Tones and I is preparing to say goodbye to her career as a live artist to instead go behind the scenes of the music industry.
The 27-year-old, known for her worldwide hit Dance Monkey, told… Gawndy & Mazo she plans to step off the stage because of the toll it takes on her mental health.
“I don’t know how much longer I’ll be Tones and I,” she said, adding that she wants to be a songwriter for other artists in the coming years.
Taking a step back: Tones and I prepares to say goodbye to her career as a live artist to work behind the scenes of the music industry instead
‘I mean, realistically I’m giving myself four more years’ [of performing] and then I want to be a songwriter,” she continued.
“As soon as my mental health doesn’t want this, I stop. I’m not pushing this, I want to be happy.’
Last week, the singer revealed that the first year of her global fame left her feeling “rough” and unattractive.
Retired: The 27-year-old, known for her worldwide hit Dance Monkey, told Gawndy & Maz she plans to leave the stage because of the toll it takes on her mental health
The musician, whose real name is Toni Watson, became an overnight success with the release of her 2019 single Dance Monkey, which became number 1 worldwide.
But after that, she continued to struggle with crippling self-doubt and fear.
She told the Carrie & Tommy radio show on Friday: ‘People want you to kind of hate yourself. [When you’re] busking, nobody cared what you looked like.
“I never looked at myself and thought anything. And that whole first year [of mainstream success]”I thought, ‘I’m dirty, I don’t look good, I’m just dirty, I should hate myself.'”
Self-aware: Tones and I recently revealed that the first year she was famous made her feel like she was “rough” and unattractive
Tones said she had to work hard to talk herself out of that negative thinking.
“I thought, ‘No, don’t think like that, don’t be stupid. Don’t throw away your integrity. Don’t change yourself.”
“But it was a long time and I don’t think anyone is prepared for that. I was really taken aback.
‘Not being able to go to the supermarket on your own, because I get a lot of anxiety. Not being able to go busking, which was my ultimate goal in the beginning.
“Things I can’t do that people think you can because I’m afraid.”
She added: “I don’t think anyone is prepared for that. I was really taken aback. Not being able to go to the supermarket alone because I get super anxious. Not being able to go busking, that was my ultimate goal in the beginning’
Tones and I just released her debut album, Welcome to the Madhouse.
On Friday, she spoke to Today’s entertainment reporter Brooke Boney about the creative struggles she faced while recording the album last year.
The Fly Away star explained that she felt pressured to complete and release her album by a certain date, which had an impact on her songwriting and creativity.
Better attitude: Tones said she had to work hard to talk herself out of that negative thinking
The hitmaker said her debut album was due out last year, but she decided to postpone it because she thought it wasn’t ready yet.
She revealed that eight songs she wrote weren’t good enough for her, so she reworked them.
“I wrote for the album in a way that was so unhealthy. This song is done, no matter how good it is, put it on the album,” she said.
“I intended to be honest with this album, to be completely open and raw and that’s what I did,” she added proudly.
How it started: Tones and I started busking in Byron Bay in September 2017. During her days as a street performer, she met talent manager Jackson Walkden-Brown