A former Dance Moms star has talked about her traumatic experience in the hit reality TV series, revealing how the bullying and racism she faced during her filming caused her PTSD.
Camryn Bridges, now 17 years old from St. Louis, Missouri, revealed in a recent YouTube video that she had to receive therapy after the reality TV show, which she claims was the victim of manipulative producers and bullying.
In the clip, Camryn describes the treatment she received at the age of 14 from her co-stars – who isolated her – and the critical, derogatory, and even racist remarks from lead choreographer Abby Lee Miller, as well as the producers of manipulative behavior who were willing to pamper yourself with the storylines they wanted.
Truth: in a much-watched video on YouTube, Camryn Bridges broke her silence in the photo about her treatment as a 14-year-old in Lifetime reality show Dance Moms
Support: Camryn appeared in the show with her mother Camille, pictured together in 2017, and she says the experience made them both suffer from anxiety and PTSD
Bullying: in her YouTube video, Camryn describes the way choreographer and dance instructor Abby Lee Miller (photo) distinguished her from the other girls in the team
Camryn first appeared in the Lifetime reality show during an audition in season four, but it wasn't until season seven, which began in 2016, that she played a prominent role after being invited to join the elite team.
& # 39; People are probably asking me to make this video since the show ended. I never wanted to do it; maybe PTSD, & she said at the start of her popular video, which has been viewed 633,000 times so far.
& # 39; I used to be very sad and uncomfortable talking about it, I didn't really want to talk about it. I was depressed after I came back from California, & she added.
Camryn explained that she had a & # 39; five out of 10 & # 39; would give.
& # 39; When I say that, people get angry and tell me to be grateful for the opportunity, & # 39; she said. & # 39; Don't say how I should feel.
& # 39; It was very positive that I met choreographers and was in LA and got a platform in general (but) I literally had to go to therapy after that mess. & # 39;
Camryn explained that she & # 39; always looked like a loser & # 39; in the show.
She added that both she and her mother Camille were so drenched in fear because their words were constantly being edited by producers.
& # 39; They would twist me and my mother's words to the point where my mother got so skinny in that show because her fear was so bad she wouldn't eat and it made her sick.
& # 39; Nobody cared, literally nobody. That is the honest truth of God that nobody cares about us. & # 39;
Flashback: Camryn, now 17, with co-star and then-friend Brynn Rumfallo, with whom she eventually had a huge fight in season seven of Dance Moms
Dancer: The resident of St. Louis, Missouri, is still dancing, and is now represented by a national talent group
Self-travel: Camryn, pictured, said she should go to therapy after the show and remind herself of her value
From the middle of the season things started to go downhill.
& # 39; When we arrived in Pittsburgh for a few weeks, the drama went on that I didn't want to be there. All I said was that I missed home and that I missed my first home. & # 39;
Although she claims that she did not explicitly say she did not want to be there & # 39 ;, Camryn said the scenario seemed to be like she was ungrateful.
& # 39; It was my dream to be (in the show) I literally sacrificed everything to be there. I was so happy to dance there. & # 39;
Although she had insisted on making it clear that she was happy to be part of the experience, she said her claims fell on deaf ears, revealing that Abby even gave her a solo and said it was inspired. because you didn't want to be here & # 39; & # 39;
& # 39; At that moment I thought, "Okay, don't they want me here or not?" Because I didn't say that … it just broke me, & Camryn explained.
& # 39; All mothers are worried when I said: & # 39; I never said that & # 39 ;, all mothers said: & # 39; Your child calls our children liars. & # 39;
& # 39; That was my breaking point, a point where I thought I probably wanted to go home. & # 39;
Co-stars: Camryn, in Burgundy, with Dance Moms co-stars (L-R) Chloé Lukasiak, Nia Sioux, Kalani Hilliker and Kendall Vertes
Showtime: Camryn on season seven of Dance Moms with co-star Kendall Vertes
At this stage she also experienced isolation from the cast – who had all been together in previous seasons, while she was the newcomer.
& # 39; If we were in a hotel for a competition, they would all go out and I would not be invited, so it was just me and my mother for a long time. Go to the mall, eat out. & # 39;
& # 39; By the end we were over it, but for three weeks in the middle I wasn't even talking, I was afraid to say something that would change. & # 39;
Leader: Camryn said the show's instructor and choreographer made racist comments about the color of her feet
Camryn explained that no one apologized for how she had been treated, but instead she was forced to go to the camera and apologize.
& # 39; At the time I was just this little girl who didn't stand up for herself, I never said: & # 39; That was a mess what you did. & # 39;
Abby Lee Miller is notoriously hard against the dancers of the show and Camryn is still faltering about how she was treated on camera.
& # 39; Abby was nice to me without a camera, but she wouldn't give me the time of day on the camera, or it would always be something negative, & # 39; Camryn explained. & # 39; (She would say), "You suck, you are terrible, your feet are absolutely terrible."
One time she told me my feet looked weird because the top of my feet was brown and the bottom was white and none of the other people were like that, and it looked weird on the marley. I kind of said, "I'm sorry I'm black."
& # 39; Outside the camera, she is usually not that bad. She didn't treat me the same way she treated the other girls, she'd known them for a long time, & Camryn added.
Although she had been good friends with Brynn Rumfallo during the show, they had a visible drop on the series, drawing Camryn even further; talking about the incident, she called the experience & # 39; depressing & # 39 ;.
Performer: Dancer Camryn performs in 2017
Producers: Camryn, pictured left in 2016, said her mother Camille was instructed to fight with other mothers in the show & # 39; otherwise she would not be paid
Camryn claims that this fight was primarily the result of producers, and blamed mother Kira of co-star Kalani for her involvement.
& # 39; We were once in a sleepover, I think (Brynn) heard something, but I can't remember saying it. She told her mother and the producers found out. Brynn's mother called Kira on camera, then Kira gets a message and says everything I said out loud on camera. & # 39;
Talented: Camryn, a talented dancer, pictured in 2016 before she went to the show
Camryn explained that this was a breaking point for her mother and her, because Kira was routinely mean to the then 14-year-old Camryn.
& # 39; My mother went to Kira. I screamed and cried in Kira & # 39; s face and said to her: & # 39; You think you are so much better than everyone else. & # 39;
& # 39; I was done in a minute. I left, I don't know why she did that to me, she never liked me. & # 39;
& # 39; I'm not the kind of kid who fights with an adult, that's just rude, but she put me down week after week. & # 39;
& # 39; I thought, maybe when she hears how hurt I am and how I feel about it, she might stop – and she did. & # 39;
In the meantime, her relationship with Brynn had been ruined.
& # 39; I told Brynn that I trusted her and asked her why she would do that. She made a screenshot and posted it on Instagram so everyone could see me swearing. & # 39;
Shortly thereafter, she discovered that the dance group she was a member of with the other stars, The Irreplaceables, went on tour without her.
& # 39; I had to discover that you were going to tour on social media without me. I was like dang, you know, that's kind of confused. I was upset, & she said.
Camryn explained that the show, now in the ninth season, contains no script, but & # 39; heavily produced and edited & # 39 ;.
& # 39; I was so & # 39; n innocent child, I didn't know what to do, & # 39; she said. & # 39; I never spoke because of my friggin & # 39; fear that developed there. & # 39;
PTSD: Camryn, pictured, said it took her so long to make the video explaining what happened in the show as a result of & # 39; PTSD & # 39;
Mom: Camryn and Camille both experienced fear in the reality TV show
& # 39; My mother said: & # 39; My mental health is now waste. & # 39; She would just sit there and say nothing so that it didn't get distorted. & # 39;
& # 39; The producers were like Camille: & # 39; If you do not talk and do not fight, you will not receive a (pay) check this week. & # 39;
Now: Camryn, pictured, divides her time between St. Louis and Los Angeles
& # 39; The producers were sometimes mean, they were the biggest instigators ever … who (the mothers) liquidated. & # 39;
& # 39; They can edit everything, they can edit what you say, wherever you are, they can make everything look the way they want. & # 39;
She continued: & # 39; It was a lot to deal with. I now have a lot more confidence and don't assume someone's bs, I'm just a different person now. & # 39;
Ther Therapy, it helped, but it is definitely a self-journey. You just do things you love and remind yourself why you do what you do and remind yourself that you are enough, & she concluded.
Hundreds of people contacted Camryn on social media after revealing her experience.
& # 39; I hate that they played you like you weren't one of the best dancers in the show. you earned more screen time & dancing, & said an Instagram user.
On YouTube, a user said: & # 39; So the mothers are paid to cause drama? No wonder Kira, Christie and Kelly (other mothers in the show) were the way they were. I knew it was impossible that they could be 24/7 out of 10. I bet their checks were thick. & # 39;
Another said: & # 39; I felt really bad for Camryn when they were in Pittsburgh. I didn't believe Camryn for a second saying she didn't want to be there. Just because you say you miss home or your friends and family miss home doesn't mean that she didn't want to be there. The mothers made an innocent remark and remained out of proportion. & # 39;
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