A high-profile transgender lawyer has revealed how she has undergone a gender reassignment operation for the third time, after returning to being a man in an attempt to reconnect with her children.
Samantha Kane, from West London, explained how she felt she "had no choice" but to return to being a woman, after two previous sexual changes, and now she feels like her "true self" again.
The lawyer and author, who was born Sam Hashimi in Baghdad, Iraq, underwent for the first time a gender reassignment surgery in 1997, becoming Samantha.
But in 2004, he decided he wanted to be a man again, undergo another operation to become Charles, have separated from his son and daughter after his first change of sex.
Earlier this year, Samantha, 58, underwent surgery to become a woman again, spending a total of more than £ 150,000 on gender reassignment operations over the years.
High-flying attorney Samantha Kane (above, as she is today) has revealed why she underwent gender reassignment surgery for the third time to make the transition to a woman
Speaking to FEMAIL, Samantha admitted that her decision to return to the transition with a man was greatly influenced by the desire to see her children, from whom she separated after divorcing her first wife, Trudi, in early The 1990s.
"I could not see my children for around 10 years, I started to miss them a lot," she explained. "My children grew up without really knowing me, it was very difficult.
"Eventually, I thought, maybe I could get back what I love if I changed again, and I was a man again." That's really the reason [I did it]. & # 39;
However, Samantha said that after a year of living as Charles, she began to realize that she had made a mistake in becoming a man again, particularly because the sex reassignment surgery had not gone as expected.
Samantha had been living as Charles Kane (above, photographed at her home in London in 2008) since 2004. She explained how she had decided to go back to being a man in an attempt to reconnect with her children, from whom she separated from after becoming in Samantha for the first time
"In the first year, I had remorse: what they said the operation would achieve, they never achieved it anyway," he said.
"Converting a man who was born a man into a woman, and then approaching what it was like to be a man will never work, that was really part of that."
At that time, Charles was engaged to a woman named Victoria, but the relationship broke quickly.
"I felt uncomfortable, I was in a relationship with a woman and it was expected of me that it was all really male," Samantha explained.
"Like Charles, I was not 100% accepted, I was regretting going back.
Samantha experienced her first sex change in 1997, when she went from being Sam to Samantha. She is photographed here in Monaco in 2001
A timeline of Samantha's journey
1960 – Born man, Sam Hashimi, in Baghdad, Iraq
1997 – Transition to a woman, living like Samantha Kane
2004 – He underwent a second gender reassignment surgery to be a man again, and he started living like Charles Kane
2017 – He started living like Samantha again
2018 – He underwent a third-gender reassignment surgery to complete the transition
However, Samantha explained that she did not want to go back to transition immediately with a woman, in part because of her high-flying career as a lawyer.
"I went through all these problems to be Charles, and you had to get the best out of him, I guess," he said.
"I'm a lawyer and I thought that people would not understand me changing again." At the bar, people have to adopt more traditional roles, cutting and changing is frowned upon.
But Samantha explained how reconnecting with her adult son finally helped her decide the transition back to a woman.
"I saw him shortly before his wedding, and he told me he was getting married, and he invited me to his wedding, which was really nice," he said.
Samantha was born Sam Hashimi in Baghdad, Iraq. He explained how he married his first wife Trudi (pictured together in 1990) in an attempt to "settle", with the couple having two children together
"He said:" I do not care who you are. I love you whether you are a man or a woman. If it makes you happier to be a woman, then so be it. "
"That is what encouraged me to basically change, he is a great support."
Samantha began dressing like a woman in March of last year, and this year she had more successful gender reassignment surgery and tight breast implants.
The lawyer says that since the operation in January she now finally feels like herself after all these years.
& # 39; I feel much better in me now. I came to the conclusion that you have no choice, "said Samantha." I am much happier to be my true self as a woman.
Samantha (photographed at home in her studio as she is today) underwent gender reassignment surgery for the third time earlier this year to become a woman
"I always knew I was in the wrong body, even when I was really, really young, five or six years old.
"But I grew up in Baghdad in the 60s and 70s, so who could hear about being transgender or undergoing surgery?
"So I buried it, and I thought it had to be conventional. I met a woman with whom I got along, and I got married and had children. "
Samantha says she feels that being a woman is easier today, compared to the first transition in the 1990s.
"When I made the transition to a woman in 1997, things were really difficult for women in general," she said.
Samantha (left in 2001) underwent her first gender reassignment surgery in 1997, to become Samantha for the first time. However, she decided to make the transition to a man in 2004 (right), as she thought that would help her reconnect with her children.
& # 39; Now, it's not so bad for women. You get more equal opportunities at work. I have not noticed as much discrimination against women as it used to be. "
However, she explained how she has found the recent conversations about transgender women worrisome.
"Before my surgery it was very difficult, because there was this whole debate about what is the difference between transgender women and real women, and if transgender women are accepted as real women," he explained.
"But I felt that I had no other option [but go ahead with the operation], because I knew what would make me happy and make me complete as a woman.
"I had to keep going at all costs, essentially."
Samantha (photographed in 1998 after her first gender reassignment operation) explained how she separated from her two children after divorcing her wife Trudi, following her decision to change a woman
After her gender reassignment surgery, Samantha says she has been very interested in the romance department, although she wants to enjoy being single for now.
& # 39; I want to enjoy being single for a while, and not rush. Running in relationships is hard enough for someone who does not even have my track record.
"I'm probably one of the few people in the entire world who has had a sexual transition three times.
"You need someone with a pHD to understand what I've been through," he explained.
"But one must always be open to love. I could love a man, I could love a woman, as long as I feel there's a connection, that's what I'm looking for. "
The new book by Samantha Kane, Mohammed and Susan (Diversity Books, £ 8.99) goes on sale on September 6.