Jade Goody’s widower Jack Tweed paid tribute on the 11th anniversary of her death.
The 32-year-old TV personality stated that he would “never stop loving” the Big Brother star again and told how he would light a candle to mark the day.
Jade died of cervical cancer at the age of 27 in 2009. She married Jack just a month before her death on Mother’s Day.
Sad loss: Jade Goody’s widower Jack Tweed paid tribute on the 11th anniversary of her death (pictured in 2019)
To talk with The sun on her birthday, Jack said, “Many years may have passed since Jade died, but the pain is not diminishing. I still love Jade as much as I did when I went to sleep. ‘
Referring to the government’s advice that the citizen should take social distances during the coronavirus outbreak, he added, “It is particularly difficult today because I will not see my own mother normally, so I will spend a lot of time alone. ‘
He continued, “But I will light a candle for Jade. It’s the same every year, a big candle we got on our wedding day. I know I will never meet someone like her again. ‘
Jack added that he hoped her memory would live on and people will “remember” her smile and joie de vivre.
Forever: The TV personality, 32, said he would “ never keep loving ” the Big Brother star and told how he would light a candle to mark the day
He also sent a message to Jade’s mother Jackiey Budden, admitting they had lost touch since the star died.
Jack’s words come days after he revealed that his family saved his life after experiencing suicidal thoughts after her tragic death and told how he would be dead if his loved ones were not to intervene.
To talk with The sunJack told how his brother came home one day and saw ‘bottle tablets’ in front of him.
Too soon over: Jade died of cervical cancer at the age of 27 in 2009. She married Jack just a month before her death on Mother’s Day (pictured in February 2009)
Discussing the ordeal before publication. he said, “I had been thinking about suicide for a while, just thinking what’s the point of this?
“I’ve lost everything and have never felt so low in my life. My brother came over one day and found me sitting with bottles of tablets in front of me.”
The TV personality further explained that his mental health suffered after the star’s death, adding that he lives with “ acute anxiety. ”
He continued, “My sanity has suffered a lot since Jade died. I have acute anxiety that is very difficult to deal with. I used drugs for a while, but I didn’t really like it. To be honest, I probably didn’t give it a shot. I am not one to take tablets. ‘
Heartbroken: Jack’s words come days after he revealed that his family saved his life after experiencing suicidal thoughts after her tragic death and told how he would be dead if his loved ones didn’t step in
Jack went on to say that dealing with ‘simple things’ was difficult amid his fear, adding that things feel like a ‘big problem’ to him.
Speaking further of the pain he has endured since her death, Jack added that he wakes up every day with a “ constantly sick feeling, ” adding that he drank to get rid of that feeling, but he has since declined.
He added that the upcoming anniversary of her death on Sunday will be “difficult” to deal with, especially since it falls on Mother’s Day.
It comes months after Jade’s former partner, Jeff Brazier, admitted the decade since his death was “ hugely difficult. ”
So sad: ‘I’ve lost everything and never felt so low in my life, my brother came over one day and found me sitting with bottles of tablets in front of me’ (pictured in February 2008)
Difficult: Speaking further of the pain he has endured since her death, Jack added that he wakes up every day with a ‘constantly sick feeling’, adding that he was drinking to get rid of that feeling, but has since declined (shown in 2008)
The 40-year-old star also shared how their sons Bobby (16) and Freddie (15) had become ‘wonderful young men’ after adjusting to the trauma of their mother’s death.
Speaking to Barrow-in-Furness newspaper The Mail in November, Jeff said that the past 10 years had been ‘tremendously difficult’ – that’s the only way I can really say it. There have been ups and downs, but we got through it together. ‘
The star – who had no relationship with Jade at the time of her death – went on to say that his sons’ grew up ‘and’ grew into great young men. I am very proud of it. ‘
Difficult: Jade Goody’s ex Jeff Brazier, 40, admitted that the decade since her death has been ‘hugely difficult’ (pictured: the couple in 2003 during Jade’s first pregnancy)
Heartbreaking: Jeff also shared how their sons Bobby (16) and Freddie (15) had grown into ‘great young men’ after adjusting to the trauma of their mother’s death (pictured in 2005)
He revealed that Jade’s death, coinciding with Mother’s Day, is “difficult” because of “cruel coincidence.”
The date “ sets a lot loose ” for his two sons, but the family would never stop talking about Jade because she was their mother.
He added that his job was to be ‘respectful’ to the reality star’s memory by making sure she ‘lives’ through her children.
A struggle: Jeff said the past 10 years have been “ tremendously difficult – that’s the only way I can really say it ” after Jade’s death from cervical cancer in 2009 (pictured in 2003)