A £ 90,000 city worker accused of murdering her four-week-old daughter with her Lithuanian lover told the police “my God, I am such a bad mother” hours before her daughter’s death, a court heard.
Financial advisor Clare Sanders (43) and Tomas Vaitkevicius (45) allegedly shook Eva three times in their South London flat during the first weeks of her young life.
The Sanders mobile phone was used to search for “shaken NHS baby syndrome”, “shaking babies” and “baby shakes” on August 27, 2017, six days before Eva’s death.
Clare Sanders (left), 43, and her Lithuanian lover Tomas Vaitkevicius (right), 45, are said to have shaken little Eva on August 3 in their South London flat in August 2017. Both deny murder and an alternative count of causing or allow the death of a vulnerable child
Sanders’ (above) mobile phone was used to search for ‘shaken baby NHS syndrome’, ‘shaking babies’ and’ baby shakes’ on August 27, 2017, six days before Eva’s death
Old Bailey jurors heard the transcript of Sanders’ police interview, recorded hours before Eva died, in which she admitted that she had drunk a bottle of ‘a drink’ the night before.
Paramedics were sent to the house of the couple in Mitcham on September 1 at 2.40 am after an emergency call was made by neighbor Karen Brewell who lived in the same apartment building in Mitcham, South London, as the couple.
Financial advisor Sanders knocked on her door and shouted, “My baby, my baby,” while little Eva lay on her back in a diaper.
Eva was rushed to a hospital in South London because paramedics tried to treat her.
She was declared dead shortly before 7 am on 2 September 2017 and a post-mortem later gave the cause of death as “traumatic brain and spinal cord injury.”
Claire Harden-Frost, prosecuted, read Sanders’ police interview from the evening of 1 September.
Sanders said: ‘It’s all my fault that I didn’t keep an eye on her. Tom (Vaitkevicius) had already drunk a few beers. We had something of that liqueur thing.
“I washed the glass, so we finished it.”
After an interviewing officer asked if she had opened it ‘for the feed’, she replied: ‘No, I don’t think so. Oh my god, are we negligent? “
The officer asked, “So you wrote that Tom did the feed, but you can’t remember if you saw him?”
Sanders replied: “Oh my god, oh god, it’s all my fault.”
When she called the neighbors for help, Sanders said: ‘I went to the neighbors and I called them. I just said he wasn’t breathing. What have I done to my child? “
Jury members of the Old Bailey, above, heard the transcript of Sanders’ police interview, recorded before Eva died, in which she admitted that she had made up a bottle of ‘a drink thing’ the night before
About her husband’s whereabouts when she was Eva in the ambulance, Sanders said, “At the house. Why was he at home? Why didn’t he get in the ambulance? Oh my god, was it my fault what happened to her?
“My god, I am such a bad mother.”
Sanders also talked about discovering her ‘gray and lifeless’ baby.
She said: ‘She was sitting in the pram by the window. I picked her up and that’s when the milk goes out. I should have done it, I should have watched her. She was lying on her back. I brought her to my face.
“The milk came out. It was a stream. I screamed. Was it milk, was it blood? I do not know. I thought it was milk. I screamed and handed her to Tom, Tom came in. I just said she’s not breathing. “
About how she knew her baby wasn’t breathing, Sanders said, “I don’t know, she was gray and lifeless. Have I just imagined it all? I was just panicking. I don’t really remember it. “
Jury members were told earlier that the couple had been together for a few years.
Eva was born on August 2, 2017 and was the first child of Sanders.
Sanders and Vaitkevicius, of Mitcham, both deny murder and an alternative count of causing or allowing the death of a vulnerable child.
The process continues.