& # 39; I couldn't look in the mirror & # 39 ;: Billie Eilish talks about her fight with body dysmorphy, self-harm and depressive symptoms at the age of 13
Billie Eilish spoke frankly about her struggle with mental health.
The 17-year-old singer revealed that she had suffered from body dysmorphia in the past and started her fight with depression when she was forced to give up dancing due to a hip injury.
She said Rolling stone magazine: & # 39; [out of 13] was probably when I was the most insecure. I was not so confident. I couldn't talk and just be normal. When I think about it or see pictures of me, I was not OK with who I was.
Billie Eilish started with depression when she had to stop dancing at the age of 13 after an injury
& # 39; During dance you wear very small clothing. And I have never felt at ease in very small clothes. I always worried about my appearance. That was the highlight of my physical dysmorphia. I couldn't look in the mirror at all.
& # 39; In short, before you are 16, the cartilage in your hip is not yet firm. It is still growing. I was in a hip-hop class with all the seniors, the most advanced level. & # 39;
Billie had to stop dancing after a devastating injury when she tore the growth disc in her hip.
& # 39; During dance you wear very small clothing. And I have never felt at ease in very small clothes. I always worried about my appearance. That was the highlight of my physical dysmorphia. I couldn't look in the mirror at all. & # 39; Eilish said about her struggle for mental health
Billie had to stop dancing after a devastating injury when she tore the growth disc in her hip, as she explained: & I think that was when the depression started. It sent me a hole & # 39;
She said: & I think that's when the depression started. It sent me a hole. I went through a very self-damaging phase – we don't have to go into it. But the essence of it was that I felt that I deserved to be in pain.
& # 39; When someone else thinks of Billie Eilish at the age of 14, they think of all the good things that have happened. But the only thing I can think of is how miserable I was. How distraught and confused. 13 to 16 was pretty rough. & # 39;
Billie & # 39; s mental health is currently in a good place and she says that her depression has been kept at bay lately.
She explained: & # 39; I have not been depressed for a minute, which is great. 17 has probably been the best year of my life. I liked 17. Sometimes I see girls at my shows with scars on their arms, and it breaks my heart.
& # 39; I no longer have scars because it was so long ago. But I said to some of them, "Just be nice to yourself."
Eilish, 17, is on the cover of this month's Rolling Stone magazine
& # 39; Because I know. I was there. & # 39; she added.
However, Billie still suffers from anxiety attacks caused by touring.
She said: & # 39; I just couldn't bear to leave again. It felt like an endless limbo. As if there was no end in sight. And I mean, it's true: there's really no end to touring. When I thought of that, I literally had to throw up. I am not a jerk, but I have vomited twice with fear. & # 39;
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