Paddy McGuinness detailed his battle with depression and revealed that it was his estranged wife, Christine, who spotted the symptoms.
The TV presenter, 49, admitted he was “unaware” of how low he had fallen and said he found himself quickly losing his temper as he looked back at his struggles.
Buddy said he found himself starting to resent his job because he had to make crowds laugh before he had to go home feeling unhappy with himself.
talking on Monday Mile Buddy said he was diagnosed with depression after his wife, Christine, 35, spotted the symptoms.
“In my experience,” he said, “with something like depression — I was diagnosed with clinical depression and I wasn’t aware of it.
Struggles: Paddy McGuinness detailed his battle with clinical depression and admitted he was “unaware” of how low it was.
SUPPORT: Speaking on the Monday Mile podcast, Paddy said he was diagnosed with clinical depression after his wife Kristin, 35, spotted the symptoms
You can be down to the lowest level and people around you can tell.
“So Kristen and a few of my family would say things and ask me if I was okay and I would think ‘Why do they always ask me that?'” “
“But you obviously can’t see it yourself, it’s in your head, it’s not like you have a limp where people can figure it out and you can figure it out.”
Clinical depression is low mood that lasts for days or months and affects your daily life, with symptoms including feelings of hopelessness and low self-esteem.
Buddy explained that he found himself frustrated and became angry easily as he admitted that he was starting to resent his job.
He continued, “I started to resent being in front of a crowd and making them laugh because I thought, ‘It’s okay for you but I’m going home feeling this way.'”
I’ve never been one to lose my temper, but I’ve felt like in certain situations I end up quicker and think that’s not me.
“I wasn’t throwing cups at the foul wall and screaming, but I felt instantly angry and I shouldn’t have.”
Troubled times: Buddy explained that he found himself easily frustrated and angry as he admitted he was starting to resent his job
X: Paddy and Kristen were married for 11 years before separating last July, but have continued to live together for the sake of their children
Buddy said he tried to go to therapy but spoke to two different people who he thought were “bullshit”, saying he had completely “given up”.
However, he said he then found another doctor to work for, and urged others not to give up and keep looking for someone who could help them.
He said: ‘I kind of look at therapy like buying shoes – it’s about not giving it up and I almost did.
If you try a treatment and it doesn’t work for you, it doesn’t mean that all treatments won’t, just keep going until you find it. It may take six bloody runs but it will be worth it.
The comedian said he used to see his therapist once a week and admitted it felt “relieved” when he was told he had clinical depression, saying he now sees his doctor once every few months.
Elsewhere on the podcast, Buddy touched on his recent BBC documentary Our Family and Autism.
Buddy and his estranged wife Christine share three children, twins Leo and Penelope, eight, and Felicity, five, who have all been diagnosed with autism.
Speaking about the documentary, he said: “It took five or six years to make it and[Christine and I]wanted to talk about it because we’ve been through so many terrible situations and didn’t know which way to go.
Christine was also diagnosed with autism in 2021 and opened up about her late diagnosis in a second BBC documentary, Unveiling Autism.
Autism refers to a wide range of conditions characterized by challenges in social skills, repetitive behaviours, speech and nonverbal communication.
Family: Kristen recently shed light on their living arrangement, insisting that she and Paddy will “always” be family after their split.
Paddy and Kristen were married for 11 years before separating last July, but have continued to live together for the sake of their children.
Kristen recently shed light on their living arrangement, insisting that she and Paddy will “always” be part of the family after their split.
“We want to keep things the same as possible for the kids,” said the one who appeared Tuesday in Lorraine.
I don’t want anything to affect them. We will always be a family and live in a happy home.