Tina Malone has revealed the heartbreaking way she will spend Christmas this year following the tragic death of her late husband Paul.
The Shameless star’s husband Paul, 42, committed suicide on March 13 after what the soap star has now confirmed was a long struggle with his mental health, specifically post-traumatic stress disorder.
And the actress has confessed that she will pay tribute to Paul by playing his favorite songs and wearing matching pajamas with her daughter during the festive period.
Speaking to Closer magazine, the former The famous Big Brother star described her loss as “insurmountable” and admitted she will never recover from it.
She explained: ‘We’ll raise a glass to him at Christmas lunch and talk about him at the table. We will play your favorite music and share our favorite stories.
“The loss and pain of losing Paul is insurmountable, I will never, ever get over it.”
Tina Malone has revealed the heartbreaking way she will spend Christmas after the tragic death of her husband Paul aged 42 as she reflects on her “insurmountable loss”.
The Shameless star’s husband Paul, 42, committed suicide on March 13 after what the soap star has now confirmed was a long struggle with his mental health, specifically post-traumatic stress disorder (pictured 2013).
The couple share a daughter, Flame, 11, and Tina confessed that she is trying to be “strong” for her son.
He added: “But I have to be strong and resilient for Flame.” All ‘firsts’ are difficult. Christmas will be hard, but I will make it magical and special for her.’
Tina will also be joined by her mother and Paul’s father Ste for Christmas lunch with her late husband’s brother and sister, along with their children, who she will join later in the day.
The mother also shared that on Flame’s 11th birthday, December 15, her daughter made the heartbreaking confession that she didn’t want gifts, she just wanted her father to come back.
In addition to buying him matching pajamas for Christmas this year, Tina also confessed that she keeps his memory alive daily by maintaining his his gym bag in the hallway, his aftershave next to the bed and his toothbrush in the bathroom.
The star even has ‘loud’ disputes with her late husband to continue remembering him.
Tina previously revealed that she is speaking out about how she died in the name of “transparency” and to encourage conversations about supporting veterans.
She has revealed that he turned to drink and drugs in a bid to cope with his time serving in the armed forces, and believes he is now “in a better place”.
The actress has confessed that she will pay tribute to Paul by playing his favorite songs and wearing matching pajamas with her daughter over the festive period (pictured in 2015).
The mother also shared that on Flame’s 11th birthday, December 15, her daughter made the heartbreaking confession that she didn’t want gifts, she just wanted her father to come back (pictured all together in 2014).
In May, Tina recalled receiving her late husband’s final text messages hours after he sent them the night he took his life.
Tina said that because she has an “old phone,” the messages didn’t arrive until it was too late for her to do anything to help.
She explained that the police knocked on her door to share the heartbreaking news about Paul’s death, just as she received text messages from him.
Tina revealed that Paul sent her a text message at 4am on the night of his death, saying: “I’m sorry I left you, you lit up my life every time I saw you.” I’m sorry.’
Tina had tragically read that message just as the police arrived at her Liverpool home, after Paul had not returned home that night.
The Brookside actress was about to take Flame to school when the police arrived and informed her that Paul was dead.
In the text, the former military man also wrote: ‘Tina, please forgive me and one day when you are up here with me we will meet again. Xxx I love you Tina, I will visit you when I find a way. I’m sorry my love, you made my life perfect, during all the chaos. Xxx, I will come to visit you and Flame in spirit. Please forgive me xxx’
talking to good magazineTina said: ‘His last texts were sent around 4am but I have an old phone and they didn’t come straight away. When they finally arrived, the police were already at my house giving me the news that he was gone.
Tina added: “I haven’t talked about this publicly until now.” This is the first time I have said it and confirmed it. Paul committed suicide. “I believe in transparency.”
Paul was a former member of the 22nd Cheshire Regiment, and served in Northern Ireland, Belize, Iraq, Afghanistan and the Falklands, where his squadmates nicknamed him Chevy after his surname, in honor of the comedian.
Tina previously revealed that she is speaking out about how she died in the name of “transparency” and to encourage conversations about supporting veterans (seen in 2014).
Paul (pictured during his time in the Cheshire Regiment) served all over the world, including in Afghanistan, Iraq and the Falklands.
War hero Paul Malone’s husband’s last text messages were sent around 4 a.m.
She wrote on Twitter: “Six weeks ago today was the worst day of my entire life, my world fell apart, my husband Paul is dead but he lives forever in my heart x.”
But Tina said he often talked about the military when he was drunk and encouraged him to seek help to cope with what he saw while serving his country.
Paul, with whom she had her daughter Flame, now 11, through IVF, was finally diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder three years ago.
Tina said: “When he got drunk he would ramble on about the army and I would say, ‘You have depression, you have emotional problems because of what you’ve seen.'” But he would sweep it away. He said, ‘How will I get a job if I have that?’
She and Paul met at a boot camp event where he was a personal trainer after her appearance on Celebrity Big Brother.
But their relationship was troubled in 2017 as Tina was arrested and reprimanded for cocaine possession, being fired from a pantomime in the process, while Paul lost his job looking after violent teenagers.
The couple was left on the brink of bankruptcy and Tina says her mental health skyrocketed during this time, using prescription medication and cocaine in an attempt to cope before attempting to take her own life.
He was admitted to psychiatric care and was given help by a veterans’ charity, but Tina said he would experience mood swings.
In the end, Tina said, Paul “couldn’t fight anymore.” After preparing food for Flame, he kissed Tina, walked out, and hours later died.
“He felt lost, he felt useless,” she said.
Tina’s comments, reported by the mirrorHe comes because he intends to launch a new charity in his name, Paul’s Flame, to help people in times of crisis.
He added: ‘This is a man who served his country. The only way to move forward is to fight for change, to address the issues that veterans and soldiers face, to try to help others.’
Last year, statistics on suicides by British military veterans were published for the first time and exposed the mental health crisis our soldiers face as they leave service and attempt to return to civilian life.
According to the Office for National Statistics, in 2021 (the most recent figures available), suicides committed by men aged 35 to 44 were almost twice as high among veterans as non-veterans, 33.5 per 100,000, compared to 18 ,8.
Tina previously confessed that she is ‘devastated’ following the death of her husband Paul, after revealing the last conversation they had on the day of his death.
In a social media update, she responded to fans who had left her ‘kind messages’ and shared their own personal stories of loss.
Tina Malone and Paul Chase pictured together in 2017. She says his death left her ‘bereft’
Tina took to social media this week to admit that the loss of her husband has left her “bereft.”
In a heartbreaking post, she detailed Paul’s final hours before he died, revealing that he had made his daughter breakfast and kissed Tina goodbye.
She tweeted: ‘Four weeks ago today at 4pm my husband made scrambled eggs, bacon, beans and sausages for Flame, kissed me and said see you later….
“Ten hours later he was dead, I am devastated, very helpless.”
Paul was buried with a crowd of mourners gathered outside Tina’s home in Liverpool, where she joined them and received hugs and comfort from friends and family.
Many could be seen wiping their eyes as fellow veterans helped carry Paul’s coffin to his hearse, which was draped in a flag with his Cheshire Regiment dress hat placed on top.
The Cheshire Regiment Association, to which Paul belonged, shared photographs of the former officer in his military uniform, in honor of the man they affectionately knew as ‘Chevy’.
Friends of the regiment flocked to his funeral, many in the group wearing regimental ties and some of the pallbearers proudly displaying their medals.
A statement on Facebook read: “We have received the very sad news that Paul ‘Chevy’ Chase died yesterday at the age of 42. Paul was married to actress Tina Malone.
‘Rest in peace Pablo. “Our thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends at this sad time.”
Tina married Paul, 19 years her junior, in 2010 and they were married for nine years, before briefly separating in 2019 and getting back together just months later in February 2020.
After their 2020 reunion, the soap star said their relationship was back on track and said “their love never went away.”
She told Closer magazine at the time: “Love never left, we’re working on things now, our problems were compounded by depression, but I learned that in difficult times we have to come together and not separate.”
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