Rylan Clark has admitted he suffered “strange stroke-like symptoms” during his mental breakdown.
The TV presenter, 35, shared the physical toll of his crisis for the first time in an interview on Jamie Laing’s Great Company podcast.
Rylan claimed that she lost her vision and hearing while suffering from mental health, following her divorce from her ex-husband Dan Neal in 2021.
After taking four months off work and returning to his mother’s house to heal and get better, Rylan, who is now strong, fit and healthy, has detailed the severity of his crisis.
He said: ‘I lost my speech. I lost my vision for a moment like everything was really just. It was like having a really bad stroke. It was so strange. And yeah, it took me months to get back to work.
Rylan Clark, 35, admitted he suffered “strange stroke-like symptoms” during his mental breakdown.
Rylan claimed she lost her vision and hearing while suffering from mental health, following her divorce from ex-husband Dan Neal.
“I think I was away for about four or five months. And I rarely wish I had four hours off, let alone four months.
‘So yeah, I was saying, I needed to do it. And I need to start again. And I needed to reset.
“But my only regret is that I wish I had never stopped and dealt with it in a different way. But I didn’t. And then it was out of my control.
“I see it as a self-destruct button, something in my mind was going to ruin your seemingly perfect life.
“Fuck him, press this button and blow everything up.” And I was like, “Yeah.” And what happened next was months of me thinking, “Why would he do that? Why would anyone want to destroy his perfect life, if you will?”
“For months I thought, ‘Why would I press that damn button?’ Why would I pull the trigger?” That’s how he felt.
And then one day, it’s almost like a letter appears in the mail, explaining exactly why I pressed that button, and my brain said, “Oh, fuck. That’s why I pressed the button.”
“It was just realizing it, understanding things, learning new things and realizing that I’m not fucking crazy, basically.”
The TV presenter shared the physical toll of his crisis for the first time in an interview on Jamie Laing’s podcast, Great Company.
After taking four months off work and returning to his mother’s house to heal and get better, Rylan, who is now strong, fit and healthy, has detailed the severity of his crisis.
He said: ‘I lost my speech. I lost vision for a moment as if everything was really fair. It was like having a really bad stroke. It was so strange. And yes, it took me months to get back to work’
And he added: “But my only regret is that I wish I had never stopped and dealt with it in a different way.” But I didn’t. And then it was out of my control. I see it as a self-destruct button, something in my mind was going to ruin your seemingly perfect life.
‘I thought he was crazy. Well, he was, because the only explanation is going to be. I have lost my mind. So when you stop believing in something, you become it. Then I thought, “Well, clearly, I’m angry. Clearly, I don’t feel good. Clearly, I’m not right.”
“At that time I lived with my mother because I didn’t want to be in my own house. I didn’t want to do anything. He couldn’t be trusted to be perfectly honest. Yes, it was bad. I just have to be honest.’
If there’s one thing Rylan could change about the way he dealt with his nervous breakdown, it’s that he wished he had dealt with it without excluding everything and everyone.
Rylan added: “You need to learn to be alone before you can be completely happy with another person.” And all this, all these things where you think you’re going to get screwed.
‘That’s the last thing because you have no idea that you’re not going through that. From someone who has been through it. I hate to say bite the bullet, it’s true.
‘It takes time, time helps. You need to slow down, you need to spend a little time just loving yourself and things like that, self-care is important.
‘It’s not just the moisturizer and serum you use, you have to take care of the inside like diet and all that shit, which I never do, because I’m terrible. But up here, above all, you just have to take care of yourself.
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