A former prostitute sheds light on the trauma she endured during her two decades as a sex worker, saying she suffers from post-traumatic stress disorder after being raped, beaten and kidnapped over the years.
Ashley Clark Huffman, who is believed to be from the US, has spoken candidly about her struggles with sexual abuse, drug addiction, homelessness and incarceration in the dazzling videos posted to her TikTok page, @trashley_anonymous.
In her most popular clip, which has been viewed more than 15 million times, the 30-year-old mother of five exposed the “long-term effects” of 20 years of prostitution, including PTSD, nightmares, low sex drive and affection issues.
Candid: Ashley Clark Huffman, who is believed to be from the US, has candid about her trauma as a former prostitute in her eye-opening TikTok videos
Keeping it real: In her most popular clip, which has been viewed more than 15 million times, she exposes the ‘long-term effects’ of prostitution over 20 years
According to her other videos, Huffman suffered severe childhood trauma, including the death of her parents when she was a baby and sexual abuse by her older brothers.
She said she started prostitution when she was only 14 years old, shortly after her grandfather died and she moved in with her aunt.
Huffman recalled getting pregnant after her “first crush” raped her and gave the baby up for adoption, thinking it was the best thing for him. She said her son is now “in county jail on charges of murder” ahead of his 20th birthday.
She was filled with self-loathing at the time and thinks she may have been trying to fill a void in her life when she started asking about “older, disgusting men” she met on AOL chat rooms.
The TikToker explained that she would have her aunt dropped off at the cinema or mall and the men would meet her there. She would leave with them and be back by the time her aunt came to pick her up.
“Nobody knew what I was doing—absolutely nobody,” she insisted.
Honest: The 30-year-old mother of five has detailed her struggles with sexual abuse, drug addiction, homelessness and incarceration while criticizing critics
Hard life: Huffman explained that she turned to prostitution when she was just 14 years old and didn’t stop until she got out of prison in 2018
In another popular video, she listed all the horrific things that had happened to her during her time as a prostitute, saying that she had been “kidnapped and beaten”, “had several STDs” and suffered “countless rapes”.
Huffman admitted in December 2018 that it was easier for her to quit drugs than prostitution, saying they were “two completely different things.”
She explained that she was on methadone when she first stopped taking drugs, and now she takes Suboxone, a prescription drug used to treat opioid addiction.
“So I can get up every morning and take a couple of Suboxone f**king tablets and be all right,” she said. ‘But with prostitution you don’t have to take a magic pill. Like literally f**ks with mental.
“I’ll literally sleep, sleep to death and I’d just start screaming. Like sometimes my daughter can hear me all the way upstairs. And I don’t even know I’m fucking doing it.’
Problems: Nearly three years later, mom said she still has PTSD, nightmares, low sex drive, and issues with being clingy
Going viral: In another popular video, she listed all the horrific things that happened to her during her time as a sex worker
Painful memories: Huffman said she was ‘kidnapped and beaten’, ‘had multiple STDs’ and suffered ‘countless rapes’ during her time as a prostitute
Huffman also admitted her own misdeeds, saying she had “robbed so many customers,” “blackmailed married men,” and even “stabbed” someone when she was a prostitute.
She explained in a follow-up video that she met the man on the street and went to his apartment with him. When he started taking drugs and “went crazy,” she tried to leave, but he pushed her onto the bed.
According to Huffman, they got into a physical altercation and when he took off his belt and grabbed her, she reached for the knife she had in her pocket and stabbed him before walking away.
In addition to her son who has been put up for adoption, she has four other children, a 15-year-old daughter and three younger children whom her ex-husband has custody of.
Huffman, who now lives with her wife and oldest daughter, explained that he was given full custody of their children as she was still incarcerated when their divorce was finalized in March 2018.
Not holding back: Huffman also admitted her own misdeeds, saying she “robbed so many customers,” “blackmailed married men” and even “stabbed” someone
Life changes: Huffman admitted it was hard not to earn ‘$1,000 for 30 minutes’ sex work after she quit prostitution
She said she quit drugs and prostitution months later and admitted in the first year that it was hard not to make “$1,000 for 30 minutes” of sex work. She is now in a custody battle with her ex, who reportedly kept her youngest three children — who are nine, eight and six — away from her for months.
“It literally sucked the life out of me,” she said of her time as a prostitute. “It made me a hateful, deceitful, disgusting, lifeless person. I have been raped countless times. Like I’ve literally lost count. I was literally kidnapped and beaten at one point.
“I had to defend myself, and that’s how the stabbing happened. Even after I stopped everything… I still struggle today. Not with the drugs, but with the prostitution. I struggle with PTSD, nightmares. I literally scream in my sleep.’
Reactions to her brutally honest posts have been mixed, with some quickly shaming the mother for her mistakes. However, others were more sympathetic and praised her for sharing her story.
“I wish you all the love and happiness this world has to offer,” wrote one TikTok user, while another added, “You are not your trauma, your past choices, or the expectations of others. You’re fierce and beautiful and I’m behind you.’