Botham Jean (left) was shot dead in his own house on Thursday night when a white policeman confused the apartment with his
The mother of a Caribbean black man who was shot dead by a white Dallas police officer who said she confused her apartment with her own wonders about whether her son's race was a factor in her murder.
Allison Jean told NBCDFW that she wondered if the off-duty officer had reacted differently if Botham Jean, 26, had been targeted.
Allison, who held government posts in the island nation of St. Lucia, says her son's death "feels like a nightmare."
The officer, who according to authorities will be charged with involuntary manslaughter, shot and killed the young man using his service weapon after returning to his shift on Thursday night.
She claimed that she had confused her apartment with his.
The officer must still be named or photographed, which sparked calls for unfair treatment.
And although Dallas Police Chief Renee Hall said Friday that the agent would be charged imminently, he revealed on Saturday, during a criminal justice panel broadcast on Facebook, that the order had not been issued.
Hall said the Texas Rangers, who are conducting an independent investigation, asked their department to suspend the march because they needed more time to investigate the shooting.
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The officer was in full uniform but off duty when she tried to enter the Botham department (left). The authorities have not said how he came face to face with the man or if the pair knew each other
Allison said she wants justice for her son, and noted that he had not even lost any problems when he was killed.
& # 39; Botham was not in any wrong place at the wrong time. He was in his sanctuary. In the place he called home. He did not deserve it, "he said.
The devastated mother says she wants to know who the police officer is and wants a better explanation of what happened.
I do not want to judge her. We are Christians. We forgive, "he said.
But I need to look her in the eye and ask her why she did that to my son.
& # 39; She took my heart. My soul. He did not deserve to die. The explanation does not make sense & # 39;
Alison Jean (right), her mother, says she wants a complete explanation of how her son died and says she wants the state to pay for the accountant's death.
Botham lived on the South Side Flats in Dallas (pictured), as did the police officer, who has not yet been named or photographed.
The officer called 911 after the fatal shooting, and the police were quickly on the scene (pictured)
Botham Jean attended college at Harding University in Arkansas, where he often ran the worship services on campus.
After graduating in 2016, he moved to Dallas, where he went to work on the risk guarantee for PricewaterhouseCoopers.
The 26-year-old was well liked everywhere, with online tributes from people who said their lives had improved thanks to their presence.
In a particularly heart-rending message, her sister said she had made the transition in an instant from selecting gifts to selecting a chest for her beloved brother.
Her sister (left) wrote a heartbreaking message that only a week ago she was deliberating on a birthday gift for him, and now she had to choose her chest.
"Last week I was thinking about what to give you for your birthday, now I have to go find your chest," he wrote.
You'll always be my little brother. I love you with all my heart. Until we meet again, my love. "
Another, written by college friend Matt Woodson, noted that Botham was always present when they needed it.
Woodson said they both worked in class work together, sang together in the choir and even bought cowboy boots after smearing ice cream and soda.
"There's one thing that stayed so constant in your life … that infectiously bright smile that radiated on your face every day of every week," Woodson wrote.
"The numbness I'm experiencing still brings pain." It's boring and deep. It is the kind of pain that sinks and does not disappear.
"A part of my heart and the hearts of literally thousands of others will be lost forever because of your absence on this Earth.
"However, one day it will be complete once his voice welcomes us and welcomes us home."
Botham Jean is seen directing the cult in the presidential reception of a university in Dallas
Dallas Sen. Royce West told reporters Saturday that he still did not know if the Thursday night events were race-related.
"We have to find out if there was a personal relationship, if she surprised him at the door," he said.
"There are many facts that must be considered before determining what type of homicide is."
The Senator was passionate about explaining that he wanted the charges filed, and making sure the officer did not receive any special treatment because of his work.
On Friday, a group met at the Jack Evans Police Headquarters for a candlelight vigil in memory of Botham.
The candlelight reminder was in the hands of Mothers Against Police Brutality, and attended by people of all races and religions.
& # 39; Young King & # 39; Solomon Grayson, 6, looks up at a sign that says "You Could be Botham Shem Jean" during a vigil of Mothers against police brutality in the light of Jean's candles
Pastor Michael W. Waters (right) leads a prayer after a candlelight vigil against the Police Brutality of Mothers Against Botham Jean