Abbie Chatfield is furious after Instagram removed her post in which she bravely spoke about her struggle with suicidal thoughts.
The Bachelor star, 29, tearfully opened up about her mental health on her It’s A Lot podcast on Tuesday after a man “harassed” her at the Australian Open.
She candidly detailed her struggle with suicidal thoughts as a result of trolling and dealing with the trauma of domestic violence in a past relationship.
But after sharing a clip of the episode on Instagram, Abbie was left furious after the social media platform apparently removed it just hours later.
Abbie took to her Stories to share a screenshot showing Instagram informing her that her post had been deleted. He did not specify the reason why it was removed.
In one caption, Abbie was furious that her video had been removed while online trolls were still able to share cruel content about her.
Abbie Chatfield was left furious after Instagram removed her post in which she bravely spoke about her struggle with suicidal thoughts.
Abbie took to her Stories to share a screenshot showing Instagram informing her that her post had been deleted. He did not specify the reason why it was removed.
She got angry: ‘Excuse me? I love that I can be attacked and bullied on this app by people harassing me daily, but I can’t just share how I FEEL?
Abbie reshared the video on her podcast It’s A Lot’s Instagram page without the accompanying caption and urged her followers to watch it there.
The post’s removal came just hours after she first posted the video, in which she spoke candidly about her struggle with suicidal thoughts and anxiety.
During the podcast, Abbie addressed an incident in the Australian Openwhere a man ‘harassed’ her while she was working and filmed her.
After the clip was shared online, Abbie tearfully spoke about the resulting reaction, including that of former AFL player Jed Lamb, who had commented on the video that she “stinked”.
Abbie was overcome with emotion as revealed that the Australian Open incident came at a time when he was already struggling psychologically with online trolling.
“The day before I uploaded that, I was with my therapist talking about my suicidal thoughts that have to do with all this trolling, with feeling like I’m always being watched, with feeling like no matter what I do, I’m going to get trolled.” , he shared.
“Even when I don’t say or do anything ‘controversial,’ I still get attacked and abused and trolled, and I’m just so fucking worried about it. I’m really exhausted.”
In the post in question, the Bachelor star, 29, tearfully spoke about her mental health after a man ‘harassed’ her and filmed her at the Australian Open.
‘Right now, my suicidal thoughts are rampant. My resting thought is “damn, I’d love to take a pill and go to sleep and not wake up, that would be really nice,” he continued.
‘When I’m anxious, I think about ending my own life because of this trolling and all the things I’ve listed.
“It’s been a slow process and I’m at a point where I’m like, ‘I can’t do this anymore, I can’t deal with this anymore, I’m so tired.’
The podcaster also detailed how she was left traumatized and suffering from PTSD due to domestic violence in a past relationship.
She explained how people expect her to be happy because she found love with musician Adam Hyde, however, Abbie is still affected by her past.
“There’s this idea that now that I’m with Adam and in a happy, safe relationship, everything is okay and all my PTSD is reversed and everything is happy, happy, and I can move on from that abusive relationship,” she shared.
“It’s getting better, but it’s not just ‘now you have a happy boyfriend, so everything’s fine.'”
“Any problem Adam and I have ends up tainted. I’m not overreacting or crazy, it’s my anxieties. I get really scared about certain things and I apologize too much.”
Abbie broke down in tears as she spoke about how online trolling has been affecting her mental health and leaving her struggling with suicidal thoughts.
Abbie said she tried EMDR therapy, which helps people process traumatic memories and is used to treat post-traumatic stress disorder, but it opened her mind to more “flashbacks” and made things worse for her.
‘Listen to the full episode to learn more about how I got here. I hope some of you can at least feel comfortable relating to how I feel. If you have difficulties, please contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.’
Her heartbreaking admission on the podcast came after Abbie was approached and filmed by a man at the Australian Open in what she described as “harassment.”
Abbie was working outside the Canadian Club tent when a man approached her and filmed her doing high kicks, before asking her who she was.
“I’m the Australian Open high kick champion,” she replied, to which he replied, “You wish you were the high kick champion.”
The footage was then shared online, with Abbie tearfully explaining that the man had been filming her to try to gain “internet clout” because he “hated” her.
“I was just goofing around and doing high kicks in front of the camera with the crew because it was raining and it was a hard day at work,” he began.
“We were all laughing and this man came up to us and said something to me… Turns out he was trying to film me to get influence on the internet because he hates me so much.
Abbie’s comments came after images of her at the Australian Open were shared, prompting a huge backlash, including from AFL star Jed Lamb who commented that she “stinked”.
In response, Abbie shared their private message exchange on her Instagram Stories while detailing the extent of the trolling she receives.
“I’m sorry you’re jealous because I got paid to go to the Australian Open and you had to pay to get in, but I was just a woman and men are so emboldened now,” she continued crying.
“All I do is talk politics, women’s rights, and advocate for victims of domestic violence to suffer more abuse from men,” Abbie continued before crying hysterically.
‘I’m so exhausted from being at work and having this happen to me from an ugly loser. The comments are horrible, but at least I live in my brain and have a beautiful life.”
Abbie also criticized AFL player Lamb for making a mean comment about her when the footage was shared online.
‘I love this. “She sucks,” Jed had commented on the publication.
Abbie took a screenshot of his comment and shared it with her fans along with a private message he sent her in 2021 asking if she would attend his girlfriend’s birthday celebrations.
‘When did you get on the right track because your 2021 message shows that your girlfriend loves me?’ she wrote.
‘Men are becoming radicalized. Look how he spoke to me just 3 years ago.’
Abbie then contacted Jed privately and asked, “Why don’t I like me?” before sharing the conversation with your followers.
It was a bit ironic. Lesson learned. Apologies,” Jed responded.
Abbie shared her response and captioned the conversation: ‘Weak kids!!!!’