She has been involved in a series of high-profile scandals, one of them being an elaborate drugs operation by The Sun’s famous fake sheikh that left her fearing for her life.
And Tulisa Contostavlos revealed she continues to feel “threatened” as she revealed she has slept with a knife under her bed since her nightmare case in 2013.
Tulisa almost spent four years in prison after being arrested on suspicion of supplying class A drugs when Mazher Mahmood, also known as the fake sheikh, tricked her into giving him a contact from whom he bought £800 worth of cocaine. pounds sterling.
The N-Dubz singer, 36, said she had slept with a gun under her bed for most of her life after thinking “people were trying to kill her” when Mahmood cheated on her.
Tulisa was offered £3.5 million for the role with the promise that she would star alongside Leonardo DiCaprio. She was flown to Las Vegas to meet with producers.
In the second part of Paul C Brunson We need to talk podcastShe admitted: ‘I live as if I was still threatened to this day. I have slept with a knife under the bed almost my entire life.
Tulisa Contostavlos, 36, revealed she continues to feel “threatened” and revealed she sleeps with a knife under her bed following her elaborate drug stint in 2013.
Tulisa almost spent four years in prison after being arrested on suspicion of supplying class A drugs when Mazher Mahmood, also known as the fake sheikh, tricked her into giving him a contact from whom he bought £800 worth of cocaine. sterling.
‘Don’t you know what I’m preparing for some kind of assassination attempt? I know it sounds crazy.
‘I practice archery at home, I have a bow and arrow. I’m prepared, if I hear a knock in the night, I’m ready to go.
‘It’s that energy. I don’t live thinking about it, but as soon as I hear one I get up and I’m ready to go.
Tulisa also revealed that she urged ITV to “take her off camera” in the days after her exit from I’m A Celebrity because she was having a “breakdown”.
She made a quick exit from Australia within days of being kicked out of the jungle, having removed all traces of her appearance on the ITV show from her Instagram.
Tulisa left fans wondering why she suddenly left Australia and decided not to appear on the Coming Out show alongside her campmates.
She said: ‘When I came out, I started crying when I had the first moment to myself.
And the first thing I did when I talked to my team was they said, “What’s going on?”
The N-Dubz singer said she slept with a gun under her bed for most of her life after thinking “people were trying to kill her” when Mahmood was cheating on her.
Tulisa was offered £3.5 million for the role with the promise that she would star alongside Leonardo DiCaprio. She was flown to Las Vegas to meet with producers (pictured in 2013).
In part two of Paul C Brunson’s We Need To Talk podcast, she admitted: “I live like I’m still threatened to this day.” I have slept with a knife under the bed almost my entire life.
‘Don’t you know what I’m preparing for some kind of assassination attempt? I know it sounds crazy. I practice archery at home, I have a bow and arrow. I am prepared, if I hear a knock in the night I am ready to go;
And I said, “Please don’t put me in front of the camera again.” I need to go now, too much. “I’m very proud of myself, but I tried too hard, too soon, I need to come home.”
She added: ‘Do you want it to be there on principle? When am I having a nervous breakdown right now? No, I need to go home and process this.
“I guess in a way I’m lucky to be that person who says if my mind doesn’t feel healthy, I’m going to take care of myself.” I’m not going to push myself any harder on any limit. I need to take care of myself, I need to protect myself.’
Finally revealing why she chose to archive all of her I’m A Celebrity photos on her Instagram when she emerged from the jungle, Tulisa said: “I deleted everything.”
‘I went out and the same night I was crying I thought I was not going to appear on camera again.
‘I was looking at my social media and it was all me and I was in flip-out mode. I just wanted it all to go away and go home and process things.
‘I wouldn’t say I’ve processed it all. I’m like 70 percent right now. To be in the public eye I need to do things that are a little more forceful, things like this (the podcast). Just keeping it 100% real.
“If I can be in the public eye and it’s like that, then I can do it.”
Tulisa also revealed that she urged ITV to ‘take her off camera’ in the days after her departure from I’m A Celebrity because she was having a ‘breakdown’.
Tulisa left fans wondering why she suddenly left Australia and decided not to appear on the Coming Out show alongside her campmates.
Finally revealing why she chose to archive all of her I’m A Celebrity photos on her Instagram when she emerged from the jungle, Tulisa said: “I deleted everything.” I went out and the same night I was crying I thought, “I’m not going to appear on camera again.”
‘I was looking at my social media and it was all me and I was in flip-out mode. I just wanted it all to go away and go home and process things.
In the first part of Paul’s podcast, Tulisa opened up about the struggles she faced with her mental health both in the jungle and after her departure, with the star admitting she struggled to happily mingle with the “happy campers” while she was “sitting crying “. in his hotel room’.
Tulisa also spoke about the moment she almost quit the show, when the singer was left crying and struggling to breathe during a harrowing anxiety attack that was not shown on screen.
Explaining the battles she faced that viewers didn’t know about, Tulisa said: ‘Some of the things you didn’t see, I had night terrors for the first four days. I would wake up and have anxiety attacks.
“Not everyone knows those parts, so it wasn’t all easy for me, but I have a great poker face.
‘I can really activate it, especially when faced with adversity. The last thing I wanted to do was go in there and be a disaster. So if anything, I’ll be the greatest soldier there is.
‘So as soon as I give myself a task and get in and out of a plane, I’ll look like a warrior, because that’s what I do. I could sit and cry under the sleeping bag, that’s part of who I am too.’