Kelsey Parker has admitted she struggles with feelings of loneliness and guilt following the death of her husband of four years.
Tom lost his life in March of this year at the age of 33, after a year and a half battle with stage four glioblastoma brain cancer.
As Kelsey continues to live through this heartbreaking time, MailOnline revealed last month that she is now in the early stages of a relationship with new man Sean Boggans.
Candid: Kelsey Parker admitted on Thursday’s episode of Good Morning Britain that she has struggled with feelings of loneliness and guilt following the death of her husband
Still, the mother-of-two is still processing her grief and appeared on Good Morning Britain on Thursday to discuss her journey and upcoming ITVBe series on life after Tom.
Kelsey admitted she was “worried” about filming Kelsey Parker: Life After Tom, but in the end it was “the best thing” she could have done.
She explained, “It was like therapy for me. I’ve done things on the show that I wouldn’t necessarily have done, but it’s helped me a lot. It pushed me out of my comfort zone.
“I didn’t quite understand what grief was. You can feel so many emotions at once. There are so many different elements.’
Heartbreaking: Tom lost his life in March this year at the age of 33, after a year and a half battle with stage four glioblastoma brain cancer
Kelsey revealed that one of the issues she faced had to do with “a lot of guilt.”
The businesswoman – who has two children, Aurelia, three, and Bodhi, two, with Tom – explained: “I know that I did everything for Tom.
“But even then, there’s that guilt. Guilty that I’m still here and I look at my children and I’m guilty that he doesn’t experience what I experience with them.’
Struggle: Kelsey admitted she was ‘worried’ about filming Kelsey Parker: Life After Tom, but it ended up being ‘the best thing she could have done’
When asked how she’s coping with “moving on with life” after Tom’s death, Kelsey admitted it was hard figuring out which of Tom’s things to keep because they’re constantly reminding him that he’s no longer with them. is.
She reasoned, “The memories are here in my heart, so getting rid of an object doesn’t really mean anything, but you don’t know how hard it is.
“You don’t want to let go, because you’ll lose them even more.”
Disturbing: Kelsey revealed that one issue she was dealing with was related to ‘a lot of guilt’ that she can make new memories with their two children Aurelia, three, and Bodhi, two
Talk then turned to loneliness people can feel when they grieve, with Kelsey musing, “YYou can be in a room full of people and still feel lonely.
“People don’t understand how I feel. Christmas is going to be so hard for me. We’re not going to wake up Christmas as a family.
“The grief ripples through the family and it affects us all so differently.”
She added that she couldn’t listen to The Wanted’s music because “hearing Tom’s voice breaks my heart,” and said she wouldn’t wish the feeling of sadness on anyone.
Upsetting: Kelsey added that she couldn’t listen to The Wanted’s music because “hearing Tom’s voice breaks my heart,” and said she wouldn’t wish the feeling of sadness on anyone
Kelsey did not discuss her new relationship in the chat.
Kelsey and Sean, a father of two, are said to have met when she took a break with friends in Lindos, Rhodes, in September.
“It’s very early days and no one knows what the future holds, but for now Kelsey is happy that someone else has come into her life,” a source said.
It was also revealed that in 2013 electrician Sean was imprisoned and killed a stranger with a single blow while waiting for a taxi outside East London.
He spent time behind bars after fatally beating Shaun McDermott, 44, during a heated argument over a taxi outside the Havering Oak pub in Romford.
Boggans was waiting for his then-girlfriend to pick him up when an argument broke out with the 44-year-old, who was knocked to the ground during the skirmish. CCTV footage later shows how the electrician walked away from the crime scene.
New connection: Kelsey is moving on with life after the heartbreak and is now in the early stages of a relationship with new man Sean Boggans (pictured)