Millie Mackintosh says her “emotions were everywhere” as a new mom

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She has just celebrated her daughter Sienna’s first birthday.

And Millie Mackintosh reflected on how she ‘struggled’ when she first became a mother, sharing two sweet selfies with her little one on Thursday.

The former Made in Chelsea star, 31, said that during the first weeks after giving birth, her ’emotions were all over the place’ and that she ‘burst into tears without knowing why’.

Candid: And Millie Mackintosh has been thinking about how she ‘struggled’ when she first became a mother, sharing two sweet selfies with her little one on Thursday

The beauty added that ‘pregnancy and motherhood are tough’ and that even now her ‘fear is creeping in,’ as she became involved in marking Maternal Mental Health Month.

Millie shared two radiant snaps with Sienna – which she shares with husband Hugo Taylor, 34 – one looked happy and the other looked sad to show how she was experiencing her ups and downs.

She wrote in the caption, ‘I made a promise to myself when I was pregnant with Sienna that I would share the ups and downs with you guys.

Pregnancy and motherhood are tough, especially those early days of sleepless nights and baby breakdowns when you’re just trying to find your rhythm.

Honestly: The former Made in Chelsea star, 31, said during the first weeks after giving birth her 'emotions were all over' and she 'burst into tears without knowing why'

Honestly: The former Made in Chelsea star, 31, said during the first weeks after giving birth her ’emotions were all over’ and she ‘burst into tears without knowing why’

‘I struggled in those early weeks, my emotions were all over the place and I burst into tears not knowing why.

“ I was the happiest I’ve ever been, but I also felt so depressed and insecure about it all, I chose to share these photos because they pretty much sum up how I felt with my ups and downs. ”

She added: I still have days like that even now, I am so consumed with the love I have for Sienna, but sometimes fear creeps in. On those days I have to work hard to remind myself that as long as she is happy and healthy, then I am doing well! ‘

Difficult: She wrote in the caption, 'I made a promise to myself when I was pregnant with Sienna that I would share the ups and downs with you'

Difficult: She wrote in the caption, ‘I made a promise to myself when I was pregnant with Sienna that I would share the ups and downs with you’

Millie went on to say that she had a great support network around her and that talking and sharing her experiences made her feel better

She explained, “Knowing it was okay, that it was normal, that I wasn’t alone and that I was a good mom.

‘I’m so proud to support @happiest_baby_uk and @mums_aid around #MaternalMentalHealthMonth, who encourage moms to share their tough times so other moms can tell and know they’re not alone – after all, they say it takes a village to bring up a child! ‘

She signed off by saying, “If you’re struggling or feeling down, check in with a friend or a medical professional, you’re really not alone.”

Real talk: The beauty added that 'pregnancy and motherhood are tough' and that even now her 'fear is creeping' as she got involved in marking Maternal Mental Health Month

Real talk: The beauty added that ‘pregnancy and motherhood are tough’ and that even now her ‘fear is creeping’ as she got involved in marking Maternal Mental Health Month

It came after Millie and her husband Hugo made sure their daughter Sienna was a blast on Saturday.

Millie shared snaps of the festivities on Instagram, revealing that they had given their lavish London home a pink makeover and decked it out with balloons, gorgeous flowers and even a miniature tipi for their little girl to play in.

Millie looked gorgeous for the occasion in a gathered gingham dress as she sipped champagne, while Hugo cut a neat figure in a pink shirt and black jeans.

As for the birthday girl, her doting parents dressed her in a cute pink party dress.

Happy birthday: it comes after Millie and her husband Hugo made their daughter Sienna a blast on Saturday

Happy birthday: it comes after Millie and her husband Hugo made their daughter Sienna a blast on Saturday

In a video shared by her mother on social media, Sienna was seen giggling as she unwraps presents.

Millie also revealed that she ordered a beautiful birthday cake with flowers for her daughter.

Millie shares photos on Instagram, writing, ‘Decorations fit for a princess! Thank you @elarievents for creating this dream backdrop for Sienna’s first birthday. ‘

It came hours after Millie shared a topless throwback photo of her baby belly, taken the day before she welcomed Sienna into the world.

Wow: Millie shares photos of the festivities on Instagram and reveals they gave their lavish London home a pink makeover while sipping champagne

Wow: Millie shares photos of the festivities on Instagram and reveals they gave their lavish London home a pink makeover while sipping champagne

As she posted the photo to Instagram, doting mum Millie wore nothing but a black slip and posed in her bedroom mirror.

The radiant photo – taken in Millie’s bedroom – was dated April 30, 2020.

Days earlier, Millie revealed that having bigger breasts as a new mom was a challenging ‘adjustment’ and she felt her lowest post pregnancy when ‘nothing fit’.

Millie admitted she “ never had to dress for tits ” before welcoming daughter Sienna last year, joking that her new plunging neckline is an “ obstruction. ”

Transformation: Millie and Hugo decorated their home with balloons, beautiful flowers and even a miniature teepee for their little girl to play in

Transformation: Millie and Hugo decorated their home with balloons, beautiful flowers and even a miniature teepee for their little girl to play in

In an exclusive interview with MailOnline, Millie revealed that she alternated between being in awe of her postpartum body and feeling ‘stressed and self-conscious’ about nothing that matched her postpartum.

She said, ‘I’ve never had to dress for breasts before! It has certainly been an adjustment. Milk breasts, they get bigger during pregnancy and when your milk comes, that’s literally quite another thing.

‘They are like obstacles! They just wouldn’t fit in anywhere. Then they started hardening and leaking, it was a big deal in that heat wave last summer. ‘

Millie recently confessed that she was ‘ashamed’ of her postpartum body.

But she maintains that those negative feelings came up when she was at rock bottom and frustrations over her mismatched clothes dominated.

Stylish: Millie looked gorgeous for the occasion in a gathered gingham dress as she rocked her daughter in the loving snaps

Stylish: Millie looked gorgeous for the occasion in a gathered gingham dress as she rocked her daughter in the loving snaps

She explained: ‘I said at the time that I found it very difficult to have a baby and there were times when I was ashamed of my postpartum body. That’s how I felt on a low day, not always.

‘I was trying to emphasize that I would go between being in awe of my body and’ wow I made this baby ‘and all this appreciation for myself and’ I’m making milk and feeding her and it’s great ‘and other days I’ve felt like – “argh, nothing fits, I feel uncomfortable and when I leave the house, someone takes my picture.”

‘I had that stress to think about, which made me more self-aware – but I didn’t feel like that all the time.

‘I really appreciate my body. As time went on it got easier, but I think it’s really important to be honest about these feelings and not lie and say “I love my postpartum body every day!” I wanted to be honest about my reality, but it’s not like that for everyone. ‘

Millie, who was first famous for throwing drinks at Made in Chelsea, attending glamorous parties and being a part of the West London decor alongside her good friend Caggie Dunlop, admitted that something finally clicked in her life after becoming a mother. had become.

She said, “It changed me a lot. It taught me a lot of lessons and I feel like I have come more into myself. I’ve always wanted to be a mom. It clicks for me.

‘There are tough days and hard times but I really love it and Sienna is amazing and I feel really lucky to have had her during a lockdown because for us there have been a lot of benefits like working with Hugo all the time having time off work. since he was on leave, we actually had a year, the three of us, which was really great. ‘

Radiant: It came hours after Millie shared a topless throwback photo of her baby bump, taken the day before she welcomed Sienna into the world

Radiant: It came hours after Millie shared a topless throwback photo of her baby bump, taken the day before she welcomed Sienna into the world

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