Rugby star Danny Cipriani revealed that he once tried to buy a gun to kill himself in a video on Instagram after the death of ex-girlfriend Caroline Flack.
Cipriani, 32, opened his own struggles in a heartbreaking 18-minute video that was posted on his Instagram account to his 211,000 followers.
The former English player revealed that for the past three to four months he had spoken with Mrs. Flack, who had committed suicide during the weekend.
He said the former Love Island host tried to contact Cipriani last Friday night, just hours before she tragically took her own life.
Danny Cipriani (photo) opens his own struggles in a heartbreaking 18-minute video posted on his Instagram account to his 211,000 followers
Cipriani was unable to accept the call or respond to her message because he was playing against Gloucester against Exeter in the Gallagher Premiership.
In the video, the former English superstar revealed that he was experiencing a ‘severe depression’ at the age of 22 and considering committing suicide.
He said: ‘I met a man who was in a night club, he was finally around.
“I knew he was a bad man, was present and tried to find his way in whatever he did. I decided at this point that it was time to take my own life and I tried to buy a gun from him. And I withdrew. Then I tried to buy it again, but I withdrew.
“This lasted two months. I could not do it. Because I had a fight. “
The former superstar of England revealed that he had spoken with Mrs. Flack for the past three to four months, who committed suicide over the weekend.
Shockingly, the ex-Love Island host tried to contact Cipriani last Friday night, just hours before she tragically took her own life in her apartment in North London
Cipriani said he felt “safe” and shared everything with Mrs. Flack, claiming “it was ultimately embarrassment and shame that killed her.”
As he urged the audience to be “friendly,” Cipriani fought back the tears.
He said: “Someone I loved very much as a person and someone I am very close to has decided to take her own life, as everyone knows.
“I have spoken to her for the past three or four months. We have always been in contact since we were together, because we were not.
“It has always been a loving friendship.
“I was so vulnerable with her at the time when we first met, and I told her everything about me because I felt safe with her.
“I told her all the things that I was embarrassed and embarrassed about.
“And she made me feel good.
“And in the end it was the shame and the shame that killed her.
“So I now tell everyone what my most embarrassing and embarrassing moments are, because I know she knew I had the power to do this.
“We had talked about how things should change.
“I didn’t know it would take this.”
An emotional Cipriani then continued: ‘When I was 22, I experienced a major depression. I was visiting a psychiatrist.
“I met a man who was in this night club. I knew he was a bad man.
“I decided at that time that it was time to take my own life, and I tried to buy a gun from him. And I pulled out.
“This took about two months and I couldn’t. I had a fight with me. “
“That was something I went through and I had to bear that.”
He then said: “They [Ms Flack] knew everything about me.
“The reason I say this is because shame and shame aren’t something that you should let this do.
“It’s how we treat people and take care of everyone, because to a certain extent everyone is ashamed and ashamed.
“Whatever it is, we are friendly, we try to be gentle.”
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