A mother who breastfeeded her daughter while she had many painkillers and organized drug parties while she was in the next room turned her life around after meeting her husband at a recovery meeting.
Home mom, Ashley Doherty, 29, from Riverside, California, grew up watching her mom go in and out of rehab after her parents split up when she was seven.
After trying alcohol for the first time when she was 13, she fell in love with the feeling of being drunk and claimed it helped her to forget her worries.
It wasn't long before Ashley left school to get drunk and went to parties where she was introduced to weed, cocaine, ecstasy, meth, cough syrup, and painkillers.
When Ashley became pregnant at the age of 21, she managed to stay clean until childbirth, but soon felt drawn back into a life of addiction – until she met a fellow addict in a recovery meeting.
After marrying Jack, 35, the couple welcomed their son Jackson, now 1, and happily live with Ashley & # 39; s daughter Rylann, seven.
Ashley Doherty, 29, from Riverside, California, breastfeeded her daughter while she had many painkillers at drug parties before turning her life around
Ashley recalled her journey and said: “My parents separated when I was about seven years old and my mother was also in and out of rehab. Assuming that those things had taken me like a small toll, I grew increasingly angry and insecure as I got older. Alcohol and drugs helped me numb all those unwanted feelings and emotions.
She remembered her first sip of alcohol at the age of 13 and added: & # 39; I couldn't stop after that first drink. I drank myself in a blackout that night. The next day I couldn't wait to do it again. I loved the warm, numb feeling it gave me. And from that moment it went downhill.
& # 39; After having had a serious car accident in 2011, I was prescribed the pain by Norco and fell in love with the feeling they gave me. From that moment my addiction started to get out of hand. & # 39;
Ashley found herself in a series of toxic relationships where she was abused and abused by men.
At the age of 21 she became pregnant with her first child, Rylann, now seven, but found the strength to demolish alcohol and drugs for the duration of her pregnancy.
The mother staying at home met husband Jack, 35, well seen, at a recovery meeting and the couple now has a son Jackson, 1, and Rylann, 7,
After first trying alcohol at the age of 13, she fell in love with the feeling of being drunk and claimed it helped her to forget her worries (Ashley at the height of her addiction)
But after the birth in August 2012, she was given painkiller Norco for pain and became addicted when her prescription ran out.
She said: & # 39; It was a miracle that I stayed away from alcohol and drugs all the time. As soon as I gave birth to her and they gave me painkillers, it was downhill again. I started abusing pills when she was two months old and kept breastfeeding for the next year and a half, & she said.
& # 39; All the while her father smoked OxyContin and heroin. I was breastfeeding at the time, but told myself that I only take a few, so it can't affect my daughter through my breast milk, although I'm sure it was. I felt guilty and felt like a bastard, but of course I kept taking them.
& # 39; That toxic relationship ended quite quickly. I moved to my grandmother's guesthouse with my best friend because I could not afford to be alone, especially with my daughter. They made sure that I always had a job or went to school. & # 39;
It wasn't long before Ashley left school to get drunk and went to parties where she was introduced to weed, cocaine, ecstasy, meth, cough syrup and painkiller pills
Pictured: shley at the height of her addiction while her drug and alcohol problem got out of hand
Ashley found herself in a series of toxic relationships where she was abused and abused by men
At the age of 21 she became pregnant with her first child, Rylann, now seven, but found the strength to demolish alcohol and drugs for the duration of her pregnancy
But the new mother went to a dealer to get the pills and convinced herself that she would not harm her daughter despite breastfeeding.
Shockingly, Ashley has taken 40 pills a day, drunk, used cocaine and other drugs to help her take the pills.
Speaking of her daughter, she said: & # 39; If someone couldn't catch her, I would just bring the party to me. My daughter woke up & # 39; in the morning and still saw me loaded the night before and random strangers in the house. I thank God to this day that she was too little to remember that. & # 39;
Depressed and guilty for not being a good mother, Ashley's weight dropped to just 6 pounds, and after being kicked out of cosmetology school, she begged her father to get her treated, which he did.
It is shocking that Ashley has taken up to 40 pills a day, drank, used cocaine and used other drugs to help her get rid of pills
Ashley during pregnancy with Rylann, when she managed to stay clean and sober
Jack and Ashley on their wedding day in August 2018
After 45 days of rehab, Ashley came out as a new person, but after she was back with an ex-boyfriend, she soon started drinking again.
With the encouragement of her family to attend support meetings and get a sponsor, Ashley became sober again because of herself and her child.
Ashley said: & # 39; I forced myself to be strong once and take out the toxic people I had always surrounded myself with, because I knew that if I didn't, I wouldn't stay clean. This has changed my whole life. & # 39;
During an anonymous meeting with alcoholics and narcotics, Ashley met her husband, Jack, and they fell in love and supported each other during their respective reparations.
& # 39; My husband and I met during a meeting shortly after we both got out of rehab. Technically, you're not supposed to go out for a year, so you can focus on yourself and the 12 steps, but the connection we had was undeniable and the best I had ever felt, & she said.
Ashley has been clean and sober for over two years
During an anonymous meeting with alcoholics and narcotics, Ashley met her husband, Jack, and they fell in love and supported each other during their respective reparations
After marrying Jack, 35, the couple welcomed their son Jackson, now 1, and live happily with Ashley & # 39; s daughter Rylann, seven.
& # 39; We both make good where each other is missing. We would attend meetings every week and spend time with our group of friends in recovery.
& # 39; Our relationship is so loving and beautiful that I have never experienced it. Neither of us could imagine that we would grab a drink or a medicine because we know it would completely ruin all the great things we have before us. & # 39;
After the marriage the couple welcomed a child together, Jackson, 1 and Ashley is now a healthy 8th of 3 pounds and hopes to inspire others with her story.
Speaking of her life, she said: & I now have a life I never thought I would ever have. I believed you couldn't live life without alcohol or drugs. I have been clean and sober for over two years now and I love my life. I met my husband during a recovery meeting. We have had a baby. I was admitted to the beautician again and received my driver's license.
& # 39; I finally have faith and I am finally proud of myself. I have never felt so peaceful and happy in my entire life. It would never have happened if there had been no recovery. & # 39;
She added: & # 39; Your life is more important than what others might think. Make friends in recovery. That is what helped me stay clean. You must remove the negative influences and toxic relationships in your life, otherwise you will never remain clean and sober.
& # 39; The friendships you make during the recovery will be such an important part to keep you clean and sober, because we all understand each other and offer each other inspiration and motivation. & # 39;
Ashley has been clean and sober for over two years and hopes to inspire others
Shley while pregnant with Rylann, when she managed to stay clean and sober
After the marriage the couple welcomed a child together, Jackson, 1 and Ashley are now a healthy 8th 3 pounds and hope to be able to inspire others with her story
Ashley and Jack on their wedding day in August 2018
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