Robert De Niro is not ready to take the & # 39; demons & # 39; face his father and has refrained from the intimate magazines of the Robert De Niro Sr. read while art historians write a book about the artist.
The personal and rough details of the life of De Niro Sr. were concealed in a series of magazines that existed ten years from 1963.
Written around two decades after the birth of De Niro, his father's magazines reveal his father's struggle with his finances, mental health, recognition as an artist, and his homosexuality.
Told the Niro The observer: & # 39; I would like to read them. I'll read them if it feels right … but I'm working on that right now. & # 39;
Robert De Niro Sr. (photo) is the subject of an upcoming book entitled & # 39; Robert De Niro, Sr.: Paintings, Drawings and Writings: 1942-1993 & # 39;
That is why De Niro has allowed art historians to write a book with the title & # 39; Robert De Niro, Sr.: Paintings, Drawing and Writings: 1942-1993 & # 39; to refer to them.
De Niro has only read excerpts from the books, but the one he left behind has shown him remorse.
He said: & # 39; It was sad for me to read. He had his demons … I'm sorry. & # 39;
The Niro Sr. wrestles with his sexuality in the diaries and writes in an excerpt: & # 39; If God does not want me to be gay (about which I am so guilty), he will find a woman whom I will love and who will love me. But I really don't want my homosexuality to be healed. & # 39;
He also wrote about praying, & # 39; until I am healed of my mental and emotional illness. & # 39;
Growing up, De Niro didn't know his father struggled with his sexuality until his mother mentioned it.
& # 39; I was not aware of that … My mother told me sometime later, when I was a young adult, a little distracted. I understood it a bit, & he said.
Robert De Niro (photo) has not yet read his father's magazines and admits that he & # 39; anxious & # 39; is
The Niro Sr. apparently also works by his mental health and says to be afraid of his thoughts.
& # 39; I am full of fear … of the discomfort caused by my own thoughts, feelings, sensations and impulses, & # 39; he wrote.
& # 39; There is so much that I have omitted from this diary … My lamentations, wailing, self-pity and complaining are much greater than I have indicated here. & # 39;
De Niro told The Observer that these are the passages that are harder to confront.
Allegedly his father did not share his concerns with his son, and if he did it was in & # 39; vague ways & # 39 ;.
The Niro Sr. was born in Syracuse, New York and grew up in an Irish-Italian family where he was discovered to be a prodigy.
Robert De Niro Sr. (photo) had his first solo art exhibition at the age of 23 as a prodigy and productive painter.
The Niro Sr. started in 1933 at the age of 11 with taking art lessons in the Syracuse Museum of Fine Arts.
He continued to excel and became a leading figure in the New York art scene in the 1940s and 1950s.
At the age of 23, De Niro held Sr. his first solo art exhibition that persuaded art critic Clement Greenberg to praise the young artist as a rising star.
& # 39; Guggenheim has discovered another important young abstract painter, & # 39; said Greenberg.
De Niro (photo) with one of his father's artworks at an exhibition with the work of De Niro Sr.
The work of De Niro Sr. was obtained through galleries such as the Metropolitan Museum of Art and Whitney Museum of American Art, yet according to his son he lived a classic artist's life in a studio that was a mess & # 39 ;.
While De Niro's career started in the 1970s, the two men supported each other in their crafts.
& # 39; It was not like we were sitting down and he told me: & # 39; I like this movie & # 39; … but I know it was proud, & # 39; said De Niro.
De Niro Sr. tells in his diary. about his son who gets movie offers and says, "My little baby doll has grown up."
& # 39; He is tanned from a solar lamp – for his new film part – and looks much better than when he returned from Italy two weeks ago. & # 39;
& # 39; I wanted to put my fingers through his hair and kiss him, but I hardly think he would have appreciated it. & # 39;
The Niro Sr. died in 1993.
The book is expected to be published by Rizzoli in October.
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