Mary J Blige Recalls How She Was ‘Depressed’ And Didn’t Want To ‘Live’ Inspired Album My Life

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Mary J Blige exposed her darkest moments in a new trailer for her upcoming documentary My Life.

The 50-year-old singing legend reflected on how her 1994 album My Life was inspired by a time when she was “depressed and didn’t want to live.”

She said, ‘I had it all inside me and I could sing it and write it. I didn’t know so many people thought the same.’

Looking back: Mary J. Blige exposed her darkest moments in a new trailer for her upcoming documentary My Life

Looking back: Mary J. Blige exposed her darkest moments in a new trailer for her upcoming documentary My Life

At another point, she said of her relationship with her audience, “There’s just something really powerful about inspiring each other to want to live to see another day.”

Mary said: ‘My Life is probably my darkest album, in one of the darkest times I’ve had. Most of the time I was just depressed and didn’t want to live anymore.’

During the trailer, she also reflected on her hard scrabble childhood, much of which was spent in a housing project in Yonkers.

Her nurse was an alcoholic and her father – who abused the mother – was a Vietnam veteran with PTSD who left when Mary was four.

Difficult moment: The 50-year-old singing legend reflected on how her 1994 album My Life was inspired by a time when she was 'depressed and didn't want to live'

Difficult moment: The 50-year-old singing legend reflected on how her 1994 album My Life was inspired by a time when she was ‘depressed and didn’t want to live’

Expressing it: She said 'I had it all inside and I was able to sing and write it', adding 'I didn't realize so many people think the same'

Expressing it: She said ‘I had it all inside and I was able to sing and write it’, adding ‘I didn’t realize so many people think the same’

Bond: At another point, she said of her relationship with her audience, 'There's just something really powerful about inspiring each other to want to live to see another day'

Bond: At another point, she said of her relationship with her audience, ‘There’s just something really powerful about inspiring each other to want to live to see another day’

Throwback: Mary shared: 'My Life is probably my darkest album, on one of the darkest times I've had', saying 'Most of the time I was just depressed and didn't want to live'

Throwback: Mary shared: ‘My Life is probably my darkest album, on one of the darkest times I’ve had’, saying ‘Most of the time I was just depressed and didn’t want to live’

Little Mary: During the trailer, she also looked back on her hard childhood, much of which was spent in a housing project in Yonkers

Little Mary: During the trailer, she also looked back on her hard childhood, much of which was spent in a housing project in Yonkers

“The neighborhood where we lived is like a prison,” she said in the trailer. “There was a lot wrong and there was a lot – I had to get out. That’s why I had that pen.’

Mary often spoke of the comfort she received in her work, saying, “I think the only thing that guided us was the music. It just saved you.’

Her confessions were interspersed with audio clips of her singing and concert footage of her delighting legions of fans.

During a performance, she told the audience, “If you’re here tonight and you’re a Mary J. Blige fan, you’ve been tested, tried and proven.”

“That’s why I had my pen”: “The neighborhood we lived in is like a prison,” she said in the trailer: “There was a lot wrong and there was a lot – I had to get out

'It just saved you': Mary often spoke of the solace she found in her work, saying, 'I think the only thing that guided us was the music'

‘It just saved you’: Mary often spoke of the solace she found in her work, saying, ‘I think the only thing that guided us was the music’

Superstar: Her confessions were interspersed with audio clips of her singing and concert footage of her delighting legions of fans

Superstar: Her confessions were interspersed with audio clips of her singing and concert footage of her delighting legions of fans

Warm words: During a performance, she told the audience: 'If you're here tonight and you're a Mary J. Blige fan, you've been tested, you've been tried and you've been proven'

Warm words: During a performance, she told the audience: ‘If you’re here tonight and you’re a Mary J. Blige fan, you’ve been tested, you’ve been tried and you’ve been proven’

She could also be glimpsed in more relaxed moments, such as a photo of her plunging onto some birthday cakes.

The trailer also featured other performers praising Mary, including Sean “Diddy” Combs saying, “Nobody sounds like her.”

Mary’s friend Taraji P. Henson, who starred with her in the 2009 comedy film I Can Do Bad All By Myself, also spoke of her impact.

Yum: There may also be a brief glimpse of her in more relaxed moments, such as a photo of her perching on some birthday cakes

Yum: There may also be a brief glimpse of her in more relaxed moments, such as a photo of her perching on some birthday cakes

Dashing: Other performers were also featured in the trailer praising Mary, including Sean 'Diddy' Combs saying, 'Nobody sounds like her'

Dashing: Other performers were also featured in the trailer praising Mary, including Sean ‘Diddy’ Combs saying, ‘Nobody sounds like her’

Her side: Mary's friend Taraji P. Henson, who starred with her in the 2009 comedy film I Can Do Bad All By Myself, also spoke of her impact

Her side: Mary’s friend Taraji P. Henson, who starred with her in the 2009 comedy film I Can Do Bad All By Myself, also spoke of her impact

“She made sure people could say, ‘It’s okay to be me,'” Taraji said, and Alicia Keys added, “We still don’t get to see that very often, you know, still.”

In addition to his appearance in the film, Diddy is also one of the producers and Quincy Jones is an executive producer.

Directed by Vanessa Roth, who was a producer of the Oscar-winning short documentary Freeheld, Mary’s new film will be released on Amazon Prime on June 25.

There's Alicia: 'She made people say: "It's okay to be me"' said Taraji and Alicia Keys added 'We still don't get to see that often, you know, still'

There’s Alicia: ‘She made people say, ‘It’s good to be me,” Taraji said, and Alicia Keys added, ‘We still don’t get to see that very often, you know, still’

Mary's collaborators: In addition to appearing in the film, Diddy is also one of the producers and Quincy Jones serves as an executive producer

Mary’s collaborators: In addition to appearing in the film, Diddy is also one of the producers and Quincy Jones serves as an executive producer

Incoming: Directed by Vanessa Roth, who was a producer of the Oscar-winning short documentary Freeheld, Mary's new film will hit Amazon Prime on June 25

Incoming: Directed by Vanessa Roth, who was a producer of the Oscar-winning short documentary Freeheld, Mary’s new film will hit Amazon Prime on June 25

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