Dennis Rodman started considering suicide outside the Detroit Pistons arena in 1993 and said he almost shot himself until he started listening to Pearl Jam in his truck and finally fell asleep.
Rodman, 58, is the subject of an ESPN: 30 for 30 documentary entitled & # 39; For Better or Worse & # 39; which describes the tumultuous life of the mercurial NBA forward.
While promoting the documentary, Rodman spoke with Bleacher report and explained the circumstances surrounding his near-suicide in 1993, when he was a member of the Pistons.
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Dennis Rodman started considering suicide outside the Detroit Pistons arena in 1993 and said he almost shot himself until he started listening to Pearl Jam in his truck and finally fell asleep
Rodman was parked outside the palace in Auburn Hills, Michigan as he began to listen to Pearl Jam while holding a gun and considering suicide. Rodman finally fell asleep
& # 39; So one day I wrote a note and went to the palace parking lot, & # 39; said Rodman, referring to the now-former Pistons arena in Auburn Hills, Michigan. & # 39; I had a gun rack and I had a gun in my car. I had it in my hand.
& # 39; But for some reason I played this music & # 39 ;, the five-time NBA champion continued. & # 39; I set it up and listened to this song and music, and I was just discussing. It had nothing to do with basketball. It had to do with this love that I wanted, and it suddenly left me.
& # 39; And this song came up. It was Pearl Jam. "Even Flow" and "Black" and things like that. And I had the gun on my lap, and before you know it, I fell asleep listening to Pearl Jam. Then I woke up and all the police and everyone was there. I didn't know what was going on. I had completely forgotten that I had a gun in my hand. They got me out of the car. That was just about what it was. It wasn't about basketball. It was about feeling betrayed because I wanted to love me so much in my life. & # 39;
That feeling of betrayal, Rodman explained, arose towards the end of his term with the Pistons.
Months after he considered suicide, Rodman (photo on the right with Pearl Jam lead singer Eddie Vedder) was traded to the San Antonio Spurs in October 1993 for forward Sean Elliott. He would later be traded to the Chicago Bulls for Will Perdue center
Rodman won three titles alongside Michael Jordan, Scottie Pippen and Phil Jackson in the 90s
A New Jersey resident, Rodman claims he never grew up near one of his parents, and consequently he spent much of his young life seeking approval from others.
He thought he had discovered that in Detroit after he was drafted in the second round of the 1986 NBA design and then won a few NBA titles with the group that affectionately & # 39; The Bad Boys & # 39; was named.
But by 1993, that team dropped to a record of 40-42 as the core began to show signs of age.
When that happened, Rodman explained, fans' admiration suddenly disappeared.
& # 39; I wanted to be loved by someone or someone because I was never loved by my mother or father because they were never there & he said. & # 39; So when I arrived in Detroit, they embraced me as one. And when things broke up (after the Pistons & # 39; Bad Boys were executed), I started to feel betrayed. I said, "What's the matter?" I was so in love with the way they loved me and were embraced by the people of Detroit.
TNT's Craig Sager helped Rodman talk about committing suicide in 1993
After Sager's death in 2016, Rodman thanked his friend on Twitter for saving my life & # 39;
Dennis Rodman (third from left, first row) and other American basketball players pose for photos with North Korean leader Kim Jong Un at the Pyongyang Indoor Stadium in 2014
& # 39; So when many of the people who loved me were gone and (former Pistons coach) Chuck Daly was gone, I was all alone. I had nobody to go to. I was not really connected to my mother or father. I had no contact with them. & # 39;
As the late TNT sideline told reporter Craig Sager Sport illustrated in 2016 before his death, he was one of the people who accused Rodman of injuring himself.
& # 39; He had the gun, & # 39; said Sager. & # 39; He would do it. I told him how stupid that would be. & # 39;
Rodman thanked Sager in a tweet after the beloved broadcaster died in December 2016 after a long fight against cancer.
& # 39; Thank you Craig Sager for saving my life when I urgently needed help in Detroit in 1993 & # 39 ;, he wrote. & # 39; Compassion with your family. RIP my friend. & # 39;
Rodman was traded at the San Antonio Spurs in October 1993 and later traded at the Chicago Bulls, where he won three titles alongside Michael Jordan. He has been out of competition since a short period with the Dallas Mavericks in 2000.
His life has not become less dramatic. He has been in and out of alcohol abuse treatment since his retirement and in May he was accused of stealing $ 3,500 worth of items from a yoga studio in California. There are never any costs charged.
He has also established a relationship with North Korean dictator Kim Jong-Un and has been in favor of improving relations between his country and the United States.
ESPN & # 39; s documentary about Rodman will premiere on Tuesday evening at 9 p.m.
In the 90s, Rodman was known to play with Pearl Jam – a band originally named after another NBA player, Mookie Blaylock
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