& # 39; I was in therapy and felt really guilty about it & # 39 ;: Emma Watson says she didn't feel worthy of a star and admits that & # 39; bizarre & # 39; youth fame hair has & # 39; disconnected & # 39; from her own family
Emma Watson admits that she felt fame unworthy in the years after her casting as Hermione Granger in the Harry Potter movie franchise.
The actress was only nine years old when she was cast as Hogwarts student Hermione in the large-scale adaptation of the hugely successful series of books by author J.K Rowling.
Picked from a set-up in her school gymnastics at Dragon School in Oxford, Emma quickly became a household name as Potter & # 39; s best friend in eight blockbuster movies.
Opening: Emma Watson admits that she felt unworthy in the years following her casting as Hermione Granger in the Harry Potter movie franchise
But her lack of enthusiasm for the inevitable control that followed her immediate fame prompted her to ask whether she was the right choice for the role or not.
Speaking with activist Paris Read during an interview British Vogue, she said: I have been in therapy and felt really guilty about it. I am like why I would have enjoyed someone else and wanted this aspect more than I did.
& # 39; And I have struggled a lot with the blame for that. I love it, I should enjoy it much more, I should be more excited and I really have a hard time. & # 39;
Candid: in a conversation with Paris Read to British Vogue, the actress admitted that she sought help from a therapist to help deal with her feelings of guilt after becoming known in the Potter franchise
She added: & # 39; I was nine years old and I was literally selected from a line-up in my school gym that wasn't even a drama school and got the first part for which I ever did an audition, and it's so bizarre and extraterrestrial what happened to me. & # 39;
Read all about it: see the full feature in the December issue of British Vogue available via digital download and kiosks on Friday, November 8
While Potter radically changed the life of the young actress, Emma says it was her dedicated family – parents Jacqueline Luesby and Chris Watson – who helped her stay grounded while she was overwhelmed by her growing fame.
& # 39; Part of what helped me find peace is that there were times when it became so big that I almost got dizzy and felt it became so big that I felt I was not connected, and part of the peace in myself remembers my identity, & # 39; she explained.
& # 39; I am someone's daughter. I am my mother's daughter, I am my father's daughter, I am a sister. I belong to a family. I come from a place, I have roots.
"There is a very large existence and identity that I have really important and weighted and solid, that has nothing to do with that."
Her immediate recognition as Hermione, however, threatened to drive a wedge between her and her loved ones.
& # 39; I had to ask, "Am I still your daughter?" Because it sometimes felt so strange, it sometimes became so big, & she said.
Old times: Emma was picked at the age of nine from an arrangement in her school gymnastics and soon became a household name as Potter's best friend in eight blockbuster movies
The actress – who turns 30 in April – also spoke about her fears of reaching the milestone and the pressure to live a perfect life.
& # 39; I was like: "Why is everyone so concerned about turning 30? This is not a problem", reduced to 29, and I am like "Oh my God, I feel so stressed and anxious" , & # 39; Emma said.
& # 39; And I realize it is because suddenly this bl ** dy inflow of subliminal messages is around. If you haven't built a house, if you don't have a husband, if you don't have a baby, and you turn 30 and you're not in an incredibly safe, stable place in your career, or you're still figuring things out … there's just an incredible amount of fear. & # 39;
See the full feature in the December issue of British Vogue available via digital download and newsstands on Friday, November 8.
Exciting: Emma played Hermione together with Harry Radter by Daniel Radcliffe and Ron Weasley by Rupert Grint in eight blockbuster films