Former porn star who filmed in a hijab reveals that she struggled with low self-esteem

A former porn star who received death threats for filming in a hijab has said that struggling with her weight as a child and low self-esteem led her to join the adult film industry.

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Before becoming one of the most famous faces in porn, Mia Khalifa [26] was just like any other 20-year-old American girl. Native Lebanon emigrated to the US as a child and studied history at the University of Texas.

During a recent interview with Stephen Sackur about BBC & # 39; s HARDtalk, she was asked to explain what led her to shine in adult movies that were just outside the university after being approached by a man on the street.

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Her story: former porn star Mia Khalifa, 26, opened her experience in the adult film industry during her recent interview with Stephen Sackur on BBC & # 39; s HARDtalk

Her story: former porn star Mia Khalifa, 26, opened her experience in the adult film industry during her recent interview with Stephen Sackur on BBC & # 39; s HARDtalk

Looking back, the Lebanon-born said she had trouble growing up with her weight, and her self-esteem problems led her to work as an adult movie star

Looking back, the Lebanon-born said she had trouble growing up with her weight, and her self-esteem problems led her to work as an adult movie star

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Looking back, the Lebanon-born said she had trouble growing up with her weight, and her self-esteem problems led her to work as an adult movie star

& # 39; I don't think low self-esteem discriminates, & # 39; she said. & # 39; It doesn't matter if you come from a great family or from a not-so-great background.

Mia explained that her self-esteem problems started at a young age and part of her interest in porn came from wanting to feel attractive.

& # 39; I struggled with weight throughout my childhood. I never felt attractive or worthy of male attention, & she recalled. & # 39; Suddenly, in my first year at university, I am starting to lose all this weight by making small changes. & # 39;

Mia lost about 50 pounds, but felt insecure about her breasts, what the & # 39; first things to go & # 39; when she lost weight.

The graduate opted for breast augmentation and then she said that she was starting to get & # 39; a lot of attention from men & # 39; she wasn't used to.

Part of her feared that if she did not do what men asked or expected of her, attention would disappear.

Hard to handle: Mia said she never felt attractive & # 39; but after losing 50 pounds and having a breast enlargement, she started to get a lot of male attention
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Hard to handle: Mia said she never felt attractive & # 39; but after losing 50 pounds and having a breast enlargement, she started to get a lot of male attention

Hard to handle: Mia said she never felt attractive & # 39; but after losing 50 pounds and having a breast enlargement, she started to get a lot of male attention

Hard to handle: Mia said she never felt attractive & # 39; but after losing 50 pounds and having a breast enlargement, she started to get a lot of male attention

Hard to handle: Mia said she never felt attractive & # 39; but after losing 50 pounds and having a breast enlargement, she started to get a lot of male attention

& # 39; After feeling what it was like, that validation and compliments for the first time, I didn't want it to go away & she said.

Mia was in Miami when a man approached her because she became a member of the adult film industry, but she explained that he did not immediately know what he was really asking for.

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& # 39; It wasn't just: & # 39; Hey, do you want to come and do porn? & # 39 ;, she remembered. & # 39; It was more: "Oh, you are beautiful. Do you want to model? Oh, you know, you have a great body, I think you would be great in nude modeling." Things like that. & # 39;

She said the studio & # 39; very respectable & # 39; and at a & # 39; beautiful location & # 39 ;. It was clean, the people were friendly and the booths of the employees were decorated with family photos. There was nothing that made her feel uncomfortable.

& # 39; I don't really see myself as a victim. I don't like that word, & she said. & # 39; I made my own decisions, even though they were terrible decisions. I think something has to change in the way women are approached. & # 39;

Flattered: Mia recently graduated from college and lived in Miami when a man approached her on the street about & # 39; modeling & # 39; before he revealed that he actually worked in adult films

Flattered: Mia recently graduated from college and lived in Miami when a man approached her on the street about & # 39; modeling & # 39; before he revealed that he actually worked in adult films

Flattered: Mia recently graduated from college and lived in Miami when a man approached her on the street about & # 39; modeling & # 39; before he revealed that he actually worked in adult films

Unforgettable: she said she never wanted to be famous and thought it was her & # 39; dirty little secret & # 39; would be, but it ended in her face
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Unforgettable: she said she never wanted to be famous and thought it was her & # 39; dirty little secret & # 39; would be, but it ended in her face

Unforgettable: she said she never wanted to be famous and thought it was her & # 39; dirty little secret & # 39; would be, but it ended in her face

Mia stressed that producers can't force movie stars to do a sexual act they don't want to do, but she admitted they & # 39; say very little & # 39; during filming when it came to the theme and location.

She explained that she doesn't even really remember what it was like to film sexual acts because her adrenaline was so high back then.

& # 39; I even shocked myself, & # 39; she said about the decision that not only changed her life but also destroyed her relationship with her family.

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& # 39; They reject me when they found out. I felt completely alienated not just by the world, but by my family and the people around me, & she said. & # 39; Especially after I stopped when I was alone, even though I left. And I just realized that some mistakes cannot be forgiven. But time heals all wounds and things are getting better now. & # 39;

When asked if she had problems filming in a hijab, Mia said she had told the producers that they would kill her, but they just laughed.

Scary: Mia is best known for performing sexual acts while wearing a hijab, a scene that made her known and led to death threats from ISIS

Scary: Mia is best known for performing sexual acts while wearing a hijab, a scene that made her known and led to death threats from ISIS

Scary: Mia is best known for performing sexual acts while wearing a hijab, a scene that made her known and led to death threats from ISIS

Bullyed: When asked if she had trouble filming in a hijab, Mia said she had told the producers that they would kill her, but they just laughed

Bullyed: When asked if she had trouble filming in a hijab, Mia said she had told the producers that they would kill her, but they just laughed

Bullyed: When asked if she had trouble filming in a hijab, Mia said she had told the producers that they would kill her, but they just laughed

Although it was ultimately her choice to film it, she admitted that she felt too nervous to say she was not willing to do it, especially after the reaction she received when she expressed her concerns.

& # 39; If there are four white male producers in the room and you say something like that to them and they all just laugh, I mean, it's pretty devastating, & # 39; she said. & # 39; You no longer want to talk about it and say anything else. & # 39;

Mia said the video that took her to viral starry shattered her world & # 39 ;. She never intended to be a famous porn star, far from it.

& # 39; The reason I thought it was okay to do porn was because I thought nobody would ever find out & # 39 ;, she said. & # 39; There are millions of girls filming themselves while having sex and doing things like that and nobody knows their name. Nobody knows who they are. Nobody recognizes them.

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& # 39; I wanted to do it as my dirty little secret, but it blew up in my face. & # 39;

Unforgettable: Mia has only worked in the porn industry for three months, but she is still one of the most famous faces in adult entertainment

Unforgettable: Mia has only worked in the porn industry for three months, but she is still one of the most famous faces in adult entertainment

Unforgettable: Mia has only worked in the porn industry for three months, but she is still one of the most famous faces in adult entertainment

Keep it real: Mia said she takes 100 percent responsibility for what happened to her, although she admitted she & # 39; terrible & # 39; made decisions

Keep it real: Mia said she takes 100 percent responsibility for what happened to her, although she admitted she & # 39; terrible & # 39; made decisions

Keep it real: Mia said she takes 100 percent responsibility for what happened to her, although she admitted she & # 39; terrible & # 39; made decisions

Hard to handle: Mia has gone from a porn star to a social media influencer. She has more than 16.7 million Instagram followers
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Hard to handle: Mia has gone from a porn star to a social media influencer. She has more than 16.7 million Instagram followers

Hard to handle: Mia has gone from a porn star to a social media influencer. She has more than 16.7 million Instagram followers

Mia said the recoil was quick. She remembered that ISIS sympathizers threatened her with Photoshopping her face on someone who was beheaded. They hacked her Instagram account and posted propaganda.

After someone shared a screenshot of a Google Maps with the location of her apartment, she moved.

A month after the debut of the hijab video, Mia resigned from porn. She worked in adult entertainment for only three months before leaving the industry in 2015, but she is still one of the biggest names – and most wanted stars – in the business.

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Although she made millions of dollars for BangBros, the company with which she was signed, and the adult porn movie site Pornhub, she only received a total of $ 12,000 for the 12 videos she played during her short career.

According to Pornyub, she was number two last year for the most wanted stars, just behind Stormy Daniels Vice. She was also the most wanted star on rival website xHamster for adults in 2016 and 2017.

What do you say? Mia revealed on Twitter that she only earned $ 12,000 in total for the 12 films in which she played. She does not receive residues, despite having earned millions of other companies

What do you say? Mia revealed on Twitter that she only earned $ 12,000 in total for the 12 films in which she played. She does not receive residues, despite having earned millions of other companies

What do you say? Mia revealed on Twitter that she only earned $ 12,000 in total for the 12 films in which she played. She does not receive residues, despite having earned millions of other companies

Still struggling: Mia said she still has PTSD when she's out in public. When people stare at her, she feels like they can look through her clothes

Still struggling: Mia said she still has PTSD when she's out in public. When people stare at her, she feels like they can look through her clothes

Still struggling: Mia said she still has PTSD when she's out in public. When people stare at her, she feels like they can look through her clothes

Mia, who sees no remnants of her work, believes it is a common misconception that she is still making money with her videos.

& # 39; People think I make millions of porn. Not true at all. I earned a TOTAL of around $ 12,000 in the industry and never saw a penny again. Having trouble finding a normal job after stopping porn was … scary, & tweeted earlier this month.

The former adult film star explained during her appearance on HARDtalk that it was & # 39; very difficult & # 39; was for her until today after her fame.

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& # 39; I don't think it has been difficult for me until now, because it was hard to find a man. It was hard to find someone who was not interested in it, & she admitted.

Mia got engaged to her fiancée Robert Sandberg earlier this year, but she said she still feels PTSD when she's out in public.

& # 39; The looks that I get, I have the feeling that people can see through my clothing and that deeply embarrasses me, & # 39; she admitted. & # 39; It gives me the feeling that I have lost the right to privacy, which I did because I have been removed from a Google search. & # 39;

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