Gabby Logan has admitted that her father’s battle with alcoholism left her questioning whether she was “good enough,” despite eventually accepting it wasn’t her fault.
During a performance on the Big Fish podcast with reality TV star Spencer Matthews, Logan opened up about her father, former Leeds and Tottenham footballer Terry Yorath, and his struggles with alcohol addiction, while also discussing the death of her younger brother Daniel.
In May 1992, Daniel suddenly collapsed and died of hypertrophic cardiomyopathy—a condition in which the heart thickens for no apparent reason—at the age of 15, while Logan was four years his senior at the time.
And the now-famous sports presenter admits that after her brother’s death, she was desperate to “speed everything up” and “achieve, achieve, achieve.”
“I didn’t think it was my fault, but I wondered when I looked back at my behavior and did everything I could to live this real carpe diem, do everything, achieve, achieve, achieve,” she said to Matthews.
Gabby Logan (left) has admitted that her father’s (right, pictured together in 1998) struggles with alcoholism left her wondering if she was ‘good enough’
Logan also discussed her brother Daniel Yorath, who died of hypertrophic cardiomyopathy in May 1992 when he was 15 and she was 19 (pictured together and with their sister Louise)
The sports presenter spoke candidly on both topics during an appearance on the Big Fish podcast with Spencer Matthews
So it wasn’t so much a feeling of guilt as a feeling that “oh I should have been the one” or something like that, not a survivor’s guilt in that sense, but more of a feeling that I was speeding everything up and had to get to it real quick because, gosh , you never know when it’s going to happen and when it’s going to end.
‘Because this was also the other thing, the natural order of things suddenly disappeared, that idea that suddenly everything can change.’
Daniel’s passing also took its toll on her grieving father, who later struggled with alcoholism after turning to booze to cope with his death.
Yorath’s addiction eventually spiraled out of control when, more than 12 years later, he pleaded guilty to driving under the influence of more than three times the limit, and to driving without due caution.
The ex-midfielder’s car was driving on a roundabout in Leeds and hit a pedestrian crossing the road before he was found to have 120 micrograms of alcohol in 100ml of breath – with a limit of 35 micrograms.
Logan, who has become one of the faces of BBC Sport, admits she initially questioned herself as her father struggled with the addiction.
Her father, Terry Yorath, struggled with alcohol addiction after Daniel’s passing
“As the child of someone who has consumed alcohol in that way, there is a period in your life where you question whether you are good enough,” she said.
“I remember hearing someone say on the radio that their father didn’t love them enough because they never got rid of their alcoholism. And I was so sad to hear that because I managed to get to a place where I knew it wasn’t me, it wasn’t my fault.
‘I couldn’t do anything. That has to come from the person himself.’
As well as a range of sports for the BBC, Logan has previously worked on ITV and Channel 5, while also working on BBC Radio 5 Live.
However, in her early years, the 50-year-old was also a talented gymnast, with the future TV star representing Wales at the 1990 Commonwealth Games. Logan’s sister, Louise, also competed for Team GB.
“I’m eleven months older than her,” she said. “So we’re classed as ‘Irish twins’ and she was very gifted, and although she was younger than me, she started earlier than me because I was playing tennis. I wanted to become a tennis player.
Logan has become one of the faces of BBC Sport in a successful presenting career, but she was also a talented gymnast in her early years.
“Then we moved to the country and when we went back to England where we lived, there were no tennis courts. I always talk about the fact that at the same time Tim Henman was lucky enough to be born in Oxfordshire, where he was near a tennis court, and I was in a town in Leeds that had no indoor tennis courts.
“I was so bored with nothing to do that I said I’d just go to the gym with her and see how I’m doing, and that’s kind of how it started by accident.
“So I think having a sister was really good for me because it gave me someone I wanted to beat and someone I wanted to get better at, and it was hard because I got selected for the Commonwealth Games and she didn’t. and that was the end for her. When she didn’t get it, she was crushed.”