Sam Delmege and millionaire Max Delmege in their $ 100,000 fight to have a baby through IVF

For the last six unbearable years, Sam Delmege (pictured) desperately tried to have a baby

For the last six unbearable years, Sam Delmege desperately tried to have a baby.

The 34-year-old wife of 73-year-old millionaire Max Delmege has offered a poignant account of her brutal battle against infertility.

The couple, who met eight years ago, began trying to conceive in 2013.

But his six-year attempt to raise a family has resulted in three devastating abortions and has spent more than $ 100,000 on IVF treatments.

Here, the nurse from Sydney spoke frankly about her turbulent struggles to have a baby against diminishing odds.

For the last six unbearable years, Sam Delmege (pictured) desperately tried to have a baby

For the last six unbearable years, Sam Delmege (pictured) desperately tried to have a baby

The 34-year-old wife of 73-year-old millionaire Max Delmege has offered a poignant account of her brutal battle against infertility

The 34-year-old wife of 73-year-old millionaire Max Delmege has offered a poignant account of her brutal battle against infertility

The 34-year-old wife of 73-year-old millionaire Max Delmege has offered a poignant account of her brutal battle against infertility

"Every day I think of a baby, thinking of starting a family, thinking about my future, thinking of me as a mother, wanting, wanting, waiting, praying, practically begging to get pregnant," wrote Ms. Delmege on her blog.

"When we finally got help in 2015, they told me that you'd be pregnant more likely than ever before." I was so excited that finally everything could be over.

& # 39; That cycle was an absolute failure & # 39;

But when she finally got pregnant for the first time in April of last year, she lost her unborn baby in just six weeks.

Three months later, the couple, who got married in 2015, were delighted to discover that they were expecting twins, but Ms. Delmege tragically suffered a double miscarriage.

"My whole life broke that year," he said.

The couple, who got married in 2015, were delighted to discover that they were expecting twins, but Ms. Delmege tragically suffered a double miscarriage.

The couple, who got married in 2015, were delighted to discover that they were expecting twins, but Ms. Delmege tragically suffered a double miscarriage.

The couple, who got married in 2015, were delighted to discover that they were expecting twins, but Ms. Delmege tragically suffered a double miscarriage.

Despite her multiple failed IVF cycles, Ms. Delmege has been able to find the strength to overcome the lack of love.

"I'm not sure how I did it in 2017, but I managed to get over it," he said.

"I was dealing with big losses, so much self-hatred, high levels of anxiety, stress and all the time getting up, going to work, leading life as if nothing were happening.

I hate to look in the mirror seeing a woman who can not carry a child, a woman who has put on 30 kilos in three years, a woman whose body keeps rejecting embryos, a woman who was deeply hurt. I'm still deeply sore

"I hate looking in the mirror seeing a woman who can not carry a child, a woman who has put 30 kilos in three years, a woman whose body keeps rejecting embryos, a woman who was deeply wounded."

"I'm still deeply sore." Each and every day. It is the ruin of my existence.

& # 39; Most days people would not know what's going on in my head. I smile, I laugh and pretend I'm fine. Most days I think I disguise my true feelings well.

I'm still trying to keep that spark there. Samantha, the lucky happy girl, with minimal care in the world, always wanting to have fun and joke. That girl

"I often see flashes of her, but then she disappears when she quickly reminds me of my daily torture, my life that still is today.

Despite her multiple failed IVF cycles, Ms. Delmege has been able to find the strength to overcome the lack of love.

Despite her multiple failed IVF cycles, Ms. Delmege has been able to find the strength to overcome the lack of love.

Despite her multiple failed IVF cycles, Ms. Delmege has been able to find the strength to overcome the lack of love.

When the couple tried desperately to conceive a baby over the years, Ms. Delmege said it was difficult to see those around her fall so easily pregnant.

"While you are happy for the people, deep down there is a pain that hurts, desires and desperately wishes you were sharing that news, feeling those feelings, having morning nausea, seeing a belly grow, feeling a baby kick, watching them move and shake in scans, but every month, it's not you, "he said.

Do you know the feeling I hear of unconditional love, the feelings of seeing a human being you created grow? That's why I'm doing this

He explained the reason why he dreams of being a mother.

"You know the feeling I hear about unconditional love, the feelings of seeing a human being that you created to grow and experience life experiences, the feelings of having them grow inside you, and then the feelings of birth. Milestones … All those things, that's why I'm doing this, "said Ms. Delmege.

"That's why every day of every month for the past six years I underwent injections … steroids, weight gain, loss of money, heart pain, miscarriages, hope, loss of Sleep and lack of self-confidence Everyone has exactly the same feelings as you, looking at your child.

The 34-year-old nurse from Sydney, who is 34 years pregnant, says she still does not give up.

The 34-year-old nurse from Sydney, who is 34 years pregnant, says she still does not give up.

The 34-year-old nurse from Sydney, who is 34 years pregnant, says she still does not give up.

While the couple was desperately trying to conceive a baby over the years, Ms. Delmege said it was hard to see the people around her fall so easily pregnant.

While the couple was desperately trying to conceive a baby over the years, Ms. Delmege said it was hard to see the people around her fall so easily pregnant.

While the couple was desperately trying to conceive a baby over the years, Ms. Delmege said it was hard to see the people around her fall so easily pregnant.

& # 39; Will I ever experience these same feelings? I'm not sure. Would not it be great to have a magic ball telling us what the future holds? Although I now know that my immediate future is not certain, I hope that my long-term son will have blessings with a baby. "

Deciding to get pregnant, Ms. Delmege said she still does not give up.

Despite all my losses, 18 embryos, I still feel that shine. I still see a future with children

"If I can praise myself for anything, it's for the determination to never give up, to live with that ray of hope that my time is coming," he said.

"Despite all my losses, 18 embryos, I still feel that brightness, I still see a future with children, I never knew how much determination and resistance I had, no one knows how much pressure they can handle until their only option is to handle it.

Never underestimate the power of wanting something so desperately. What we will get through to achieve that dream.

& # 39; Until it's my time, I'll move on. I will keep trying. I will continue to pray. I will continue to plead that maybe next month. I will continue smiling, joking and basically breathing until I can be one of you. A mother. & # 39;

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