.”
Malcolm ended her video with a message to others who face similar issues in their own lives.
“To all my fellow survivors out there, I say you’re strong, you’re powerful, one person’s actions don’t have to dictate the rest of your life,” she said. “Go to therapy and find your strength.”
Opening: Malcolm’s latest TikTok comes less than two months after she shared a video about how she was sexually assaulted multiple times before she was 18
Frustrating: The former Victoria’s Secret star (pictured in 2015) claimed she tried to press charges against the person who assaulted her but was told there wasn’t enough evidence
Malcom, who has more than 60,000 TikTok followers, uses her platform to speak out against the fashion industry and describes the alleged abuse she experienced as a teenage model.
“When I was 18, I lived alone in three countries,” she said in a June 30 message. ‘I traveled to every continent except Antarctica. I was looked after by a much older man. I had been sexually abused several times.’
She claimed her agencies pressured her to lose weight, saying she was repeatedly told to “use cocaine” and have “a lot of sex” while underage to shed pounds from her already thin frame. .
Malcolm shared that she struggled with gender identity, anorexia, orthorexia, anxiety and depression during this period of her life.
‘I couldn’t socialize without drinking. I started to become quite dependent on Xanax and Ambien to get through the night. And that was before I turned 18,” she explained. “It didn’t get any better from there.
Voice: Malcom, who has more than 60,000 TikTok followers, is using her platform to speak out against the fashion industry as she faces the alleged abuse she has experienced
Delighted: The model recently shared that she’s now been “more than two years sober” and “recovering from an eating disorder for four years” and said: “I feel the best I’ve ever felt”
“Eight years later, on my 26th birthday, I had a nervous breakdown and couldn’t leave my house for a year without panic attacks and severe anxiety. I also had a suicidal attack which was terrifying. That was four years ago.’
Malcolm said she’s now been “more than two years sober” and “recovering from an eating disorder for four years,” which is why she feels strong enough to speak out against the industry.
‘I’m happy. I am in balance. I’m strong and I feel the best I’ve ever felt,” she shared. “The reality is that I couldn’t talk about my experiences before reaching this place because I would have intense PTSD flashbacks. I would have panic attacks and I would be out of order.
“But I’m fine now, so I’m speaking out.”