Christina Aguilera admits she still feels ‘great guilt’ about the grind of child stardom

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Christina Aguilera has revealed that she still feels guilty for not forcing herself to keep working.

In a cover interview for the May issue of Health magazine, the 40-year-old hitmaker noted that she has been working since she was seven.

‘When I’m not working I feel very guilty. It’s been embedded in me since I was little – you’re ashamed if you don’t want to keep up, ”she admitted.

‘Like a child [entertainer], you are all up against each other, and other kids are all over that grind too. It’s a weird space to grow up in. ‘

Christina Aguilera was 19 when she became the big hit with Genie In A Bottle in 1999, after entering showbiz at the age of seven

She told the May issue of Health magazine that she still feels 'guilty' as a result of the child's stardom

She told the May issue of Health magazine that she still feels 'guilty' as a result of the child's stardom

Issues: Christina Aguilera was 19 when she hit a big hit with Genie In A Bottle (pictured right) in 1999, after entering showbiz at the age of seven. She told the May issue of Health magazine that she still feels ‘guilty’ as a result of the child’s stardom

The New York native joined The Mickey Mouse Club in 1994, and in 1998 she got her big break when she was chosen to record the theme song for the Disney movie Mulan entitled Reflection.

Her 1999 single Genie In A Bottle catapulted her to stardom at the age of 19.

“That grind is lauded, but I think we all understand that moments of self-reflection and just breathing are crucial,” Aguilera shared with Health.

‘I have a huge tribe of old diaries that I have literally kept from the past 20 years of my life. I was able to catch up with them and do some self-reflection. It really forced me to shut up and look at myself. ‘

Child Stardom: The New York resident joined The Mickey Mouse Club in 1994 at the age of 14, describing it as 'a grind' (pictured with Justin Timberlake, Britney Spears and Ryan Gosling)

Child Stardom: The New York resident joined The Mickey Mouse Club in 1994 at the age of 14, describing it as 'a grind' (pictured with Justin Timberlake, Britney Spears and Ryan Gosling)

Child Stardom: The New York resident joined The Mickey Mouse Club in 1994 at the age of 14, describing it as ‘a grind’ (pictured with Justin Timberlake, Britney Spears and Ryan Gosling)

'When I'm not working I feel very guilty.  It's been embedded in me since I was little, you're ashamed if you don't want to keep up '' admits Aguilera, 40,

'When I'm not working I feel very guilty.  It's been embedded in me since I was little, you're ashamed if you don't want to keep up '' admits Aguilera, 40

‘When I’m not working I feel very guilty. It’s been embedded in me since I was little – you’re ashamed if you don’t want to keep up, ” admits Aguilera, 40,

Aguilera also spoke about the pain of her childhood: “I have experienced a lot of trauma in my childhood – I have spoken about it very openly. But I think that was only part of my path. I’ve definitely had issues with depression and anxiety in the past – it’s a constant struggle to overcome a mind that is anxious, a mind that is always doubting. ‘

The singer also spoke about her love-hate relationship with her own body when she was younger.

“When I got into this company, I hated being super skinny,” she said. ‘I have a hard time looking at the early photos of myself because I remember feeling so insecure. I wouldn’t ever want to live my twenties again – you’re like that in your own head and find your confidence. ‘

When Christina turned 21 years old, she started to “ fill in a little. ”

The red carpet favorite said, “Loved my new curves. I appreciated having a booty. I’ve always said that women are much more interesting to watch than men! ‘

She then said, “As you get older, you stop comparing yourself to other people and begin to appreciate and own your own body.”

Body Issues: “When I entered this company I hated being super skinny,” reflected the hitmaker in her interview with Health. Seen in 2000 at the VH1 Awards

The early Christina: 'I have a hard time looking at the early pictures of myself because I remember feeling so insecure.  I would never want to relive my twenties.  You're so in your own head and find your confidence, ”she admitted;  seen in 2002

The early Christina: 'I have a hard time looking at the early pictures of myself because I remember feeling so insecure.  I would never want to relive my twenties.  You're so in your own head and find your confidence, ”she admitted;  seen in 2002

The early Christina: ‘I have a hard time looking at the early pictures of myself because I remember feeling so insecure. I wouldn’t ever want to live my 20s again – you’re like that in your own head and find your confidence, ”she admitted; seen in 2002

Siren: Aguilera said, 'I loved my new curves.  I appreciated having a booty.  I've always said that women are much more interesting to watch than men!  The cover will go on sale on April 17

Siren: Aguilera said, 'I loved my new curves.  I appreciated having a booty.  I've always said that women are much more interesting to watch than men!  The cover will go on sale on April 17

Siren: Aguilera said, ‘I loved my new curves. I appreciated having a booty. I’ve always said that women are much more interesting to watch than men! The cover will go on sale on April 17

Aguilera has topped the charts for the past 20 years and is the voice of a generation.

But only recently has she started to accept herself, she said.

‘That’s what beauty is really about. As much as I love to be a glamorous girl and play dress-up in front of the camera, when it all comes out, that’s ultimately the most rewarding – being able to feel good about who you’re staring at in the mirror because you’re there all own, ‘the artist shared.

Her life has been delayed due to the lockdown, which gives her time for her beau Matthew Rutler and two children Max and Summer.

And she said it was a great time to squat.

“ I really have a moment to do little things like be in my backyard, read books that were on my reading list, and go through my old diaries, ” said the card topper.

Mother of two: Aguilera has been at the top of the charts for the past 20 years and the voice of a generation.  But only recently has she started to accept herself, she said.  Shown with son Max

Mother of two: Aguilera has been at the top of the charts for the past 20 years and the voice of a generation.  But only recently has she started to accept herself, she said.  Shown with son Max

Mother of two: Aguilera has been at the top of the charts for the past 20 years and the voice of a generation. But only recently has she started to accept herself, she said. Shown with son Max