PICTURED: The pregnant belly of Demi Moore at the age of 42 before a miscarriage with Ashton Kutcher
Demi Moore shared new details about her previously unreported pregnancy during her marriage to Ashton Kutcher and shared a photo of her baby bump before she had a miscarriage for six months at the age of 42.
The actress talked to Diane Sawyer Good morning America to promote her new memoir, Inside Out. The second part of their interview was broadcast on Tuesday. In it, Moore considered two of her three marriages, with Bruce Willis and Ashton Kutcher.
She also revealed the careful efforts she was going to make to save her relationship with Kutcher, who was 15 years younger.
Despite the fact that she had three older children from her first marriage, she was desperate to have a baby with Kutcher.
They became pregnant in 2003 shortly after dating, when she was 42, but six months in pregnancy failed. It was a secret at the time.
Moore reveals in the book that she had chosen a name for the girl – Chaplin Ray.
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This is a never before seen image of Demi Moore who carried Ashton Kutcher's baby in 2003 before she was six months pregnant
Moore and Kutcher are depicted in the same year that they met. She said she & # 39; quite a few & # 39; went through IVF to try and have a baby during their marriage
On Tuesday, Moore, now 56, recalled that the doctor had told him that the baby had no heartbeat.
& # 39; You could see a combination of his fear and it immediately shifted to factual, practical, information. Because it was undeniable. There was no heartbeat, & she said.
The pair tried again & # 39; quite a few & # 39; have children through IVF but nothing was left behind.
Reflecting on their relationship, Moore said she was losing sight of the family she had because she was trying to create a new one.
& # 39; I can't even fully express how lost and desperate, confused … I have really lost sight of everything that was right in front of me, what the family I had.
& # 39; The weight it has put on Ashton is a kind of normal thing to pull back if someone clings too tightly, & # 39; she said.
She broke her 20-year austerity and started taking pills, in her worst case 12 Vicodin pills a day.
& # 39; There it has absolutely arrived & # 39 ;, she said about her drug use.
By the time she and Kutcher met, she had three children with Bruce Willis. She said she & # 39; fantastic job & # 39; delivered to give each of their children the feeling that they were loved despite their divorce after 13 years together.
Moore and Willis met, married and became pregnant within four months of the 1987 meeting
Moore said she lost sight of the family she had with Bruce Willis by trying to create a new one with Ashton, her third husband. She is depicted with Willis and their daughters, Rumer, Tallulah and Scout
Moore, shown during her interview on Tuesday with Diane Sawyer, also reflected on her 12-pill-a-day Vicodin habit and how she broke a 20-year austerity during her relationship with Kutcher
She met Kutcher shortly after her return to Hollywood to film Charlie's Angels.
& # 39; I was a 40-year-old who had a big life and Ashton's adult life had just begun. I didn't see that. I was in it, I just felt like a 15-year-old girl hoping that someone would like me & # 39 ;, she wrote in the book.
She was excited to be younger with someone, she said, because she grew up so quickly after a traumatic childhood.
# I think I had been responsible for so much of my life and suddenly this window opened where I was safe, I had money. He loved my children, it wasn't something he was afraid of.
& # 39; He seemed comfortable with the huge size of the ex-husband. I felt like I didn't come with luggage, I had suitcases, & she said.
In 2003, Moore heard for the first time that Kutcher had been unfaithful. She received the news in a Google alert before stepping on the red carpet.
On Tuesday, she revealed that she was calling him and asking him if the report was true. He gave it & # 39; immediately & # 39; to.
Moore returned to Hollywood at the age of 40 to film Charlie's Angels (above). The film was shown in 2003
& # 39; I asked if it was true and he admitted it immediately. I think my answer was: & # 39; Are you kidding me? That was it. I think I could barely breathe. & # 39;
The couple stayed together and married in 2005. They split eight years later.
Now Moore said she was destroyed not only because their marriage was over, but because it represented the loss she had felt all her life.
She previously revealed that the man she thought she was her biological father was not. Her stepfather committed suicide when she was 17 after being divorced from her mother, an alcohol that at least one man left with her when she was 15 for money.
& # 39; I really know that there are parts of what happened to this relationship that were a devastating level for me that wasn't really just about that relationship. It was about my entire life.
& # 39; It was about being the two-year-old who was not safe. This really represented that I am not loving. I don't deserve it, and it's not just about him, but only about me, & she said, thinking about how she felt about the end of her marriage to Kutcher.
She also thought about her groundbreaking Vanity Fair cover on Tuesday, posing naked and pregnant for Annie Liebowitz.
& # 39; I love it. I literally thought there was no way they would ever do it and not because I thought it was so risky or shocking, I was just so fascinated by why it is seen as obscene? & # 39; she said.
Moore also made the point that while the age difference between she and Kutcher fans fascinated, her ex, Willis, is due to marrying a 23-year-old junior and no one has put an eyelid.
& # 39; It's so stupid. Part of it is that we are socially conditioned to look at the value of a woman who is tied to her fertility. Like what an older woman has to offer? & # 39; she said.
One of the most shocking anecdotes from the book she shared on Monday was that when she was a teenager, after years of traveling the country, her mother Virginia King started taking her to bars so that they would get male attention together.
Moore remembered how after one trip she returned home to find an older man who had a key to their house. She said he raped her and then asked: & # 39; How does it feel to be out for $ 500? & # 39;
& # 39; It was rape and a devastating betrayal, & # 39; she wrote in the book.
Asked by Sawyer if she thought she was being pimped by her mother, she said: & I think deep in my heart, no. I don't think it was an uncomplicated transaction, but she still gave him access and put me at risk. & # 39;
Moore was born in New Mexico, but her biological father left her mother before she was born.
Moore & # 39; s mother Virginia King (left) died in 1998. She had left her home a long time ago. She said she was just a teenager (right) when Virginia went to take her to bars to get men's attention
She was raised by her mother and her mother's second husband, Dan Guynes, who she thought was her real father until she was 13 and discovered her birth certificate.
Guynes was an advertiser in newspaper advertisements and the small family regularly traveled around the country.
Both he and her mother were alcoholics and her mother often tried suicide.
Moore remembers in her book that she tried to save her mother's life at least once.
& # 39; I remember using my fingers, the little fingers of a child, to dig the pills out of her mouth, & # 39; she wrote.
In her teenage years, her mother and Guynes were no longer together and she and her mother had moved to Hollywood, where the rape took place.
She moved soon afterwards, 16 years old, and started her acting career.
Moore is depicted as a child with her mother and her stepfather, Dan Guynes. She thought Guynes was her biological father until she was 13 when she read her birth certificate. Guynes committed suicide in 1980, two years after the divorce of Moore & # 39; s mother
Moore described her childhood as & # 39; colorful & # 39 ;. Her small family often moved because of the work of her stepfather
In addition to thinking about her childhood, she remembered the problems she had in her adult life, including a collapse in 2012 at a party where she combined a cocktail of drugs.
Moore moved when she was 16 and started acting
& # 39; I think the fundamental question was how I got here from where I started with what I had experienced, how I got here – I lost myself.
& # 39; Looking back, I'd say I've blinded myself and lost myself, & # 39; she said about the incident.
She didn't drink but was partying with her daughter, Rumer, she said.
In the book, she says she & # 39; hit Nitric Oxide & # 39; and then smoked a synthetic pot called Diablo.
She also claimed that she broke her 20-year sobriety when Kutcher told her he did not believe in alcoholism and said that he put her under pressure in trios.
She said she agreed to do them because she & # 39; fun & # 39; wanted to look like her much younger husband, but that she had a & # 39; error & # 39; goods.
The Kutcher representatives did not immediately respond to the questions of DailyMail.com on Monday morning.
Her book appears Tuesday
In a statement to UsWeekly earlier this month, a spokesperson for the star said: & # 39; Ashton knew what was coming.
& # 39; He was aware of what the book says.
& # 39; He is not angry or disappointed.
& # 39; This is the truth of Demi and he always felt sympathetic towards her.
& # 39; He knows her story and that her upbringing was difficult. & # 39;
The couple divorced in 2013 after eight years together.
Her book appears Tuesday.
It is dedicated to her daughters and to her mother.
After she left her mother's house, Moore started acting.
In 1980 she married her first husband, Freddie Moore. They were together for five years.
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