An Australian woman revealed how bodybuilding saved her life after she tried to take her own after a drug addiction and eating disorders.
Jane Curnow, 53, fought most of her adult life against drug abuse, mental illness, and suicidal thoughts until fitness gave her the positive escape she needed.
& # 39; My entire adult life has been strewn with depression, anxiety, addictions, eating disorders, drug abuse, broken relationships, heartache and insecurities & # 39 ;, she wrote in a recent blog post for Love what's important.
Because they are & # 39; lonely, ashamed and unworthy & # 39; felt, Curnow planned to take her own life on her 50th birthday until she discovered that the joy of exercise and fitness brought her.
The Australian woman Jane Curnow (photo) transformed her life from depression, drug addiction and eating disorders to bodybuilder and fitness coach
& # 39; My original plan for my 50th birthday was to make a third and final attempt in my life, & # 39; she said.
& # 39; I celebrated my half-century on stage in a bikini and explained to the world that I had fully recovered from clinical depression & # 39 ;, she said.
Mrs. Curnow's childhood was peppered with trauma, from the divorce of her parents to the move from one school to another.
A rebellious teenager, she married at the age of 19, but divorced by the time she was 21 to repeat the pattern only ten years later by marrying at the age of 32 and divorcing within a year.
Mrs. Curnow (pictured at her festive heyday) was always the & # 39; only, desperate drunk girl at the bar & # 39; during her years & # 39; 30
After being diagnosed with clinical depression, Mrs. Curnow went into parties for the first time and started a series of failed relationships that left her empty and sad.
& # 39; Through my years & # 39; 30 I was either the only, desperate, drunk girl at the bar or in an on-off, off-again relationship, & # 39; she said.
At the age of 35, Mrs. Curnow tried to take her own life.
When she approached 40, & # 39; single and childless & # 39 ;, she struggled under the pressure of life according to what society expected.
& # 39; My biological clock was now deafening in my ears and my shopping list with life had no check mark, & # 39; she said.
A second suicide attempt followed, as did several failed rounds of IVF when Ms. Curnow desperately tried to become a solo mother.
Everything changed when she discovered bodybuilding in 2012
Mrs. Curnow mentions a regiment with fitness and weightlifting to help her through depression
But it was only when she discovered bodybuilding in 2012 that life was finally changing for the better thanks to good nutrition, exercise and gradual elimination of alcohol.
& # 39; After a life of self-neglect, underweight and malnutrition, my body started to shoot at all cylinders! Now I don't drink alcohol at all, & she said.
& # 39; The physical power of weightlifting, the positive influence of my mentors / coaches and the discipline of this lifestyle contributed enormously to my recovery, the core of all suffering and performance is the mind.
& # 39; People say I am obsessed with my health. Yes I am, because it helped me with my depression. & # 39;
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