Paloma Faith has revealed she’s struggling to breastfeed her newborn daughter, with the nasty challenge regularly bringing her to tears.
The singer, 39, welcomed her second child with partner last month Leyman Lahcine, with whom she also shares a four-year-old daughter.
And hitmaker Only Love Can Hurt Like This took to Instagram on Wednesday to reveal that she is ‘mourning’ the ‘bond’ she felt from breastfeeding her first child as she struggles with her youngest loving bottle-fed.
Struggle: Paloma Faith has revealed she’s struggling to breastfeed her newborn daughter, with the complex challenge regularly bringing her to tears. Pictured in 2019
In a candid post entitled ‘Postpartum diary: Breast vs bottle ‘, the East London resident shared a black and white photo of her offspring’s feet as she went into detail about the challenges she’s faced in recent months.
She wrote: ‘I exclusively breastfed my first child for 7 months. Due to mastitis and engorgement and tongue tie and reflux.
‘This time I thought I didn’t want to go to that place mentally anymore, so I thought I’d give bottles of expressed milk at night and breasts during the day. That way I could have someone else do it if I got PPD or needed a night off.
‘Then my baby (this one) was diagnosed with a tongue tie and we had him cut. Then it grew back and I cut it again. Now it’s gone, but she still gets frustrated with my breasts.
Candid: The star took to Instagram on Wednesday to reveal she is ‘mourning’ the ‘bond’ she felt from breastfeeding her first child, with her youngest preferring bottle feeding
‘I began to see that she would suck once and expect milk as she gets with the bottle. After sucking three times, she screamed as if to say “it’s not coming out!”. Then she would cry with her hunger and hit me.
‘After a while she learned to feed, but this behavior started after 15 minutes, then 10, now 5 and I pumped milk and filled her with a bottle. Well, you can guess what predicament I’m in. ‘
Talking about how the problem has affected her emotionally, she continued: ‘It feels a lot like my baby chose bottle over breasts herself. I cry a lot about it. I want the connection I felt with my first.
‘I have tried myofunctional therapy to get her tongue going and it helps, but there is no quick fix. I’m not trying to make it about me, but sometimes self-doubt creeps in.
Everyone says, “a happy baby is a fed baby” and you start to think I should just go with what she wants. But I hate pumps.
Bonding: Talking about how the problem affected her emotionally, she said, ‘I cry a lot about it. I want the connection I felt with my first. Pictured in 2019
‘I have the medela symphony at home for speed, and the freestyle and elvie pumps that fit right into your bra for walking around (handy) …
‘And I’m just going to go all day trying to accept that if I don’t want to hear my baby protest and cry and hit my breasts for many days, she’s decided what to do.
‘I swore I wouldn’t pump, I pump. Next stop try the formula conveyor. But I’m just going to take a few days to allow myself to get my head around and mourn a little bit. I know in the long run we’ll find our happiness, but some days it gets a little bit sad. ‘
The star concluded, “Mothers are great whether you’re breastfeeding, expressing or bottle feeding, but every choice you make seems to have a sacrifice. Maybe that’s the lesson of parenting ?! #breastfeedingjourney #ivfjourney #postnatal # 4thtrimester. ‘
Last week, Paloma gave fans another shockingly honest insight into motherhood with a candid post.
Growing Family: The singer, 39, welcomed her second child last month with partner Leyman Lahcine, with whom she also shares a four-year-old daughter. Pictured together in 2018
The singer has been keeping fans in the loop with an unfiltered postpartum diary since her welcome her second daughter.
And in her previous episode, Paloma shared a cute snap of her baby’s hand as she revealed the couple are both suffering from yeast infection thrush.
The mother of two wrote that it was “great” that her daughter “started to open her eyes and really look,” but confessed that it had not been the easiest week for them.
She wrote: ‘It’s been a month! Nothing is clearly straightforward. We both have thrush (my nipples, her mouth), used Daktarin gel for hair and Daktacort for me, plus Fluconodzole 50mg tablet (now daily for a week) and probiotics – and it feels like it’s just getting worse!
‘WHERE’S THE MIRACLE MEDICINE ?! I’m not very patient, so all this ‘give this a try’ with newborns is a big challenge for me. I like instant solutions!
Diary: The singer has been keeping fans in the loop with an unfiltered ‘postpartum diary’ since welcoming her second daughter last month. Pictured in 2000
She continued: ‘Bubs is doing well and she started opening her eyes and now really looking which is great. Reflux is still in full force, trying to learn some upright feeding positions now that she’s taller.
‘I don’t want to try the prescription drugs, all the media about it is too scary. Had a day yesterday when I just wanted to cry.
‘I’m getting nervous about being able to exercise, but I have to wait for the 6 week sign-off ….. TWO TO GO!
‘I find it hard to be good with eating and breastfeeding when it just makes me hungry!
Gonna speak live on insta tomorrow with @gentle_births_and_beyond at 8:15 pm GMT about tongue tie reflux and breastfeeding issues and anything else you want to ask us / her that has to do with babies! Tune in to super moms! ‘
Honest: Last week, Paloma gave fans another shockingly honest insight into motherhood with a candid post next to a snap of her newborn
The post comes after the star spoke of her fears that her career, which has spanned more than a decade, is coming to an end.
She spoke candidly about her upcoming BBC Two documentary Paloma Faith: As I Am and said she felt like she was ‘cheating on death’ because she was still releasing music after having her first child in 2016.
Paloma, who has ten Top 40 hits and ten million record sales, record label bosses said ‘concerned’ about wanting a second child, reports The sun
She said: “ I had dinner (with them) and there were signs of concern when I said I would like another child.
‘I feel like I’ve cheated death in some way, in terms of the death of my career, with a. And I feel like you might not be able to cheat death twice. ‘
The Only Love Can Hurt Like This singer, who has a 12-year career, added, ‘It feels a bit like it’s the end of an era for me right now.’
End of an era? Paloma fears her career, which spanned more than ten years, could come to an end after the birth of her second daughter
In the documentary, she also talked about her mental health, revealing that she had suicidal thoughts and felt “mentally unstable” from jet lag.
Musician Paloma candidly confessed that she had attempted to “unlock the window of her hotel room” after flying to Sydney to perform in 2009.
She said, ‘I had really bad experiences when I came to Australia. The first time I ever experienced jet lag I got a little disoriented and mentally unstable and had to cancel the tour. I was contemplating suicide. ‘
Paloma returned to Down Under in 2015 but was hospitalized exhausted and tweeted, “I don’t think all flying is very good for the body.”
She has spoken openly about her struggles with mental health and will explore the topic in her new documentary, which was filmed in 2018.
The star collaborated with director Jane Mingay on the film over the course of a year.
Heartbreaking: Paloma confessed to trying to unlock the window in her hotel room after flying to Sydney to perform in 2009 (pictured during the tour)