Hilaria Baldwin continues to document her potential miscarriage on social media, this time by posting a new selfie while she goes to the doctor to see if her unborn baby is still alive.
The 35-year-old shared the candid snapshot on her Instagram story shortly after 12 pm ET on Tuesday, the same day that she revealed on the Today show that she is & # 39; pretty sure & # 39; [her pregnancy] will not paste & # 39 ;.
Hilaria, who has four other children with her actor, Alec Baldwin, carried a black leather bag, a light blue box and a tin can while she cut the selfie, which she subtitled with the words: & # 39; On my way to my appointment . I remind myself: take a deep breath and be brave. & # 39;
Updates: Hilaria Baldwin posted a selfie on her Instagram story while she was on her way to her doctor's appointment to hear if her unborn baby is still alive
Pronounce: She appeared on the Today show hours earlier to discuss her possible miscarriage, and revealed that her baby can still have a heartbeat
Anxiety: the 35-year-old, who publicly shared the news about her pregnancy on Thursday morning, admitted that she is & # 39; pretty sure & # 39; [the pregnancy] will not paste & # 39;
The image was shared just four hours after the yoga guru revealed that her unborn baby can still have a heartbeat, after shocking her fans and followers days earlier when she posted on Instagram to tell that she & # 39; would probably be a miscarriage experienced & # 39 ;.
She then appeared on the Today show on Tuesday to share an update on her pregnancy while revealing that she has scheduled a scan today to check her baby's status.
& # 39; I think I get the answer somehow, & # 39; she said about the possible outcome of her appointment. & # 39; I'm pretty sure this won't stick.
& # 39; You know that if we agree to be parents, we have to accept the good and the bad, whether our child gets a scraped knee or becomes sad when they are a teenager, or becomes very ill, or god prohibits something worse .. we must realize that it is not just diapers and blankets and haircuts.
& # 39; We must open our hearts and realize that there will also be hard moments. & # 39;
When Hilaria first became aware of the possible miscarriage last week – after she had not previously revealed that she was expecting another child – she explained in a detailed Instagram caption that the unborn baby had a heartbeat, but noted that it not & # 39; very strong & # 39; used to be.
& # 39; So, here's what's going on: the embryo has a heartbeat, but it's not strong, and the baby isn't growing very much, & # 39; she wrote.
& # 39; So we wait – and this is hard. So much uncertainty … but the chance is very small that this is a viable pregnancy. I am confident that my family and I will endure this, even though the journey is difficult. & # 39;
Angry: Hilaria revealed on Thursday morning that she & # 39; probably experienced a miscarriage & # 39; in a shocking Instagram post with a picture of the yoga guru rocking a small lump
Hurt: The mother of the four said she thought it was & # 39; important to show the truth & # 39; about her miscarriage when she first revealed it
During her appearance on the Today show, the yoga guru, who has four children with husband Alec – Carmen Gabriela, five, Rafael Thomas, three, Leonardo Ángel Charles, two and Romeo, 10 months – Opened in more detail about the devastating moment when she found out that her pregnancy might be in danger.
& # 39; Anyone who has had children or several children, you know that [at] your scans and your different appointments, there is the good news where they are always very chipper … and then there is silence, & she explained.
& # 39; And the silence makes you very nervous. And this [ultrasound] technician, she just kept quiet and tried to find the heartbeat, and she could find it, and then she listened to it and you heard a [heartbeat], but it was very apart and very slow.
& # 39; And I look at her because I don't know, even though I had four children – I don't know! And she told me that the heartbeat is not very fast.
& # 39; So then I went back inside – and in the life of an embryo, you know [in] days a week, [everything] is completely different – and it was the same. & # 39;
In an essay she wrote for Glamor, which became live as her Today interview was broadcast, Hilaria remembered the moment when she and Alec discovered that she was expecting another child – admitting that they were quite shocked at first by the news.
& # 39; When my husband and I found out that I was pregnant for the fifth time, we had not actively tried, but we knew we wanted another baby, & # 39; she wrote.
& # 39; Our youngest is only 10 months old, so in the beginning there was a moment of: "Oh my God, are we doing this again?!" But then the excitement came. I discovered my due date; my body started to change and I started to dream: will it be a boy or a girl? What shall we call him or her?
Hardship: & # 39; This is something that has not been easy & # 39 ;, Hilaria said during the Today show, discussing her decision to publicly share her potential miscarriage
Doubtful: Hilaria has scheduled another scan on Tuesday and she admitted during her interview that she does not believe that her unborn baby will survive
& # 39; I'm coming! & # 39; Before her interview, Hilaria shared a selfie on her Instagram story, revealing that she had been in bed all night with her ten-month-old son Romeo.
& # 39; Then, somewhere before 10 weeks, I went in for an ultrasound. I know my technician so well – I had four children under her care – but she was silent at this appointment. Every hopeful pregnant woman dispels this silence. She listened to the heartbeat time and time again, took new measurements and actually said nothing. I'm sure it was just minutes, but it felt like an eternity.
& # 39; And I just knew: Oh no, something is wrong.
& # 39; The heart rate was too slow for a healthy pregnancy, so she told me that I had to come back for another scan within a week to see if it went better.
News: Before the Instagram post about her possible miscarriage, Hilaria and Alec Baldwin had not revealed that they were expecting another child together
& # 39; I heard the & # 39; go-goom, che-goom, che-goom of the heartbeat, hopeful that it sounded faster than last time. "I can't lie to you," she said. "It's not. The embryo doesn't seem to grow." & # 39;
Hilaria has since had a devastating watch to find out if the embryo will survive, although she admitted during her on-air interview that she does not have much hope that the pregnancy will remain & # 39;
After some recoil before her decision to talk so candidly and openly about her pregnancy, Hilaria explained to Today anchors Hoda Kotb and Savannah Guthrie that she was determined to be just as open and honest with her followers about the reality of pregnancy – both the good and the bad.
& # 39; This is something that has not been easy & # 39 ;, she said. & # 39; I understand, and I wanted to come out and talk about it because it is something so many people deal with.
& # 39; As women, we are trained to deal with it silently … you cannot say anything before 12 weeks!
& # 39; And some of them are because people are superstitious or that is how they think they will become stronger, and much of it, for other people, is of fear. And I don't think we should live with such a fear. & # 39;
She added: & # 39; It is a lot to ask of me [to speak about this while it is going on], but for me personally it would be harder to do it quietly, to get in here … I would wear a fitness segment and I would wear something else so that you wouldn't see that my belly was a little bigger it's typical, and I would pretend I wasn't nauseous and I pretended I wasn't tired – and that is really tiring!
& # 39; And then you put the emotion on top: "Hey, this is not going in the right direction", and that is a lot to endure.
Open: in February Hilaria confirmed that she wanted to become pregnant during a performance at The Ellen Show with her husband, in which daughter Carmen says she wants a sister
Support system: Hilaria shared a photo of herself with her four children on Friday, just one day after she revealed she & # 39; had a miscarriage & # 39; experienced
Not only: in the sincere contribution, she thanked her fans for their support and for sharing their own stories and experiences
& # 39; Being open to me allowed me to lighten it a bit. Secrets are only scary if they are secret. & # 39;
In addition to being upset about her decision to speak out about the possible miscarriage, Hilaria's decision to post a revealing photo of herself while sharing such disturbing news was specifically targeted by critics.
However, the yoga guru emphasizes that there is no difference between this pregnancy photo and one of the others she shared while wearing her other children.
& # 39; I am known to take such a pregnancy photo & # 39; s, & # 39; she said. & # 39; Suppose these people look at a magazine while having their nails made and see a picture of me that the paparazzi made on the beach – this is what they would see.
& # 39; So I'm satisfied with what I'm showing.
& # 39; At the same time this is also my baby. This is my baby, my other baby & # 39; s are my baby & # 39; s, and I take this belly photo & # 39; s … and this baby deserves the same kind of love and attention and acceptance as the other, even if it doesn't linger for very long. & # 39;
The Today interview is not the first time that Hilaria refers back to her critics; on Friday, the mother of the four referred back to critics who made negative comments about her love sorrow over the possible miscarriage, slamming those who criticized her for choosing to openly share the devastating news.
& # 39; I don't care if you are a day pregnant or nine months pregnant, you start developing a connection as soon as you know you are pregnant, "she said in an Instagram Story video. & # 39; I am someone I know before you can take a positive test. I have had a million children and you just know that feeling.
& # 39; Everyone who has had this experience doesn't want you to be embarrassed if you read some of these comments that say: & # 39; Oh, it doesn't matter because it's the first trimester & # 39; or whatever.
The last clip of her story was a sweet video of her daughter Carmen bathing in the bath. & # 39; We have a nice long bath & # 39 ;, Hilaria said. & # 39; You know how to do a Friday night, don't you, Carmen? & # 39;
Her family: she already has a daughter Carmen Gabriela, five and three sons, Leonardo Ángel Charles, two, Rafael Thomas, three, and Romeo, 10 months, with Alec
Support: Her husband Alec re-placed his wife's original miscarriage picture on his own Instagram account, and praised her for being so kind & generous & # 39; was to share her story
& # 39; It matters. If it means something to you, it's important. OK, so don't be put off. & # 39;
In her Glamor essay, Hilaria explained that she had actually thought about what it might be like to talk about a miscarriage, saying: & # 39; Even before I was pregnant, I thought about what it would be like to have news like this to share.
& # 39; Having a miscarriage would hurt if I went through it silently and it would hurt if I lost the pregnancy to everyone, I realized. At least if I share my story, it can help me and other women who experience miscarriage to find support. & # 39;
She also admitted that she had always been afraid of losing a baby during pregnancy, and said that her fear of miscarriage was so great that she actually & # 39; Google the likelihood & # 39; would say she would suffer every day & # 39 ;.
Hilaria shocked fans on Thursday when she wrote on Instagram that she thought she & # 39; was probably experiencing a miscarriage & # 39 ;, a double surprise because she and her husband had not previously shared Alec that they were expecting.
& # 39; I want to share with you that I am probably experiencing a miscarriage & # 39 ;, wrote the yoga guru shortly before 10:00 on Thursday in an extensive Instagram subtitle. & # 39; I have always promised myself that if I became pregnant again, I would share the news with you early, even if that meant a public loss.
& # 39; I've always been so open with you about my family, fitness, pregnancies … and I don't want to keep this from you, just because it's not as positive and shiny as the rest. & # 39;
She further said: & # 39; I think it's important to show the truth … because it's my job to help people by being real and open. Furthermore, I have no shame or shame with this experience.
& # 39; I want to be part of the effort to normalize the miscarriage and remove the stigma. There is so much secrecy during the first trimester. This works for some, but personally I find it exhausting.
& # 39; I am nauseous, tired, my body is changing. And I have to pretend that everything goes well – and it really isn't. I don't want to pretend anymore. I hope you understand it. & # 39;
Family time: Hilaria later posted photos of two of her sons, the two-year-old Leonardo Ángel Charles and the three-year-old Rafael Thomas, on her story later on Thursday.
Family first: Hilaria also posted a photo of her youngest son Romeo
She then praised those closest to her for their kindness and support during such a difficult time, and wrote: & # 39; I am so blessed with my wonderful doctor, my dear friends, and my loving family …
& # 39; My husband and my four very healthy babies & # 39; s help me to keep it together and have the perspective of how really beautiful life is, even if it seems ugly from time to time. The happiness and gratitude that I feel I am the mother of my baby is wonderfully overwhelming and reassuring. & # 39;
& # 39; Please be kind in your comments. I feel a bit fragile and I need support. I hope that by sharing this, I can help raise awareness about this sensitive issue. & # 39;
For the most part, Hilaria has received a flood of support since she posted about her miscarriage on Thursday morning.
Her husband, in particular, said: & # 39; My wife is kind and generous in her support for other women … & # 39;
& # 39; You have all our love, always & # 39 ;, said Daphne Oz, while Loeffler Randall founder Jessie Randall, designer Badgley Mischka, and Caitlyn Jenner & # 39; s girlfriend Sophia Hutchins also commented within an hour. Other comments came from Rachael Ray, Jaime Alexander, Mario Lopez and Tammin Sursok.
Hilaria and Alec get married in 2012 and last summer Hilaria spoke during a performance on Today about the possibility that her family will get bigger.
& # 39; I have a daughter and then I have three boys. And my daughter is very sure she will have a sister, & she said.
"She does have a sister – she has Ireland, and Ireland is so wonderful and they have a great relationship," she continued, referring to Alec's 22-year-old model daughter with Kim Basinger.
& # 39; But there is something about a little sister that she really wants.
& # 39; I think it's possible. Not [for sure]. Alec thinks it is very possible. He comes from a large family, & she added.
The symptoms of a miscarriage seem to occur fairly suddenly. While Hilaria shared her post on Instagram just before 10am ET on Thursday morning, she enjoyed a nice evening out with her husband the night before.
Staying open: Hilaria was always quite open about sharing the details of each of her pregnancies, including her first with baby Carmen
Updates: she has placed a lot of photos in her underwear to give followers an honest look at how her body has changed
Health: the mother of the four has remained active and regularly exercises through her pregnancies
Memories: Her last pregnancy was with baby Romeo, whom she welcomed in May
She and Alec walked the red carpet at the FIT Annual Awards Gala, smiling for the cameras before entering the party. Hilaria didn't even show a hint of a bump in her black tuxedo dress, which she accepted with black heels and jewelry.
Wednesday was also Alec's 61st birthday.
Although admission to the miscarriage is certainly surprising, Hilaria has always been incredibly frank about her pregnancies and her changing body, and has regularly updated updates both in the run-up to each birth and in the months following the arrival of the baby & # 39; s.
In 2018, when she was still expecting Romeo, she showed a series of photos of baby bumps in which she showed how her figure was different during each of her four previous pregnancies.
She also posted postpartum underwear photos & # 39; s shortly after giving birth.
Just 12 days after welcoming Romeo, she shared a picture of herself smiling in a sexy black bra and underwear.
In the caption, she acknowledged that not everyone could look like her, but she managed to keep her figure by staying particularly active.
& # 39; Every body is different, but I believe in staying as active as possible, & # 39; she wrote. & # 39; There were so many moments that I didn't want to work this pregnancy out. Gaining is the most difficult challenge. I had to drag myself out and even do a little. & # 39;
She went on to say that she started training again, less than two weeks after the birth.
& # 39; Every birth is different and your doctor will be able to advise you when you can start & # 39 ;, she wrote.
& # 39; If you can, be patient with your body. You have experienced so much and made something so precious. Know that every day, motion by motion, you will regain your strength and feel great. & # 39;