Former Arsenal and English star Paul Merson shed tears while fighting alcohol, drugs and depression: “You look like Brad Pitt because you play for the best team in the country, but it was all masked”
- Paul Merson has opened his addiction fighting during the career
- He said he would feel like Brad Pitt, but now admits it was just a mask
- He revealed that he saw a psychiatrist and dreamed of being Alan Smith
- He spoke on Sunday as part of the Sky Sports Heads Up campaign
Former Arsenal and the English star Paul Merson have told how his addiction to alcohol and drugs ended up in depression during his playing days.
Merson underwent a well-documented fight against both player and player, and now admits that he was thinking that he was Brad Pitt, but that it was just a mask.
‘I thought it was great, I am sitting here now and my life is completely different, but when I was in my twenties it was brilliant. I loved it. It was the dream, “he said Sky Sports as part of them pay attention campaign alongside former teammate David Seaman and Perry Groves.
Paul Merson opened his struggle with addiction during his playing career
Merson was moved to tears when he talked about his struggle with alcohol, drugs and depression
“When you go out, you look like Brad Pitt because you play for the best team in the country. But of course it was all masked. You have to put a smile on your face.
‘You’ve just lost all your money behind the scenes, and next week a big story will come to you in the newspaper about a girl you were with three weeks earlier and who sold their story.
‘All that stuff is waiting for you and you have nobody to talk to. No soul. Nobody in the world. The only thing you can do is push it down and down. ”
He revealed that he would see a psychiatrist and dreamed of being Alan Smith as a teammate because he was afraid to end up in the papers.
Merson spoke about Sky Sports alongside former teammates David Seaman and Perry Groves
“I lay on the couch and said,” Why can’t I be like Alan Smith? Why can’t I be normal? ” He lived his life the way I wanted, but I couldn’t.
‘He had finished training, happily married and always seemed satisfied, no unrest. I was never satisfied. He didn’t have to wake up on Sunday morning, look through the paper and think, “Thank goodness, nothing in there.” “
He admitted that he was not prepared for life as a footballer and his struggle with addiction after growing up on an estate.
Merson carries out his notorious drinking party after scoring Tottenham in 1993
Merson said he took to the field as if he were Brad Pitt, but admits it was just a mask
“I couldn’t handle life. I was a councilman who came from an estate and played at a big club with big headlines, and I couldn’t handle it.
“So I drank and drank, and that led to drugs. When that happened, I withdrew from the boys in Arsenal. That is what addiction does, you only want it, away from people.
“He doesn’t want your best friend to ask you:” What do you do with your life? ‘I drank, gambled and used drugs indoors. I would come back from the training at 1 p.m., I would pull the curtains and my head would be gone. I would wait until the next day and do it again. ”