Holly Madison warns fans of the costs of being weight-obsessed and reveals she worried she was overweight in 2005 — though she can now see she was “a stick.”
The 41-year-old took to TikTok this week to share a throwback photo of herself modeling a Playboy Bunny costume more than 15 years ago when she started starring on the E! reality series Girls Next Door.
Holly admitted that when she first saw footage of herself from the event all those years ago, she was “terrified” that she’d gained weight and thought her thighs were “huge” – but now she can see that this isn’t it. case was not at all, and she wasted so much energy because of ‘body dysmorphism’.
Changing attitudes: Holly Madison warns fans of the costs of being overweight and reveals she worried she was overweight in 2005 (pictured)
Flashback: The 41-year-old took to TikTok this week to share a throwback photo of herself modeling a Playboy Bunny costume more than 15 years ago
Tiny: Holly admitted seeing herself all those years ago she was ‘terrified’ that she’d gained weight and thought her thighs were ‘huge’
“So for a recent post I was looking for pictures of myself in a bunny costume, and I came across one that reminded me of a time in my life when I was watching a playback of myself in a fashion show, and I thought, “Oh my god, I need to lose weight.”
She went on to share a photo of herself on a runway wearing a black Playboy Bunny costume, complete with ears, a bow tie and cuff bracelets, at the premiere of the Roberto Cavalli-designed Playboy Bunny uniform on November 4, 2005 .
“I’m sharing this because I think it can help people realize that sometimes our body dysmorphism isn’t on the map,” she explained.
“I really feel like I’m concerned about how I look and that it’s getting in the way of living my best life and being as happy as possible, and really enjoying life as much as possible.
“And I hope people take a moment to think about how they feel about their own bodies, and is it stopping you from feeling bad about yourself?
Unhealthy Ideas: She Can Now See That This Wasn’t The Case At All, And She Wasted So Much Energy Through ‘Body Dysmorphism’
“I hope people take a moment to think about how they feel about their own bodies, and is it stopping you from feeling bad about yourself?” she said
What a foursome: Holly is pictured with Hugh Hefner and her Girls Next Door co-stars co
And it’s not worth it, it’s not worth feeling bad about yourself. Like there are things we all want to improve on about ourselves, but it’s not even worth taking the time to be miserable,” she said.
She was stunned at how big she thought she looked in this outfit
“Because I looked at myself looking like this and I was terrified and I thought I’d gained weight, and I thought I hadn’t been on my diet, and I thought my thighs were huge, and I thought, I need to lose weight at least.” five pounds,” she recalled.
‘And that’s ridiculous. I looked like a stick.’
It certainly didn’t help Holly that she was told to shed pounds for work. In 2011, she was shocked when producers of her Las Vegas burlesque show Peepshow told her to lose weight.
“I always thought I looked good. It was a shock to me when they told me to lose weight,” she said RadarOnline.
But Holly has clearly come a long way in the past decade when it comes to body positivity.
In 2013, after giving birth to her daughter, Rainbow Aurora, the star proudly boasted that she had lost 30 pounds in just six weeks. of the 40 pounds. she won during pregnancy.
But even then, she seemed to have to convince herself that it was okay for her to have 10 pounds. more to go.
Bad Deal: Seen in 2007 with Hefner, Kendra Wilkinson and Bridget Marquardt
Candid: The Girls Next Door alum is pictured with the late Hugh Hefner (pictured in 2003)
“Who cares if I still have 10 pounds to lose. I’ve been very healthy and did what I could,” she told Life & Style. “I’m really proud of how I look now.”
But when she welcomed her second child, Forest, in 2016, Holly had gained 60 pounds. – and had a more relaxed attitude about losing it.
“I’m going to get healthy, but I’m not going to focus on how fast I’m losing weight,” she said. People at that moment. “I don’t have a time limit.”
In 2020, four years after giving birth, she stated on Instagram that she was “excited that I had finally reached my goal weight.”
“It took me four years to get here. Losing weight just wasn’t my first priority after having a baby, sorry about that, she said. “After my first pregnancy, I lost weight easily, but after the second, the extra pounds just kept coming.
“I was working on a novel and I was terrified that if I went on a diet I would be hungry, cranky, lightheaded and unable to concentrate.
Improvements: Holly has clearly come a long way in the past decade when it comes to body positivity — and approached losing baby weight differently with her two kids
Difference: The first time she lost almost all the weight in just six weeks. The second time it took her several years
“I tried to lose weight just by exercising and being moderately careful about what I eat in the beginning, but even though I was doing really challenging workouts almost every day, nothing came of it,” she continued.
“It wasn’t until I finally went to see a nutritionist a year ago that I started to make progress. I needed to know which foods worked with my metabolism before a diet became effective.
“It was only recently that I was able to incorporate both diet and exercise into my day. For a while it was a struggle because it seemed like I only had time for it: exercise OR make sure I had all the food I needed to stick to my diet.’
She concluded: ‘I know there are so many mothers who feel bad because they don’t always lose weight quickly. The same methods don’t necessarily work for everyone. Remember, if you haven’t reached your physical goal yet, it’s because you’re a boss with a million things going on and you’re probably killing it more than you think you are.”