Chynna Phillips has opened up about her broken relationship with her addict father and revealed how a sudden confession from him the night before she married Billy Baldwin left her in tears.
Singer Wilson Phillips, 56, daughter of The Mamas And Papas frontman John Phillips, detailed in a video the candid conversation she had with her father before he walked her down the aisle in front of 300 guests. on her YouTube channel.
She opened up about how her father ‘missed her entire childhood’ and how she was abandoned by him in a new clip titled ‘The nightmare of my wedding night‘ which was published on Valentine’s Day and filmed on his birthday.
The singer, whose mother was the second wife of John and The Mamas And Papas frontwoman Michelle Phillips, married Alec Baldwin’s brother Billy in 1995, and the couple recently spoke about how their Christian faith had caused a ” breakup” in your marriage.
In a new YouTube video, Chynna Phillips opened up to her friend Dr. Robyn Westbrook about her broken relationship with her father, The Mamas And Papas frontman John Phillips.
She confessed that she and her father (who left together in 1991) had a “really intense conversation” on the eve of her wedding to Billy Baldwin (just in 1995) that left her “crying” and “numb.”
“The night before (my wedding) I had had a very intense conversation with my father… we talked about things that were quite momentous and a lot of things had come to the surface and my father was having a lot of feelings and “Of course, that made me have a lot of feelings,” she recalled to her old friend, Dr. Robyn Westbrook.
‘I remember I was up all night crying and (felt) numb too, I was crying and then I was stoic again and then I was crying and then I was stoic again, and it was because my father had just revealed some really important information to me and I felt surprised by it.’
Chynna, who did not elaborate on the specifics of their conversation, turned to the camera and admitted that it sounded “horrible” that her own father would do that on the eve of her wedding, but she “didn’t mean to do it.” that.’
“It was more like it just evolved in our conversation…” he continued before Robyn expressed her thoughts, saying that maybe it was “a part of him that wanted… (to) confess and maybe he felt bad about it.” some of the decisions and choices I had made as your father in your life.’
Chynna nodded and added, “And I don’t think it was any coincidence that he walked me down the aisle with my mom, and I think he felt like he needed to confess before he walked me down the aisle.” by her own conscience. I felt like he needed to do that for it to be genuine.
“I really chose to have him walk me down the aisle despite the information he was giving me.”
Following her father’s emotional confession, Chynna, whose sisters are Mackenzie Phillips and Bijou Phillips, said she had to go on ‘autopilot’ to get through her wedding because she ‘didn’t get much sleep the night before’ and had ‘a lot of adrenaline running through her system.
“At the same time, it was one of the most valuable conversations I’ve ever had with my dad, and it was definitely, bar none, the most honest conversation I’ve ever had with my dad, and the rawest, most real conversation I’ve ever had.” “I’ve ever had it with my dad,” he said.
Chynna and Billy recently opened up about how their Christian faith had caused a “rift” in their marriage.
“I would cry and then become stoic again, and it was because my dad had just revealed some really important information to me and I felt blindsided by it,” she said of the night before her wedding to Billy (pictured with Chynna).
“There was a real contrast because, on the one hand, it was so beautiful and precious to me, but on the other, it was so terrifying and disturbing.
“He felt compelled to tell me these things because he knew that… the next day he would be in a church with his daughter, walking her down the aisle, and I think his conscience was playing with him.” and saying, “Oh, you know you’re going to be in this holy place with your daughter, who you barely know, and you’re going to take her to the altar in front of 300 people and give her to her husband.” “.
“I think he felt shame and guilt and I think he felt like he needed to vent.”
Robyn pointed out that the singer’s wedding day was meant to be about the couple, and Chynna responded, “But when you’re an addict, do you know?…no you don’t…completely out.” window.’
The singer described the conversation she had with her father as “a defining moment in my life” and “it was so shocking that it changed me forever.”
During the video, Chynna also shed light on how she dealt with the “conflicted feelings” she had toward her father.
‘It’s difficult because I think it’s like that in any relationship. “There are things you love about someone and then there are things you struggle with,” she said.
During the video, Chynna also shed light on how she dealt with the “conflicted feelings” she had toward her father. She appears here with Billy.
Their family is no stranger to hardship, and sisters Mackenzie (left) and Bijou (center) are coping with their own problems.
Bijou’s ex-husband, Danny Masterson, was sentenced to 30 years in prison last year for raping two women. The former couple is seen here in November 2022.
Meanwhile, Chynna’s other sister, Mackenzie (pictured in 2019), 64, revealed in 2009 that she and her father, John, had a nearly 10-year incestuous relationship.
“We have to take addiction into account, not that it’s an excuse, but addiction really takes people to the deepest, darkest depths of humanity and they do things they never imagined they were capable of doing.
‘You know it’s easy to say ‘I forgive you’… but the truth is that forgiveness takes time, it’s a process.’
The singer added: “It’s hard for me to analyze it and say, ‘Okay, well, why am I forgiving him?’ For what he did, the addiction, abandoning me, am I forgiving him for using me as a pawn, for all the things I saw that I should never have seen as a child?”
‘Why exactly am I forgiving him? It’s all kind of a mesh pot, so for me and my dad I had to say that when you get paid in one lump sum, I just had to say, “Okay, I’m going to have to forgive in general, but I’m going to have to forgive to everyone around me.”
Chynna said the last 10 years had been “really difficult” for her because she was “getting hit” by “one thing after another.”
“I couldn’t believe they kept taking me by surprise over and over again,” she said.
He admitted that “in the last few years” he had “gone a little bit more” because “it was too much on my psyche,” with his son Vance’s cancer diagnosis, the death of a loved one and his marriage being “in ruins.” .
“I mean, we were really struggling and I think for me that was just the end of the game, losing Jackie, my marriage in trouble and Vance getting sick, I think I thought, ‘Okay, game over.’ I can not do this. more, I give up, I give up.”‘
Chynna and Billy share three children: Jameson (born 2000), Vance (born 2001), and Brooke (born 2004).
Her family is no stranger to hardship, as her sister Bijou’s estranged husband, Danny Masterson, was sentenced to 30 years in prison last year for raping two women.
Bijou, 43, filed for divorce from the That ’70s Show star, 47, less than two weeks after being jailed. The couple shared a daughter, Fianna, 10.
Meanwhile, Chynna’s other sister, Mackenzie, 64, revealed in 2009 that she and her father, John, had a nearly 10-year incestuous relationship.
She claimed her father raped her for the first time when she was 19, the night before her wedding to Jeff Sessler.
But when his life began to spiral out of control due to drugs, the sex became consensual for nearly a decade, he said.