The mother of two said she had been drinking when she fell asleep in her hotel room
Lily Allen has talked about her torment after a music industry executive sexually abused her after a party.
The mother of two children said that she had been drinking when she fell asleep in her hotel room.
Then he woke her by pressing her "naked body" against her back, the singer affirms.
After the alleged assault, the 33-year-old woman says she continued working with the anonymous man because she feared that she would be labeled as "difficult". He was also warned that there were others like him in the industry.
She added that initially she blamed herself for the assault.
Ms. Allen has discussed earlier in more general terms an incident of abuse by a powerful figure in the industry several years ago. However, she has given more details in her next autobiography.
In My Thoughts Exactly, Miss Allen describes the alleged attack that occurs in the early hours of the morning.
They had taken her to the man's hotel room, where she had fallen asleep.
She writes: "I got up at 5am because I could feel someone beside me pressing his naked body against my back." I was also naked.
Then, Miss Allen tells how the executive touched her inappropriately, tried to have sex with her and slapped her "like a stripper in a club."
She says: "I walked away as fast as possible and jumped out of bed, full of alarm … I found my clothes quickly … and ran out of his room towards mine."
The singer, who split from her husband businessman Sam Cooper in 2016, revealed that he wanted to name the executive in his book. However, she decided not to do so after the legal advice of her editor.
He also expressed frustration at not having confronted or informed the man's behavior, and continued to work with him. She explained that she remained silent because she had more power and money than she, and she feared being labeled "hysterical" and a "difficult woman."
Then, Miss Allen tells how the executive touched her inappropriately, tried to have sex with her and slapped her on the ass "like I was a stripper in a club."
"I hoped he would not take advantage of my weakness," he writes in the book. & # 39; I felt betrayed. I felt shame. I felt angry. I felt confused. "
Ms. Allen said she did not report the attack because she did not see the point and feared they would consider her unreliable. "If things got worse, I told myself, he would win," he said.
The pop star, who is the daughter of actor Keith Allen, said at the time that she thought the incident was below the threshold for it to be a crime.
She added: & # 39; What was the crime? The executive of the record industry did not rape me. Was he supposed to report that someone was trying? Ms. Allen said she was shocked by the meeting and felt "betrayed," but initially blamed herself for drinking at the party.
Although she never formally reported the assault, the singer affirmed that she signed an affidavit detailing the alleged attack.
The singer told The Guardian that she was later offered the opportunity to appear on a show promoted by BBC Radio 1, but she refused because one of the executive's clients was also going to be there.
She said she felt she could not tell the station why she could not show up and claimed that, as a result, she was "punished". no streaming of their 2017 single, Trigger Bang.
The singer, who split from her husband businessman Sam Cooper in 2016, revealed that he wanted to name the executive in his book. However, she decided not to do so after the legal advice of her editor
The complaints come after Ms. Allen revealed that she had encounters with escorts in 2014, months after the birth of her second daughter, Marnie.
She told her 874,000 Instagram followers: "I slept with female escorts when I was on tour, because I was lost and alone and looking for something. I'm not proud, but I'm not ashamed. I do not do more ".
It is known that he met women when he released his album Sheezus, and also suffered from postnatal depression.
She has blamed her life in the spotlight for the failure of her five-year marriage in 2016.
In a recent interview, she said: "I lost my sense of identity, I lost my identity, I was being a bad mother, I was being bad at my job, I woke up on a tourist bus in the middle of Wisconsin and I was so hungover. my husband All I wanted to do was be with my children. "
Miss Allen has two children with her ex-husband, Ethel, seven, and Marnie, who now has five.