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Amanda Kloots writes heartfelt letter to son Elvis, gets tearful as she discusses Nick Cordero’s death

Amanda Kloots reflects on her husband Nick Cordero’s legacy since he died of complications from COVID-19 earlier this week.

And the fitness personality focuses on their son Elvis, as well as her own grief process during the hard time.

She posted a video to her Instagram story on Thursday about her emotional struggle after their loss, after writing a heartfelt letter to her son.

Grief-stricken: Amanda Kloots posted a video to her Instagram story on Thursday about her grief after the loss of husband Nick Cordero, after she wrote a heartfelt letter to her son

Grief-stricken: Amanda Kloots posted a video to her Instagram story on Thursday about her grief after the loss of husband Nick Cordero, after she wrote a heartfelt letter to her son

The 38-year-old was peaceful with a glass of red wine and beautiful views when she started writing the note.

She glimpsed the letter that read, “We must find the silver linings in life, son. Life is never perfect, things happen that we will never understand. Find lessons, keep moving, find the beauty. ‘

Kloots then opened up in a video, “You know, it’s so funny because grief is so weird, and I’ve covered everything else about this process. So it feels strangely wrong not to speak and acknowledge grief. ‘

She continued, “I’m just beginning to wonder what I’m going through now, and how my daily life is so crazy and so busy, and how I can deal with so much quiet, and how I can do it. But do I also recognize everything that has happened and do I acknowledge my grief? And it often only hits me at night when I go to sleep.

To Elvis: She wrote in the letter, “We need to find the silver linings in life son. Life is never perfect, things happen that we will never understand. Find lessons, keep moving, find the beauty ‘

Weird thing: Kloots then opened up in a video, “You know, it’s so funny because grief is so weird, and I’ve covered everything else about this process. So it feels strangely strange not to speak and acknowledge grief ‘

Not a good answer: she continued, “I don’t know if there is a good answer. I don’t think there’s a good answer to grief or how someone is grieving or the process you’re going through. You know, that’s different for everyone and everyone’s personalities, and when and how it affects you ‘

“I don’t know if there is a correct answer. I don’t think there’s a good answer to grief or how someone is grieving or the process you’re going through. You know, that’s different for everyone and everyone’s personality, and when and how it affects you. ‘

The mother of one also reminded her 554,000 followers to stay safe: “Just be responsible, because this is the only way to ever end this, and that we can ever move forward as a race, as a human. ‘

Earlier she told a moving story earlier today about Elvis, one about the absence of his father.

Kloots said the adorable toddler was trying to give his dad some sweet kisses while watching an old video of his: ‘I was showing Elvis videos of Nick, and this video was Nick speaking as if he left a voicemail message for a friend but he had it stored on his phone.

“And Elvis saw it and smiled and – I’m not kidding – leaning against the phone to kiss his father and then went on. I kept replaying the video and he kept trying to press the button, and he kept going in and out, kissing the phone and kissing his dad.

“My heart just melted, of course, but in a way I felt so good because I felt he recognized Nick. He knows who he is and recognizes his father, even if it’s been more than three months. ‘

Kloots recorded another video in her Insta Stories of Elvis, entirely contained in a video by his father.

Proud mom: She previously told a moving story earlier about Elvis, one, when he dealt with his father's absence

Proud mom: She previously told a moving story earlier about Elvis, one, when he dealt with his father's absence

Proud mom: She previously told a moving story earlier about Elvis, one, when he dealt with his father’s absence

Kisses to Nick: Kloots said the cute toddler was trying to give his dad some sweet kisses while watching an old video of him saying, “I felt so good about it because I got the feeling he recognized Nick. He knows who he is and he recognizes his father, even if it was more than three months ago ‘

Daddy's boy: Kloots recorded another video in her Insta Stories of Elvis, entirely contained in a video by his father

Daddy's boy: Kloots recorded another video in her Insta Stories of Elvis, entirely contained in a video by his father

Daddy’s boy: Kloots recorded another video in her Insta Stories of Elvis, entirely contained in a video by his father

“Can you kiss da-da?” Amanda asked out of the picture, although her son was not ready at the moment.

Cordero died on Sunday at the age of 41, after spending 94 days in the hospital due to COVID-19 complications.

Kloots told People: ‘My heart is broken. As a husband, I don’t think a day passed when he didn’t say to me, “I’m the most fortunate.” Words cannot describe how much I will miss him, his presence, his voice. ‘

She continued, “My husband was a very special man. He was everyone’s friend. We taught each other things, challenged each other to grow. We loved singing and dancing wherever we were. Just watching him do the simplest things would put a smile on my face. ‘

Shortly before his death, Amanda said she planned to refinance their Los Angeles home to cover the hospital bills that had already started pouring in.

But the generosity of Nick’s fans and close friends like Zach Braff can help her cover the costs.

From Thursday a GoFundMe set up to cover Nick’s medical bills had reached more than $ 1 million, more than double the original goal of $ 480,000.

RIP: Cordero died on Sunday at the age of 41, after spending 94 days in the hospital due to COVID-19 complications (pictured in August 2019)

RIP: Cordero died on Sunday at the age of 41, after spending 94 days in the hospital due to COVID-19 complications (pictured in August 2019)

RIP: Cordero died on Sunday at the age of 41, after spending 94 days in the hospital due to COVID-19 complications (pictured in August 2019)

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