Cat Marnell has infamously documented her drug-infested exploits over the course of her career, but the beauty writer who has become a bestselling author is happy to report that she has been ‘Adderall-free’ for two years.
The 37-year-old was still abusing the prescription drug when she published her memoir on addiction in 2017, How to Murder Your Life. In the book, she tells how becoming addicted to pills changed her life and took her two jobs, resulting in multiple stints in rehabilitation.
Marnell recorded it Instagram on Wednesday to celebrate her quit Adderall’s two-year anniversary as she shares a glamorous photo of herself with a royal blue sweetheart strapless.
Birthday: Cat Marnell took to Instagram on Tuesday to share a glamorous photo of herself in New York City, proving she’s been ‘Adderall-free’ for two years
“Two years Adderall-free today,” she wrote, “#MoreThanAnAddict #neveragain.”
The image, which shows a glowing cat posing in front of a clothes rack, appears to have been taken in her apartment. When posting the snapshot, she tagged Soho, a trendy neighborhood in New York City.
In her book, Marnell explained her addiction started when she was 15 years old and attended the chic Lawrence Academy boarding school in Groton, Massachusetts. Her father, a psychiatrist married to a psychotherapist, gave her a prescription for Ritalin.
She soon started crushing the pills to sniff them instead of swallowing them. A few years later, Marnell became addicted to cocaine and heroin.
Her editing career started at Lucky Magazine, where she started as an assistant before being promoted to associate editor. By this time, she was struggling with insomnia and self-mutilation, as well as binge eating and cleansing.
Looking back: The writer, pictured in 2012, said her addiction to pills started when she was 15 years old after her psychiatrist’s father gave her a prescription for Ritalin
Problem: Marnell later became addicted to cocaine and heroin, documenting her drug-crazed exploits and sharing photos of the drugs and pill bottles she had in her apartment
Looking back: This photo of Marnell was taken after she lost her mind in her ‘rat apartment’ in 2007 and smeared beauty products all over her face
Marnell, who said she looked like a “corpse bride,” went to rehab for six weeks in Lucky. After four years in 2010, she finally quit her job.
“My ambition and my addiction had played out like two boxers in a ring for years. My ambition was bloodied ‘, she wrote in her memoir.
Her erratic lifestyle ultimately left her unable to perform regular tasks such as showering.
“I took a bath every morning because I was too weak to take a shower; I wrote check checks in highlighter; I had three prescribing psychiatrists and no OB-GYNs or dentists; I held such crazy hours that I never knew whether to apply day cream or night cream; and I never called my grandma, “Marnell explained in her book.
Jane Pratt, the founder of Sassy and Jane magazines, hired Marnell in 2011 for her new website, XoJane.
Hard to Handle: The beauty writer’s drug addiction cost her two jobs and resulted in multiple stints in rehabilitation
Breakdown: Marnell wrote about her drug abuse as an emerging beauty writer in her 2017 memoir How to Murder Your Life, bottoming out after it was published
There, the beauty writer sniffed a series of jasmine-scented bath salts on camera – a riff on the popularity of psychoactive bath salts at the time.
Marnell left XoJane in 2012 after the website’s publishers sent her to a rehab clinic.
“I always use drugs,” she said Page six at that moment. “Look, I couldn’t pass deadlines at a computer at night when I was looking for shooting stars on the roof of Le Bain and smoking angel dust with my friends and writing a book, and that’s what I’m doing next.”
Marnell wrote about her substance abuse for Vice this summer and wrote a farewell story on the website in January 2013.
That year, she also closed a book deal, which involved an advance of $ 500,000. It took her three years, two rehabilitation periods and an overdose of heroin to finish the book, which later became a New York Times Bestseller.
“There’s a bottle of Adderall next to me as I write this. It has always been my “mostly companion,” as Eloise would say, “she wrote in the postscript of her book.
Marnell was about to start promoting her book one night in 2017 when she burned all her hair down and flooded her Chinatown apartment while she was high on Adderall.
Travel: Marnell fled to Europe and traveled two years after burning all her hair and flooding her Chinatown apartment while high on Adderall
Going further: she weaned herself from Adderall’s journey and stopped taking medicines when she shared this photo of herself last September in honor of her 37th birthday
“It was complete beauty in Chernobyl,” she said New York Times. “Everything I had done all my life caught up with me. Suddenly the inside matched the outside. ‘
A few months later, she fled to Europe trying to run away from her problems, and it eventually worked for her. It was during the journey that she began to self-taper off Adderall after two decades of misuse of the ADD medication.
Marnell traded drugs for exercise, and after two years of traveling to more than 60 countries, she returned to her mother’s home outside of Washington.
She opened up about the journey in her audiobook Self-Tanner for the Soul: How I Ran Away to Europe and Found My Inner Glow (When Life Got Dark), which was released in 2019.
“She’s very different now,” her mother, Stacey Marnell, told the New York Times in October.
Changed: Marnell has traded drugs for exercise, and while not quite sober, she insists she’s healthier than ever and no longer using illegal drugs
‘End of an Age’: Marnell appeared on the Dopey Podcast in October, saying the ‘last’ interview was about drugs and addiction
“I knew her in all the dark days of her book when someone who couldn’t stick to a routine couldn’t concentrate,” she added. “She is so focused now. At least it is a bit annoying, because her day is about a movement class that she does on the floor of my living room. ‘
To talk with Page six in the fall of 2019, Marnell said her health is “too good” and exercise is the “most important” thing in her life.
“I’m not completely sober, but listen – all these healthy trendy chicks micro-dosing and smoking weed in LA use more drugs than I do!” she said.
“Adderall might as well have been arsenic – at least for my sanity. I haven’t taken blacksmiths from Adderall in two years. ‘
The Reformed party girl noted that she was still taking focus medications, but she insisted it was regulated and had no negative impact on her life.
“I’m taking another amphetamine now, in a very controlled dose that doesn’t make me high or affect my sleep,” she explained. “I don’t do a doctor’s shop or a mess. I don’t touch illegal drugs and I rarely get drunk.
“You must protect your energy and your brain and your mind as if they were precious jewels.”