Teen TikTok star Loren Gray talked about a shocking sexual assault in a video posted to the social media platform on Saturday.
The singer, now 18, said the attack occurred when she was just 12.
“I want to tell you my REAL story,” Loren’s video began when she showed some pictures of herself shortly before her 13th birthday.
“Right now, my innocence was stolen from me in the basement of someone I trusted,” she continued with a photo of herself.
Brave Story: Loren Gray, 18, revealed in a TikTok video on Saturday that she had been sexually assaulted when she was only 13
She added a photo of herself embracing a friend, believed to be the only person she opened earlier about the attack.
“We cried in my bathroom for hours. I struggled to piece together why this had happened to me, ”she continued, noting that she waited two months to tell her parents what had happened.
Loren described feeling hopeless and damaged and blaming herself for the crime committed against her.
Flashback: The video included photos taken during her teens when she told the attack in the text
Secret: The attack took place in the “basement of someone I trusted.” She said it took her two months to tell her parents, and her best friend was the only other person she told
Misplaced guilt: Like many survivors of sexual assault, she described herself as “worthless” and “broken.” She said ‘I felt it was my fault’
While her videos gave her an outlet to express herself and lit up her ‘loneliness and isolation’, they also opened her up to misogyny insults from anonymous users.
The singer understood that the attack was not her fault as time went on, and she ended the video with photos of triumphant moments on stage.
“There is light at the end of the tunnel, and if my story can help even ONE person, then for me it is a story worth telling [sic]she concluded.
Same as ever: While her videos were a creative outlet, they also exposed her to misogyny attacks
Losing everything: the singer was afraid to reveal her secret, otherwise people would treat her differently or abandon her
Top of the world: the clip ended on a positive note when she realized ‘there is light at the end of the tunnel,’ with photos of her onstage success accompanying the lyrics
Loren followed up on the emotionally raw video with a note-taking app message shared to her Twitter account.
“It was very difficult for me to share this part of my life in such a public way,” she wrote.
“I got a message that someone somehow knew. but I know how fast the word is traveling and I wanted to be the one to tell my story, ”she continued.
The social media star thanked her fans and also regretted how many other people had stories of assaults similar to hers.
“Although I was forced to grow up quickly, losing a part of me,” I wouldn’t change my life, “she wrote.
Thanksgiving: Later, Loren posted a thank you message on Twitter for her 42.9 million TikTok followers
Recalling her story: She revealed that she made the video because someone threatened to tell her first, although she said she was ‘not sorry because I’m no longer ashamed’
“Although I hate being forced to share this prematurely, I don’t regret not being ashamed anymore,” she added.
“So when I saw you give me a goal and help me through the darkest times in my life, I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
“I hope this can shed some light on the severity of sexual assault and bring some hope to anyone who can relate,” she concluded.