Tina Malone shared devastating details about the death of her late husband Paul Chase, who committed suicide earlier this year, on her Twitter page on Monday.
The former soap star, 61, said she is “totally devastated” following his passing as she deals with the “grief and sadness” she has been feeling in the months since his death.
In a series of tweets posted on her page, Tina told how Paul left his house at 4pm and took his own life in the park outside his home in Cheshire.
The post read: ’17 weeks ago at 4pm my husband left the house and took his own life in the park opposite our house.
“I am totally devastated. The pain and grief are constant. He fought for his country for over ten years. Yet hardly anyone has donated to our charity. He was a good man.”
Tina Malone shared devastating details about the death of her late husband Paul Chase, who committed suicide earlier this year, on her Twitter page on Monday.
The former soap star, 61, said she is “totally devastated” following his passing as she deals with the “grief and sadness” she has been feeling in the months since his death.
In a series of tweets posted on her page, Tina told how Paul left his house at 4pm and took his own life in the park outside his home in Cheshire.
Tina set up Paul’s Flame to raise money for people suffering from PTSD, which her partner suffered from after serving in the military.
The page description reads: ‘I have created a charity to create a legacy for my husband Paul Anthony Chase Malone who took his own life on March 13th of this year.
‘After suffering from chronic PTSD for years after serving in the 22nd Cheshire Regiment for over ten years serving in Calgary, Northern Ireland, Falklands, Cyprus, Iraq, Afghanistan…
‘He was struggling with debt, unemployment and his depression manifested itself in alcohol and drug abuse, and self-harm. He felt lost, worthless, a burden, hopeless, and it culminated in his suicide. Leaving me and our ten-year-old daughter devastated, heartbroken and in overwhelming grief.
‘Our aim is to create a fund that supports individuals and small charities in crisis. A board of twelve trustees will distribute the funds to those in need, particularly those with mental health problems…
Veterans, single parents, working families struggling to get by. The more money we raise, the more people we help! Please donate, every bit helps. Tina Malone x
Tina revealed she was trying to raise £10,000 for the charity, which has so far received £450 in donations.
The Shameless actress shared her anger at not receiving more donations and assured her followers that the money would go to “people in crisis.”
Tina has set up Paul’s Flame to raise money for people suffering from PTSD, like that suffered by her partner after serving in the army (pictured with Paul).
Tina revealed she was trying to raise £10,000 for the charity, which has so far received £450 in donations.
Tina then added that she was going to try to get out of the house and walk her dogs, but admitted that leaving the house makes her feel “anxious.”
She said: ‘I wanted to raise £10,000! For people in crisis, not for me or Flame! What’s £10 per person? People raise £33 million, £50,000. I can’t even raise £5,000.
Tina added: “I better get out of here or I’m going to say things I shouldn’t… Am I missing something? It makes me wonder what the point of all this is.”
She later apologized for her speech, saying: “Thank you for all your comments. I apologize if I sounded aggressive last night. I’m so heartbroken. It really breaks my heart. We’ve been together for 15 years. I miss him so much.”
“Thank you for your donations, I am truly touched.”
Tina then added that she was going to try to get out of the house and walk her dogs, but admitted that leaving the house makes her feel “anxious.”
Tina recently admitted that Paul’s death did not come as a surprise to her, as she saw how severely his mental health had been affected during his time serving time.
She said he turned to ‘drink, drugs and painkillers’ to numb the pain.
Tina also said that the house is exactly as it was since Paul died four months ago and that she has washed and ironed all of his clothes.
Recalling his funeral, Tina added: “After the funeral, we partied until late. We ate all of Paul’s favourite food and I was the first one on the dance floor because, well, it was just Paul and me.”
Tina added that her pain over the loss of Paul is still present and she doesn’t think she will ever love a man like him again.
She said: “I have never loved nor will I ever love any other man like I love Paul. I want to be with him and one day I will be with him.”
The actress recounted how she recently saw an elderly couple holding hands near her home and thought she would never have that.
The soap star said an army officer told her the military does not do enough to help soldiers readjust to civilian life, highlighting how other armies give former soldiers “a lot of money” which they can use to retrain or set up their own businesses.
Speaking to Closer magazine, Tina told how she and her daughter held a barbecue at Paul’s grave to mark what would have been his 42nd birthday at the end of May (pictured from 2013).
Tina recently launched Paul’s Flame together with her late husband’s sister. The charity aims to help people with cash payments in desperate times.
Tina and Paul met at a military training event where he was a personal trainer following his appearance on Celebrity Big Brother.
But their relationship took a hit in 2017 when Tina was arrested and booked for cocaine possession (and kicked out of a pantomime in the process) while Paul lost his job babysitting violent teenagers.
The couple was left on the brink of bankruptcy and Tina says her mental health deteriorated during that time, using prescription drugs and cocaine in an attempt to cope before attempting to take her own life.
He was admitted to a psychiatric facility and received help from a veterans charity, but Tina said he experienced mood swings.
The couple had a daughter named Flame, now 11, whom Tina gave birth to in 2013 after IVF when she was 50 (pictured together in 2014).