A YouTuber has revealed that she was starving herself for hours and spit into a cup to make her weekly soak while she was on the lightweight rowing team at Boston University.
In her last one video, Gretchen Geraghty, 22, from Latham, New York, opened the reality of women's lightweight rowing, with competitors weighing 130 pounds or less before the races.
The recent BU graduate, who stopped lightweight rowing after her freshman year, said her coaches would keep an eye on & # 39; while she and many of her teammates would go to great lengths to quickly lose the weight they needed to make their way.
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To keep it real: YouTuber Gretchen Geraghty, 22, from Latham, New York, opened the reality of women's lightweight rowing in her latest video
Stress: in order to compete in lightweight rowing, women must weigh 130 lbs or less on the race day. She said she and her former teammates at Boston University would go to great lengths to increase their weight
Gretchen and her twin sister Lucy went rowing in eighth grade and did it competitively during high school.
She explained that she was attracted to the lightweight program, because although she is 5-foot-9, she knew that she would never be jacked up & # 39; to be an open-weight rower.
Looking back on her first high school weight, she said it was the first time in her life that she felt bad about her weight and started comparing herself to others.
Too much: the recent BU graduate stopped lightweight rowing after her first year
& # 39; I remember the first year of high school that I entered that scale. I was around 140 pounds, & she recalled. & # 39; I thought so, & # 39; I am so tall, there are so many smaller girls. & # 39; & # 39;
Gretchen said she was determined to become a lightweight rower, and after a few changes in her diet, she naturally dropped to around 127 pounds.
Afterwards, however, she realizes that she did not eat enough to support her energy during training. She actually stopped menstruating and did not get her period of around three years, from 16 to 19 years.
& # 39; It was because I didn't have enough body fat, & # 39; she explained. & # 39; I know for myself, if I'm under 135, I just lose my cycle. & # 39;
She admitted that she only ate & # 39; strawberries and pistachios. when she and her sister traveled in 2015 to compete against Youth Nationals in Sacramento.
Gretchen and Lucy both made BU & # 39; s lightweight rowing team, and she remembered that they were worried that they would be the slowest in their first year, but their fears were unfounded.
& # 39; Everything was good until it wasn't. I quickly started struggling with the weight, & she said. & # 39; Do I think I could have survived lightweight rowing at BU for four years? Yes.
Start of it all: Gretchen and her twin sister Lucy (not pictured) started rowing in eighth grade and competed in high school
Call: Gretchen (left) explained that she was attracted to the lightweight program, because although she is 5-foot-9, she knew she would never be jacked up & # 39; to become an open-weight rower
& # 39; I think I would have been miserable – I know I would have been miserable & she continued. & # 39; It would have ruined my metabolism, my self-esteem, my social relationships, my mental state. It was just like bad, bad, bad. & # 39;
While she and her teammates had access to a nutritionist, she said they were constantly receiving conflicting information and solid meal plans that most girls would never be able to follow and still weigh.
The nutritionist emphasized that the rowers had to talk to her if they didn't get their period, which surprised Gretchen because her doctor had always told her it was good.
The woman explained that Gretchen's body told her that she was not healthy enough to carry a baby and that her missed cycles put her at risk for osteoporosis.
& # 39; It's like you have to arrive for your health, but you have to lose weight to stay on this team & # 39 ;, she recalled.
Not only did Gretchen get older, but she was also training with weights for the first time in her life and gained a lot of muscle strength, making it even harder to get up to 130lbs.
Rowing is one of the few sports that athletes practice all year round and compete in both fall and spring, although spring is the primary season for college rowing.
Gretchen said towards the end of autumn, she and Lucy were both injured. She had a stress fracture in her rib, which she says is a lot for rowers, but she admitted that she ran her body into the ground.
Looking back: Gretchen and her twin sister Lucy participated in Youth Nationals in Sacramento in 2015, just before they started their first year at Boston University.
Alarming side effect: Gretchen, pictured in 2016, said she stopped getting her period for three years, from 16 to 19 years
While juggling rowing, YouTubing and loading her job as a biology chief physician, she only got about four hours of sleep per night.
& # 39; I was told it was my fault that I had a stress fracture in my rib because I didn't get enough sleep, & # 39; she remembered. & # 39; Yes, that didn't really make sense to me. & # 39;
Gretchen recovered and could fight in the spring, but not Lucy. She quickly realized that she enjoyed rowing lightly, and spent time with her sister.
She admitted that it was ironic that Lucy was the one who had been injured because she was completely committed to rowing, while she began to fear the sport and her weekly schedule.
& # 39; I would say it was a very bad team culture & # 39 ;, she said, explaining that it was a very & # 39; silent, silent & # 39; environment.
& # 39; The coaches know everything that is going on. . . and the unhealthy really bad activities out there to make people weigh, & she added.
& # 39; Everyone just takes a blind eye and says: & # 39; On Friday you have to weigh in, as if you had this, it's your girl. & # 39; & # 39;
Gretchen said she & # 39; deep inside & # 39; knew how small she was, but she was also told to lose weight to stay in the team and compete.
Hunger: Gretchen, pictured in 2015, remembered how she and her teammates would starve themselves from Wednesday to Friday, the day of their weighing
Then and now: Gretchen said she was struggling to stay under 130 pounds while on her university team. She is pictured in 2015 at the start of her first year (left) and in 2017 (right)
She emphasized that there are girls who are naturally small and able to meet weight requirements without allowing themselves to starve, but that was not the case for most of them.
& # 39; You just wouldn't eat Friday, no matter what, before you weigh unless you were one of the few in the team who were naturally 120 or 125, & # 39; she said, pointing out that most people were hungry on Wednesday. in preparation.
Gretchen remembered a former teammate who weighed 140 pounds on Wednesday and would somehow hit a weight below 150 kg on Friday.
& # 39; We would all be like what? Thats crazy. How? & # 39; she said.
A few years later the woman left the team abruptly because she had been struggling with bulimia for several years.
& # 39; It just broke my heart and I know she wasn't the only one, & # 39; said Gretchen.
The former lightweight rower explained that many girls would shed up to 10 pounds in two days, recalling that her & # 39; biggest cut & # 39; was £ 5 in one day.
Although they all had to sign waivers in the fall saying they would not sit in saunas or hot tubs for long periods of time trying to lose weight, she said that almost everyone did it, including himself.
Bad Behavior: The YouTuber, pictured last month, said she and her teammates would spit in cups to try and lose pounds quickly.
About that: she said she decided to leave the team after running a 45-minute & # 39; sweat run & # 39; they had to do laying down on layers of clothing to lose one last pound before a race
& # 39; I would go to this sauna I found in the locker room of the faculty and I would always sit there to sweat weight, "she said, sometimes noticing that she would even do crunches in the heat .
When they were desperate, they spit into cups to dehydrate themselves even more in an effort to lose pounds.
& # 39; We would fill spit cups, but you can't spit out if you're really dehydrated, so we suck on lollipops and Jolly Ranchers because it would make you spit. I remember that I had those full cups of red, purple spit, & she said.
& # 39; My mouth would hurt. Everything would be raw and just terrible, because you would spit about six hours and probably lose a few more pounds. Serious. You can spit out much more than you think and it is so confused. & # 39;
On the day of her most traumatic assessment, she spent about an hour or two in the sauna, but still weighed 133 pounds before her race.
Gretchen remembered panic when she told an assistant coach who assured her she could lose weight on time.
& # 39; That's exactly what the culture was – go do what you need to do to lose weight & # 39 ;, she said and added: & # 39; I've never had to work so hard to weigh earlier.
& # 39; This was just the beginning of the end because it was so difficult. I remember spitting all the way on the six-hour bus ride. & # 39;
During a pit stop on the way to the race, she stood on the scales and discovered that despite all her efforts, she still weighed.
Self-care: Gretchen said she & # 39; miserable & # 39; would have been if she tried to row lightly for three more years.
All smiles: Gretchen, who graduated from Boston University in May, noted that only a few members of her recruitment class were stuck with lightweight rowing for the entire college
& # 39; You can't pee, you can't poop, you can't spit anymore, & # 39; she said. & # 39; I am like, & # 39; I don't know what to do? & # 39; & # 39;
When they arrived at the racecourse, Gretchen received as many clothes as she could fit on her body and had to wear her first & # 39; sweat racing & # 39; to make.
She remembered being ashamed & # 39; ashamed & # 39; and & # 39; ashamed & # 39; felt as she walked past the other teams that carried her innumerable layers.
It was at this point that she realized that she would stop lightweight rowing. After 45 minutes of running, she stepped on the scale and clocked in at 130.0.
Gretchen said getting ready for consideration was a weekly cycle that was so debilitating that most of her fellow recruits stopped, with only a few of them making it into the team until their final year.
In addition to her struggle to maintain her weight, because of her NCAA rules, she was also banned by YouTubing about her experience, something she was struggling with.
The college grad said the main reason she made the video was that she often has young girls who asked her about lightweight rowing, and she really wants them to know what it is like.
She emphasized that it is inevitable that they arrive at the university, and for many people it is too difficult to stay under 130 pounds without disorderly food. The sport also takes a lot of your time, making it difficult to live a social life.
& # 39; I just want to scream from the rooftops, don't do it, & # 39; she said. & # 39; For most of you, I don't think this is the best idea. & # 39;
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