Vanessa Bauer has spoken candidly about her ‘aggressive’ struggles with an eating disorder after learning of Nikki Grahame’s tragic death from anorexia.
The 24-year-old Dancing on Ice star took to Instagram on Monday to share a series of lingerie-clad photos, telling followers, ‘I always thought I could never model lingerie for personal battles with my confidence.’
Big Brother star Nikki lost her battle with anorexia on Friday, and Vanessa told fans she hoped her post would help others realize ‘they are not alone’.
Frank: Vanessa Bauer, 24, has spoken candidly about her ‘aggressive’ battle with an eating disorder after seeing the ‘tragic news of a lost battle with an eating disorder’
Beautiful: She took to Instagram on Monday to share a series of lingerie-clad photos, telling fans, ‘I always thought I could never model lingerie for personal battles with my body confidence’
In addition to her inspirational message, the Dancing On Ice professional shared eight beautiful photos of herself wearing several pieces from Rihanna’s Savage X Fenty lingerie line after learning to be comfortable in her own skin.
Opening in her caption, the brunette beauty stressed that there is “not enough awareness around ED,” adding, “They are not being taken seriously enough.”
She wrote in full: ‘Sunday vibes and personal thoughts. I always thought I could never fashion lingerie for personal battles with my body confidence.
Tragic: Nikki Grahame lost her battle against anorexia on Friday. A statement said: ‘It is with immeasurable sadness that Nikki passed away in the early hours of Friday, April 9’ (photo 2017)
“ If you’ve been following me for a while, you may know about my previous battle with an aggressive eating disorder, as I brought it up a while ago.
This was meant to be a different kind of message, but today I saw tragic news of a losing battle with an ED. It made me realize again that there isn’t enough awareness around ED.
‘They are not taken seriously enough. And it costs lives … I suffered almost ten years ago. It eventually ended my competitive skating career.
And over the years, I’ve been strong enough to speak openly and raise awareness in the hope of helping people who are also suffering.
Wow: In addition to her inspirational message, the Dancing On Ice professional shared eight beautiful photos of herself wearing various pieces from Rihanna’s Savage X Fenty lingerie line
Important: Vanessa told fans she hoped her post would help others realize ‘they are not alone and the vicious circle can be broken’
‘To show them that they are not alone and that the vicious circle can be broken !! Although these are beautiful photos of the amazing @nasibag, they represent so much more to me personally. ‘
She concluded, “You deserve to feel bright, happy, confident, and comfortable.”
Her friends announced over the weekend that Nikki had died at the age of 38 on Friday morning after a thirty-year battle with anorexia.
A statement from Nikki’s representative shared Saturday said: “ It is with immeasurable sadness that Nikki Grahame passed away in the early hours of Friday, April 9, 2021. Please respect the privacy of Nikki’s friends and family in this tragic and difficult time. ”
Lovely: From a bright green bra and matching briefs to a gorgeous floral two-piece, Vanessa looked radiant in the candid snaps
Honestly: Opening up in her caption, the brunette beauty stressed that there is ‘not enough awareness around ED’, adding, ‘They are not being taken seriously enough’
The star is believed to have been released from hospital in Devon a day before her tragic death.
Last month, Nikki’s friends had run a fundraiser to raise money so she could receive specialist treatment.
Vanessa first discussed her battle against eating disorders and mental health in 2019.
She uploaded a striking lingerie selfie of herself, letting her legions of followers know that she was constantly being told that she was growing up fat, which did not boost her confidence as her skating career took off.
The sensational talent also admitted that hiding her struggles for four years put her into a deep depression, which then prompted her to cut ties with her, as they didn’t want anything to do with someone suffering from mental health issues.
Sad: Vanessa also revealed her own struggles with an eating disorder ended her professional skating career
Vanessa wrote: ‘If you are struggling, SEEK HELP. Admitting, accepting, and sharing are the first steps to recovery. ‘
She continued: ‘I’ve posted this before but I’m reaching a lot more people now and it’s so important to spread the word ❗️ Before starting shows I never thought I’d feel comfortable in front of the camera in a bikini or much less in underwear!
‘Every day I was told I’m overweight (which I wasn’t!) And it did nothing but shrink my confidence to nothing!
Vanessa started out by saying, ‘Sunday vibes and personal thoughts. I always thought I could never model lingerie for personal battles with my body confidence ‘
When I was 13, when my skating career took off, circumstances, comments, and lots of voices led to a combination of eating disorders. Completely ashamed and always wanting to be the best in everything I did, I hid my struggles – for 4 years ❗️
Appearing as the strong Vanessa, no one would have ever thought of my mental health issues. 4 years later I couldn’t take the pressure anymore. I fell into depression on top of my eating disorders.
‘My coach discovered my MENTAL HEALTH SITUATION and did not want anything to do with the girl who ended up in psychological therapy !! They were the most devastating years of my life, but I still managed to hide the whole situation from everyone around me.
‘I kept EXCELLEN at school and seemed STRONG until no one was around. I had to vent my therapist and that was it.
‘I thought it wasn’t working and it was my own fault that I got these psychological problems. I was ashamed of myself and thought these years were a period I will always have to hide because it shows a WEAK side of me.
‘I had to STOP SKATING. However, I only got worse without skates and then I realized that figure skating is my greatest PASSION and love. ❤️⛸ I am now incredibly proud of myself for how far I have come.
‘On my own and for myself, I trained my way back in my passion. Being a professional figure skater traveling the world DOING WHAT I LOVE became the best therapy! Things turned out differently than I wanted, but everything turned out for the better.
‘Skating gives me life and there is no happier place for me than ON STAGE PERFORMING❤️ I fell in love with taking care of my body and I’m still working on my mind!’
Brave: Vanessa first spoke about her battle with eating disorders and mental health in 2019